He was art incarnate.
Flowers grew where he walked.
He looked like fate,
And just like fate, he knocked.
He had stars in his eyes.
His voice dripped with gold.
He was temptation in disguise,
And my temptation couldn't be controlled.
He was a beautiful mystery.
His smile outshone the sun.
He was destiny,
And with him my destiny had begun.
He was an adventure.
He was all but iridescent.
His beauty was uncensored,
And his beauty was my torment.
He was nothing short of magic.
His laugh was musical.
He was timelessly classic,
And like the classics, beautiful.

And all of a sudden
I realized that
None of this was real.
Not the late nights
Or the long days.
Not even the fights.
And even sadder
Was the moment that
I realized I didn't care.
I loved you too much
To lose you,
And needed you too much
To risk it.
So I'll keep on loving you
Even though it breaks my heart.

They were scared of the dark
And the monsters under the bed.
I guess they all forgot
Real monsters live in your head.
They come out to play
When the sun sets in your eyes.
The skin you wear
Is just a tricky disguise.
Inside you're green
And your claws are large.
Your sweet voice is gone,
Becoming the sound of a battle charge.
So don't light a match,
We don't even need a spark.
Just turn the lights off,
The truth comes out in the dark.

Just a push of a plunger
And I'll make you warm again,
Make you forget how cold the world is.
Just one hit
And you'll smile again,
You'll sink into my bliss.
Just one push of a plunger,
Just one hit,
And, my friend, you're hooked.
But there's a dark side to me,
A side you don't see,
Not right away.
I'll run through your veins,
Rampant, destroying all I touch
Til I'm the only one who can fix you.
Just one more push of that plunger
And you can think again,
Without me your mind's in chains.
Just one more hit
And you can breathe again,
But its for the last time.
Just one more push,
Just one more hit,
And your life is mine.

You're my black tar,
My drug,
My ******.
I'm addicted
And I can't get enough.
I'll love you til I overdose,
With your needle still inside me.

I may be legally blind,
But my hindsight is 20/20.

Where I come from isn't all that great
My education was a piece of crap
My morals are a little whacked
And my friends are just as screwey as me
We didn't eat fancy foods
Happiness was out of reach
We weren't going anywhere
Had no money in our pockets
Still we knew
Someday we'd make it big
Rise above it all
Like the stars did
But that godforsaken town
Swallowed so many lives
Now Dom's doing 25 to life
Catie had a baby
And Justin lost to his own knife
The cops know our names by heart
Cause we spend more time in jail then home
And mothers hide their children
When we walk down the street
Cause we are the kids
Raised on broken dreams

Home isn't a place,
Its a feeling.
And I've never felt more at home
Than when I'm laying with you
Smoking a cigarette
With your arms wrapped around me.
Than when your hand
Is intertwined with mine
In your car in the middle of the night.
Than when I'm looking
Peacefully, into your wild eyes.
They say home is where the heart is
And my heart, and my home,
My dear,
Are with you.

They'll avert their eyes,
They'll avoid you.
You're just a hoodrat
Who's out past curfew.
You're obviously up to evil,
You're no **** good
Cause you're living in the country
But they know you're from the hood.
That cigarette hangin' out
From in between your cracked lips
Makes them all think
You don't got a purpose.
But they don't even care,
They don't wanna know you.
All they know about you
Is the window that they see through.

"I didn't mean to break it" he said,
Holding my heart in his hands.
"I didn't mean to break it
I swear it wasn't my plan".
He held my mangled heart out,
Unsure of what to do.
"I didn't mean to break it,
But I don't have any glue".
I watched him let the pieces drop
And bounce around the floor.
"I didn't mean to break it,
But I don't love you anymore".

I do believe in ghosts,
And how they linger on street corners.
How they leave invisible kisses
On the cheeks of their mourners.
I do believe in ghosts,
Even ones who aren't dead,
Who are just ethereal memories
Playing tricks with your heads.
I do believe in ghosts
Who aim to help and hurt.
Hopefully I'll be one too,
When I am buried in the dirt.

I don't want roses
To celebrate,
Nor when you've done something wrong.
I don't want roses
As a token of love,
I'd rather a song.
I don't want roses,
They cost way too much.
I don't want roses
Because they create such a fuss.
I don't want roses,
They come with thorns.
I don't want roses,
They don't say enough.
I don't want roses,
I'd rather have weeds.
I don't want roses
My dear,
Your love is all I need.

"I'm sorry, I forgot again",
My heart says to my brain.
"I'm sorry I forgot again,
I didn't mean to cause you pain".
"I'm sorry I forgot
I've never learned the ways of thought.
I'm sorry I forgot,
He's always been my soft spot".

If you ever lose me, my dear,
Do not search for me in your past,
Do not turn over any stones.
I am not hiding in the clouds,
Or under the waves.
Do not search crowded rooms,
Do not traverse city streets.
I am not hiding amid the trees
Or in the grave.
If you ever lose me, my dear,
Simply look in your heart.
I'll be there.

If you only knew
How much I really loved you
Then maybe, oh maybe,
You'd stay.
If you only knew
How much I really care
Then maybe, oh maybe,
You'd talk to me each day.
If you knew how much I loved you
Then maybe you'd be here.
If you knew how much I cared
Then maybe there'd be no fear.
If only you knew
How much I really loved you
Then maybe I'd be in your arms.
If only you knew
How much I really cared
Then maybe you'd read these yarns.
If you only knew,
My dear,
How much I really loved you
Then maybe,
Oh just maybe,
You'd stay.

If your car could talk,
It would speak of shirtless days
And pantless nights.
It would wince,
Remembering our voices,
Out of key and raised on high
Singing to every song we know.
If your car could talk,
It would cry
Thinking about when
We broke its little window
With a tow truck hook.
It would seethe
Remembering how we dismembered it,
Trying to start it without a key.
If your car could talk,
It would tell the world
Of our long drives
To destinations we never reached,
And our need to kiss
At every stop sign and red light.
Oh, dear,
If your car could talk,
It would tell on us.

I have romanticized hotel beds.
As a kid, I called the concrete home,
And nothing was better than a hotel bed.
My brother and I would fall like Icarus
Onto the feathery home as we said,
"There's nothing better than a hotel bed".
They were our trampolines, our forts
That protected us from the horrors we knew
And in that hotel bed we were nothing short
Of limitless.
We could laugh, we could fight,
For once we could be warm through out the night.
But that bed was more than just a place to sleep,
It was an escape from the every day.
Its something every child knows,
And most adults have tried to forget.
That whenever they lay
In that fluffy white bed
The world is their's to own.
So whenever I see a hotel
I'm transported back to long ago
When cold and wet
My brother and I
Fell, deeply, into a hotel bed.

I hear my train coming
Chugging down the track
I hear my train coming
I won't be looking back
I hear my train coming
To take me away from you
I hear my train coming
But I don't know where its going to
I hear my train coming
Its taking me where I can shine
I hear my train coming
And I know I'll be just fine
I hear my train coming
To take me far away
I hear my train coming
I'm finally leaving today

I love your lips when,
They are still wet with the taste of mine;
My dear I love your skin,
When you and I are intertwined.

I love your bright eyes,
Full of passionate fire.
And the way you light up my skies
At your simplest desire.

A tender love is not for me.
I do not want chocolate or flowers.
I need my own dead sea,
Who can keep me afloat for hours.

I love you and your fiery heart.
My dear, when can our eternity start?

I got a couple dents in the fender
Of my ****** car,
A couple rips in my best pair
Of my cheap jeans.
My scuffed up high tops
Are wearing thin,
Imperfection is my
New best friend.
My favorite t-shirt has
A couple of holes,
And my wallet's thinner than
My shoe's soles.
The scars on my skin
Are bright and white.
Imperfection is my
New best friend.
The streets of my ghetto
Are graffitied and dark,
And the knives in our pockets
Always stay sharp.
Though my best has a couple
Of nicks and cracks.
Imperfection is my
New best friend.

And out of all the people I’ve ever met
No one can make me feel
Quite as safe
And as insecure
As important
And as replaceable
As wanted and as unnecessary
As you can
With just a single look
You’re iridescent
And compared to you
No one shines quite as bright

I still search for you
In endless crowds,
Starless skies,
And empty rooms.
I still call your name,
In lonely fields,
Raging storms,
And, loudest, in my mind.
I still wonder
Where you and I went wrong,
If I haunt your dreams too,
And if all this time will bring me back to you.
But my dear I have learned,
Not to waste my time,
Cause though you're just a memory,
My dear, I do not mind.

I think you're hard to get over
I think you could still be mine
I think you're a super nova
I think you make the world shine
I think you're made of stardust
I think you know that you are
I think that love might destroy us
I think that you're near yet so far
I think you know that you're perfect
I think you know that I'm hooked
I think if you left I'd be heart wrecked
I think you can't be overlooked
I think I'll love you forever
I think you've stolen my heart
I think I'll follow you wherever
I think we should never part
I think you know that I love you
I think you might just be scared
I think you might love me too
I think this love might be shared

I dreamt about you last night,
While I lay in bed,
It was pure delight.
(I think I made you up inside my head)
Your beautiful eyes
Turned my cheeks bright red,
They could tell no lies.
(I think I made you up inside my head)
There are just so many things
That you left unsaid,
And so many unattached strings.
(I think I made you up inside my head)
I dreamt of you last night,
While I lay in bed,
And everything was right.
(I think I made you up inside my head)

I think I saw you in my dreams last night,
You were the one holding my hand.
I knew it was you at first sight.

Dear I just don't understand,
But God knows I won't fight,
Just give in to this higher command.

Cause I saw you in my dreams last night,
Your lips were on mine,
And nothing has felt so right.

Dear it was so fine
When in my mind all night,
Our bodies could intertwine.

I think I saw you in my dreams last night,
You were the one who made me smile.
Now waking next to you, I know my dreams were right.

I think of all the things I've left unsaid
As I sing love songs to the back of your head;
Like the way you make my soul sing,
Or the joy that your smile brings.
Its only love, it shouldn't be this hard.
It's only love, but it caught me off guard.
I think of all the things I wish I'd done,
And how I have not yet done one;
Like how I have not kissed your lips
Or told you how you make my heart skip.
Its only love, it shouldn't be this hard.
It's only love, but it caught me off guard.
I think of all the things I've left unfelt,
And how your eyes make me melt;
Like how your voice beckons me,
And how your love would set me free.
Its only love, it shouldn't be this hard.
It's only love, but it caught me off guard.
I think of all the ways I love you,
And how I wish you knew.
But I'll leave it all unsaid,
And keep on singing love songs to the back of your head.

I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
But now I grow my own
I've grown a whole garden now
Waiting for you to come back home
I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
But I'm no longer naive
My garden has since died
You're no longer someone I believe
I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
But my dear I should've known
That all my hoping would do
Is make me realize I'm alone
I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
I'd hoped you'd love me too
But those flowers never came
And my dear neither did you

I've just seen a face
My heart could never replace.
I'll stay captivated by your eyes
Til the day you ask me to leave your side,
Though you don't see me there.
I've just heard a voice
In which I'll forever rejoice,
For there's a music in it
To which my heart submits.
My dear, it just isn't fair.
I've just experienced a feeling
That left my head and heart reeling.
My heart begins to race
Each time I see your face
And my ears joyously ring
Each time I hear you sing.
I've just seen a face
That puts all others to disgrace.
I've just heard a voice
That makes my heart rejoice.
I've just met a man
I can't describe, no words can.

I've always wanted to travel the world.
So I will trek,
Across your skin,
Sail through your veins,
And climb over each goosebump.
Your bones will guide me,
So that I don't lose my way.
I'll explore the ridges of your lips,
And swim in the pools
That are your eyes.
I've always wanted to travel the world,
But your heart
Is where I'll make my home.

Our story begins with a girl. She was beautiful, but not in the way you might expect. Her hair did not drip with gold; her eyes were not the color of the summer sky. Her smile was crooked and broken, and the bags under her eyes, omnipresent. Her hair did not shine, nor did her eyes, and her laugh was tired, as was her smile. And yet, she was beautiful. She was beautiful in the way the ocean kisses the shore, in the way poetic words flow from broken hearts. Mostly she was beautiful because she refused to taste defeat, even when it was all there was to eat. Her name was Joy, though she never felt any.

You were so smooth
When you hot-wired my heart
And stole it in the blink of an eye
You took my heart for a joyride dear
But you forgot all the joy

I walk down this road all alone,
No one’s problems but my own.
But they’re too heavy to carry.
I stumble, I fall.
Can’t stand up so I crawl.
I’m drowning in tears
Overcome by my fears.
I just need to get out.
My life’s in the drain,
Can’t handle so much pain.
Just gotta get out.
Everything seems so different,
But I’m still the same.
When I thought life was good problems came.
I don’t know where life’s taking me.
I go around like what comes around.
Never knowing home, I feel like a puppy from the pound.
I’m drowning in tears,
Overcome by my fears.
I just need to get out.
My life’s in the drain,
Can’t handle so much pain.  
I just gotta get out.
I’m filled with doubt,
Just need to get out.
It’s not them it’s me.
Can’t this just be a dream?

Last night I dreamt I married you,
Our wedding was all white.
Last night I dreamt I married you,
And we danced all through the night.
Last night I dreamt I married you,
Our house had a picket fence.
Last night I dreamt I married you,
Last night my life made sense.
Last night I dreamt I married you,
We spent our honeymoon in bed.
Last night I dreamt I married you,
But it was only in my head.

I woke up dead
Trapped in my head
Only able to think
Black stars hung above me
While dirt surrounded me like a sea
And I began to sink
It seemed to me that I was trapped
There was no hope of going back
To my old life
I knew then that I had died
And my oh my it hurt my pride
It cut like a knife
But as days went by
I began to rise
Like the phoenix
Now that I've escaped my head
And I rose from the dead
Call me Lazarus

Now I don't ever fall in love,
But on nights like this
When the city lights shine
And I dive to new depths
I have encounters like this.
I see him sitting on the couch
With that grin on his face.
I can't hide the nerves or the quakes,
He's beautiful.
I'm captivated.
His kiss is addictive,
I'm hooked just after one.
Now my delirium is gone,
I'm hooked on his lithium lips.

I've lost so many things, my dear,
My head, my heart, my soul
I've lost my present, my future, and all times of old.
I've lost so many things to you,
My dignity, my patience, my love,
You took my time, my passion, and just a single glove.
I lost 3 pairs of socks to you, a toothbrush, and some more
I've left at least 2 pairs of pants on your bedroom floor.
You took my favorite sweatshirt and my favorite song,
You've even stolen my sleep, keeping me up all night long.
I've lost so many things to you,
My blood, my pride, the color blue.
You've taken so many things from me,
The sun, the moon, the sea.
You've taken so many things,
My dear, why won't you take me?

Love gained
Love lost
Love is lost again
Hearts pained
Hearts taught
Not to love again
Tears fall
Pictures burn
Love is lost again
Come all
Who did learn
Not to love again
Search high
Search low
Love is lost again
Now I
Do know
Not to love again
Risk all
Or risk none
Love is lost
Hate has won
For empty hearts
Rule this life
Our empty hearts
So full of strife
Our hearts are locked
Our keys are lost
Till someone looks
Love is lost
So lovers that we are
Search high and low
We search near and far
To bring love back home
Dreamers dream
While lovers cry
Love is lost
And so am I

I never believed in love at first sight;
But I do believe in love at first touch,
Of your hand on my knee.
I believe in love at first breakfast,
Even if it’s just bacon and coffee.
I believe in love at fist dinner, too,
But breakfast has always been more important, anyway.
I even believe in love at first joke,
Even if you don’t think mine are as funny as I do.
I never believed in love at first sight
Because, my dear, how could I have known,
With just a simple glimpse,
The way your touch would stir my heart.
The way your voice would woo my mind
And your laugh send shivers down my spine.
The way your smile
Would lighten my creamless coffee.

I never believed in love at first sight;
But I do believe in love at first touch,
At first handshake.
I believe in love at first word,
Both uttered and sang.
I believe in love at first laugh
Shared over an awful cup of coffee.
I never believed in love at first sight
Because my dear how could I have known,
With just a simple glimpse,
The way your touch would stir my heart,
The way your words would woo my mind,
And your song, send shivers down my spine.
The way your laugh could sweeten my burnt coffee.
I never believed in love at first sight,
But, my dear, I believe I love you.

He was beautiful
And terrifying,
All at the same time.
Like love itself
He was a foggy
Moment of clarity,
A beautiful contradiction.
Like love itself
He was a home
That sated wanderlust,
A completion.
Like love itself
He was both the fifth
And the whole,
Like a miracle.
He was love itself.

A little bit of heaven
And a whole lot of hell
Is sparkling in your eyes.
But I love your horns
More than your halo,
Cause your halo's a disguise.
I love the devil in you
And the way mischief
Makes you shine.
I love the moments
When heaven disappears
And the lust of hell fills your eyes.
I hate the angel in you
And when you're good and pure.
I hate the angel in you
Cause its only a disguise.

Madmen and lovers have such seething brains
Inspired and insipid they feel their pains
Madmen, their imagination bleeding into fact
Lovers, past the point of no turning back
Inspired to create anew
Insipid in what they are required to do
Madmen and lovers dream the same dreams
They know nothing is as it seems

Make it easy,
Say I never mattered.
Scream it through a loudspeaker
So the whole world hears,
And write it on your arms
So that you won't forget.
Make it easy,
Say it was a fling.
Erase the "I love you"s
So that they never show
And sweep our memories under the couch
On which we once were intertwined.
Make it easy,
Say it was a lie.
Run it up the flagpole
So you feel good inside.
Make it easy,
My dear,
And please,
Make it quick.

I'm sniffing memories like glue
Hoping that the trip
Will lead me back to you.
When you made my heart skip
When you made it beat fast
When, together, we would strip.
I always thought our love would last
I never thought we'd part
But now its in the past.
When you left you took my heart
You left me all alone
So now with this glue I'll start.
This trip is like going home
Cause now I'm back with you,
Back in the arms that were my abode.
These trips are why I love this glue
I've missed our love, my dear
And these memories are all I have to lead me back to you.

I am in love,
My dear,
With a moment
We never had.
I marvel,
My dear,
At the possibilities
In our future.
I dream,
My dear,
Of the day we lie
Side by side.
I hope,
My dear,
For our night,
All in white.
I know,
My dear,
I'll dance in your arms
Some beautiful night.

Nightmares become reality.
The monsters leave your closet,
Crawl out and join you in your bed.
And once you let them in, dear,
They'll infest your head.
Nightmares become reality,
You believe them 'til they're true
And before you even notice, dear,
They've engulfed you.
Nightmares become reality,
As real as you and I.
They manifest themselves in front of you
And, dear, they break your heart.
Nightmares become reality so, please, have very few.

I used to have a heart
But the streets stole it
I'm no longer a poet
Just drugged with a pen
Hitting rock bottom time and again
Its hard out here
So I grab another beer
And drink my pain away
Til a sunnier day,
If it ever comes
Til then the drugs will numb
Me and my bad decisions
And all my artistic visions
Til I'm no longer a poet
Just drugged with a pen

I want to get drunk
Off the champagne
In your kiss.
I want to get high
Off the sparks
In your smile.
I want to overdose
On the sweetness
Of your love.
I know you're bad
And you're bad for me.
But I want you
Nonetheless.
I want you
Not for your beauty
But for your brains.
For the way you walk
Like raindrops fall
And leave my heart
Beating like a drum
In perfect time with yours.
I want you for me
And for the music
We make when we're together.
I know you're bad for me
But I know you're good for me,
Nonetheless.

I’m that girl no one knows. I’m friends with the kids no one understands. I love the music no one likes. I write the story no one wants to read. I live the life no one wants to lead. We are the kids no one wants to know. We play the music no one wants to hear. We write the poems no one wants to read. We live the lives no one wants to live. You are the kid no one knows. You love the music no one likes. You write the story no one wants to write. You live the life no one wants to lead. How’s it feel? I hide from the world. We hide from the world. You hide from the world. Now you know what it’s like to be like me. To be the kid that no one sees.

You've made your home
Squeezed, tightly, between my lungs
That are filled with
The smell of you.
You remain, unspoiled,
In my stomach
Floating, happily,
With the butterflies you bought me.
And you hide in the eyes
That scanned every inch of you
While filled with desire.
Here you'll stay,
Tucked away in my nostalgia.