You're the heartbreak
I've worn with pride
And just a tinge of pain
Cause even though its been eternity
Since I've felt your touch
My heart still cries your name
And dear I'm in misery
Cause you played me
And put me to shame
Cause I was so in love
But to you it
Was just a game
When you were there
Outside my window
In a brand new suit and tie
You know I
Thought you were perfect
And that you could never lie
But God was I wrong
When I thought you were so innocent
God I was so foolish
When I thought you
Said only what you meant
I've never been so naive
In thinking someone
Was heaven sent
But like a flower
To the sun
To you I happily bent
When you were there
Outside my window
In that brand new suit and tie
You know I knew
In that moment
My love for you would never die

We were renegades
Born on broken
American dreams
Learning to love
With empty hearts
And eyes wide shut
Raised on highways
We were tramps
With voiceless screams
We conquered the world
With just the clothes on our back
But never got our cut
With determination in our voices
And stardust in our lungs
We went over and under
All at once
They called us trash
Though we were anything but

Darling, I'm addicted to you
And this love we never knew.
Dear, our story's nothing new,
Its as old as rhythm and blues.
Maybe you're whats waiting for me
At the bottom of this bottle.
Darling, when I saw you I fell,
Far past the depths of hell
Into the beautiful cell
Fashioned by your love spell.
No one else can bring
Me to my knees without a battle.
Darling, you're something to behold,
With that music in your soul.
Dear, you're full of tales untold
And passion uncontrolled.
Maybe you're what's waiting
For me at the bottom of this bottle.
Darling, I love you,
Plain and true.

Even wild horses couldn't drag me away from the future I see in your eyes.

As the city goes to bed
You and I dance inside my head
All the way down to Hyatt Street
Where lovers are inclined to meet
Flowers grew under our feet
And I love you is all we said
But then the sun began to rise
As reluctantly I opened my eyes
No flowers have grown
For my soul is alone
And the sun has shown
That our dance was a trick of the mind

I think of all the things I've left unsaid
As I sing love songs to the back of your head;
Like the way you make my soul sing,
Or the joy that your smile brings.
Its only love, it shouldn't be this hard.
It's only love, but it caught me off guard.
I think of all the things I wish I'd done,
And how I have not yet done one;
Like how I have not kissed your lips
Or told you how you make my heart skip.
Its only love, it shouldn't be this hard.
It's only love, but it caught me off guard.
I think of all the things I've left unfelt,
And how your eyes make me melt;
Like how your voice beckons me,
And how your love would set me free.
Its only love, it shouldn't be this hard.
It's only love, but it caught me off guard.
I think of all the ways I love you,
And how I wish you knew.
But I'll leave it all unsaid,
And keep on singing love songs to the back of your head.

This one's for the rebels and outcasts,
The Kubricks and Kerouacs.
This one's for the lovers,
And the poets undercover.
We'll run, run away
To a brand new day,
With no rules to obey,
Far from all those shades of grey.
So come dear,
Abandon all your fear,
Our future will be so clear,
When we live as cavaliers.
We'll lead a mutiny,
Until we're living free,
Away from all the scrutiny,
We'll run dear, just you and me.
So come dear,
Abandon all your fear,
Our future will be so clear,
When we live as cavaliers.
So all hail the outlaws,
Come on and join their cause.
All hail the cavaliers,
Living free as fear.

I still search for you
In endless crowds,
Starless skies,
And empty rooms.
I still call your name,
In lonely fields,
Raging storms,
And, loudest, in my mind.
I still wonder
Where you and I went wrong,
If I haunt your dreams too,
And if all this time will bring me back to you.
But my dear I have learned,
Not to waste my time,
Cause though you're just a memory,
My dear, I do not mind.

He was James Dean,
My cigarette daydream.
He was wild,
And I was his flower child.
He was my secret,
And I was unfit.
But with that mischievous look in his eye
I never could say goodbye.

They said find what you love,
And let it **** you.
So when I found the man
Who made flowers grow
In my charred lungs,
I let them suffocate me.

I am in love,
My dear,
With a moment
We never had.
I marvel,
My dear,
At the possibilities
In our future.
I dream,
My dear,
Of the day we lie
Side by side.
I hope,
My dear,
For our night,
All in white.
I know,
My dear,
I'll dance in your arms
Some beautiful night.

I want to travel the world
And make love in every country
Where I'd forgo each beautiful sight
Just to stare into your eyes.
I wanted to follow the stars
To a different home each night
But you've tamed my gypsy heart
And now the north star leads me to you.
You've caused roots to grow
On my once wondering feet
Til I was planted in front of you,
So happily stuck.
Flowers have begun to sprout
On every centimeter of skin
That you've caressed,
Each more beautiful than the last.
You've made me yours my dear,
Without asking.
And I've agreed,
Without telling.

For the first time I am breathless,
Heart pounding in your presence.
For the first time my eyes are glued,
To this love I cannot elude.
For the first time I overlook the danger
Of falling for a perfect stranger.
For the first time I am lost,
And as a lover my stars are crossed.
For the first time I am in love,
Cause you're more than I've dreamed of.
For the first time my dear,
I am complete.

He was art incarnate.
Flowers grew where he walked.
He looked like fate,
And just like fate, he knocked.
He had stars in his eyes.
His voice dripped with gold.
He was temptation in disguise,
And my temptation couldn't be controlled.
He was a beautiful mystery.
His smile outshone the sun.
He was destiny,
And with him my destiny had begun.
He was an adventure.
He was all but iridescent.
His beauty was uncensored,
And his beauty was my torment.
He was nothing short of magic.
His laugh was musical.
He was timelessly classic,
And like the classics, beautiful.

Tell me dear,
Do you wish we'd fall in love?
Cause its all I'm thinking of.
Tell me dear,
Do you think I had a chance?
I was captivated after just a glance.
Tell me dear,
Is this just a dream?
You cannot be as perfect as you seem.
Tell me dear,
Where do I start?
You have stolen my heart.
Tell me dear,
Will you take my heart?
Cause I've been hooked from the start.
Tell me dear,
Are you what you seem?
Cause you are my dream.
Tell me dear,
Was it just a glance?
I hope you'll give me a chance.
So tell me dear,
Do you wish we'd fall in love?
Cause its all I'm thinking of.

Oh darling,
I think I need you,
I don't think I'll make it alone.
Oh darling,
Though its still new,
I think you might be the one.
Oh darling,
When you smile
You outshine each star in the sky.
Oh darling,
Its been a while
Since anyone caught my eye.
Oh darling,
I can't resist
The music in your soul.
Oh darling,
I must insist
That its my heart that you stole.

I can't help falling in love with you,
Or the way that you move.
Like a river flows,
Or two plus one is three,
Dear that's the way it goes,
Some things will always be.
So don't just take my hand,
Take my heart too.
God knows this wasn't planned.
I can't help falling in love with you.
And I know it hasn't been long
But I just can't help my self.
And maybe I am wrong,
But I don't have eyes for anyone else.
With that look in your eye,
What else can I do?
And although I try,
I can't help falling in love with you.
So don't just take my hand,
Take my heart too.
God knows this wasn't planned.
I can't help falling in love with you.

The sparkles in your eyes,
Captivate my mind.
You serenade me,
And set my heart free,
This hasn't happened for the longest time.
The music in your soul
Makes me lose control,
And is in perfect time
With all of my rhymes,
This hasn't happened for the longest time.
There's something in the way you move
That draws my eyes to you.
You gave a kick start
To my now love-struck heart.
This hasn't happened for the longest time.
If I only I knew
Why I'm inspired by you
And the sparkles in your eyes
Make me write.

They call it stormy Monday,
But Tuesday's a hurricane.
Wednesday's even worse without you babe.
Thursday's also sad,
And Friday's just as bad,
Saturday ain't worth the wait without you babe.
I'll spend my first Sunday in church
Prayin' all day,
For you to come back baby.
They call it stormy Monday,
Since my baby went away.
Tuesday's been a hurricane
Cause my baby went away again,
Wednesday's even worse
Its like livin' with a curse without you babe.
Thursday's also sad,
And Friday's just as bad,
Saturday ain't worth the wait.
Then Sunday came like it was fate,
And I prayed for you all over again.
Every Monday's stormy without you
And every day just gets more blue.

You were there, outside my window,
In a brand new suit and tie.
I let you in, because I thought I
Was a mess, you'd wear with pride.
You, pulled my dress off
And laid me down, for the first time.
I let you in, because in my heart I'm
Just so naive.
You were there, inside my mind,
Still in that, sweet pink tie.
And you became, the twinkle in my eye,
And every single, star in my sky.
I, fell so in love with
You, my reason, and my rhyme.
And my dear, it'd be a crime,
If our love burned out before its time.
And darling you,
Are just so sublime
Standing out there, in that suit and tie.
But its been forever since,
You were out there.
Now you're only, in my mind.

Dear I just can't forget
How your lips caressed mine,
Or wrapped around a cigarette.
Your stare still penetrates,
Though it hasn't met mine
In quite some time.
The ghosts of your fingertips
Dance along
Every inch of my skin,
And your smell still lingers
In the many folds
Of my sheets.
You're hiding at every corner
And lurking
Around every turn.
I can't quite escape
The memories of you,
They've invaded my senses dear.
You're trapped
In every piece of me,
Yet you're miles and miles away

I've counted every firefly
Waiting for you
One
You have stars in your eyes
Two
And stardust in your lungs
Three
Your voice will drip with honey
Four
My counting's just begun
Sixteen
Every day will be and adventure
Seventeen
I'll travel the world with you
Eighteen
We won't have to leave the bed
Nineteen
My world will be you
Forty-three
We'll compare scars
Forty-four
And swap the best stories
Forty-five
We won't care about accomplishments
Forty-six
We're each other's greatest glories
One hundred and eight
I'm getting lonely dear
One hundred and nine
I counted this firefly twice
One hundred and ten
The waiting will be worth it
One hundred and eleven
You'll be my only vice
One thousand and twenty-one
I don't think you're coming
One thousand and twenty-two
I lost count a long time ago,
I hope you're counting too.

They were scared of the dark
And the monsters under the bed.
I guess they all forgot
Real monsters live in your head.
They come out to play
When the sun sets in your eyes.
The skin you wear
Is just a tricky disguise.
Inside you're green
And your claws are large.
Your sweet voice is gone,
Becoming the sound of a battle charge.
So don't light a match,
We don't even need a spark.
Just turn the lights off,
The truth comes out in the dark.

When you come to see me, dear,
Wear stars in your eyes
So I know you're true.
And when you speak to me
Keep honesty in your voice
So I believe in you.
When you come to see me, dear,
I'll wear my heart on my sleeve
So you know that I am true.
And when I speak to me
I'll have flowers on my tongue
Because I believe in you

I built dreams with you
And breathed them in like air.
I thought we'd last forever,
Instead of just a second.
But you turned into carbon monoxide in my lungs
And I choked til I turned blue;
Which is how I stayed
Til, even though I was still in love,
You turned and walked away.

Things are calling me away again.
The stars are tugging my hand,
Leading me towards infinity.
The river has engulfed me once more
And is rushing me to its end.
Things are calling me away again.
The smoke that full my lungs
Inflated them enough for me to fly.
My gas pedal is propelling me
To adventures unknown.
Things are calling me away again,
And I couldn't be happier to comply.

I learned today
That our cells regenerate
Every seven years.
It gives me peace
To know that in seven years
My body will no longer know you.
In seven years my skin
Will no longer tingle
At your touch.
In seven years my tongue
Will no longer remember
The taste that your lips allowed.
In seven years my eyes
Will no longer see you
On every street corner.
In seven years my ears
Will no longer hear
The music in your voice.
In seven years my nose
Will no longer smell
Your cologne in my bed.
But I learned another fact today:
Your braincells never go.
How tormenting it is
That you'll be gone from all my senses
But, in seven years, still haunt my mind.

In five years time
We could be happy,
Laughing in the sun
And in the dark.
All my rhymes
Would be sappy,
About having fun
Or what we do in the dark.

In four years time
We could be exploring
Mountains in the day
And caves at night.
The sun could shine
Or it could be pouring
But either way
I'd want you to stay the night.

In three years time
We could be drinking,
Just so we have something
To talk about.
All that wine
Would stop us thinking
Til we want to do nothing
But walk about.

In two years time
We could be fighting,
Arguing with the stars
And with ourselves.
It would be a crime,
A wrong worth righting,
Lying to our hearts
And to ourselves.

In one years time
You could be gone.
My bedside would be cold
And I'd be alone.
But I think we'll be fine,
I think we'll make it.
But in one years time
You could prove me wrong.

Bottle of blues in hand,
I've had to much to think.
I'm trying to understand
But I've begun to sink.
My mind races
Til I run out of breath,
I've lost my sanity, lost all traces,
I think I've thought myself to death.
Bottle of ***** in hand,
I've had too much to drink.
I'm trying to understand,
But in this bottle, I've begun to sink.

You made flowers grow under my bed
And in my  head
Where monsters used to hide.
You made tulips grow on my tongue,
Planted sunflowers in my lungs,
And violets in the bags under my eyes.
There are roses between my toes
And irises, growing in rows,
All down my spine.
You've made flowers grow, my dear,
In every corner of my mind.

I think I saw you in my dreams last night,
You were the one holding my hand.
I knew it was you at first sight.

Dear I just don't understand,
But God knows I won't fight,
Just give in to this higher command.

Cause I saw you in my dreams last night,
Your lips were on mine,
And nothing has felt so right.

Dear it was so fine
When in my mind all night,
Our bodies could intertwine.

I think I saw you in my dreams last night,
You were the one who made me smile.
Now waking next to you, I know my dreams were right.

There are centuries in your cells
And galaxies in your soul.
A thousand rivers run, rampant,
Through your bloodstream,
And there are worlds waiting to be discovered
In your ever widening eyes.
There are mountains in your bones
And flower beds grow on your tongue.
Your skull holds countless caves
I yearn to explore.
There are dinosaurs in your mind
And stardust in your lungs.
All I need to know is within you,dear
And I ache to learn.

These concrete streets
And passing cars
Have become my new
Jail cell bars.
Trapped in a city
Full of strangers
Got me feeling so empty,
And alone.
Surrounded by gray buildings
And even grayer faces
All speeding past
In their own rat races.
Round here
Everything looks the same,
And there's no cheer,
But baby there's no pain.
And round here
The colors have bled out
And there's nothing left but gray
Within and without.
We're all so empty,
Broken and alone,
Trapped in this city
That is no longer home.

Just a push of a plunger
And I'll make you warm again,
Make you forget how cold the world is.
Just one hit
And you'll smile again,
You'll sink into my bliss.
Just one push of a plunger,
Just one hit,
And, my friend, you're hooked.
But there's a dark side to me,
A side you don't see,
Not right away.
I'll run through your veins,
Rampant, destroying all I touch
Til I'm the only one who can fix you.
Just one more push of that plunger
And you can think again,
Without me your mind's in chains.
Just one more hit
And you can breathe again,
But its for the last time.
Just one more push,
Just one more hit,
And your life is mine.

All that I've got
Is all that you gave me
So I never thought
I'd be so **** empty.
I gave you all the love
My heart ever held,
But now I'm left thinking of
My now living hell.
Its all I've got left,
Without you
My heart is bereft.
Dear, you've got me so blue.
Ever since that day
I've tried leaving you
But there was no way,
My soul's torn in two
And its tearing me apart,
Trying to love you.
You've broken my heart,
Dear, you've got me so blue.

You were so smooth
When you hot-wired my heart
And stole it in the blink of an eye
You took my heart for a joyride dear
But you forgot all the joy

I never lost
Until I met you
You're my Waterloo

I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
But now I grow my own
I've grown a whole garden now
Waiting for you to come back home
I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
But I'm no longer naive
My garden has since died
You're no longer someone I believe
I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
But my dear I should've known
That all my hoping would do
Is make me realize I'm alone
I used to hope you'd bring me flowers
I'd hoped you'd love me too
But those flowers never came
And my dear neither did you

Give me fiction
Give me lies like never before
Cause lately
I've been wanting more
The truth is overrated
Its overrun
But most of all
Its overdone
So give me fiction
Spin me a wonderful
Web of lies
Make them meaningful
Don't be real
Please make it fake
Cause the truth
Makes my heart ache
So give me fiction
A beautiful tale
Trick me into thinking
We will never fail
Give me fiction
Give me lies like never before
Cause lately dear
I've been wanting more

I woke up dead
Trapped in my head
Only able to think
Black stars hung above me
While dirt surrounded me like a sea
And I began to sink
It seemed to me that I was trapped
There was no hope of going back
To my old life
I knew then that I had died
And my oh my it hurt my pride
It cut like a knife
But as days went by
I began to rise
Like the phoenix
Now that I've escaped my head
And I rose from the dead
Call me Lazarus

Waking up dead
With an empty head
Not a single thought
To be had
They're all out today.
I'm overwrought
And under thought
With pretty lies
My love is bought
And then thrown away.
I've got my disguise
I've got my lies
They're indiscernible
To untrained eyes
It's like child's play.
Waking up dead
With an empty head
All that's in store
Is going back to bed
Its just not my day.

The curse of complacency
Is all in my mouth,
I'm choking
On its bittersweet taste.
I want to cut the ties
To the sandbags holding me down.
I want to float away
Across the seas,
Drink up countries
To quench my wanderlust.
I want to discover the mysteries
Each continent has to hold.
To relish
In uncertainty,
But complacency
Is just so comforting.

She was a girl bogged down
Stuck in a mire
When she climbed she fell
She couldn't get any higher
But when she falls she lands
Like a bird on a wire
Cause she's got something within her
Within her there's fire
So she cut her ties
She's never coming back
She's riding her train
To the end of its track
Where she knows no one
Not a Jill or a Jack
And no one
Knows what she lacks
But with no destination
She's stuck wandering
No visible future
She's stuck pondering
About the potential
She's busy squandering
So without any answers
She's stuck wondering

Left black and blue,
Coloring outside the lines,
Her skin's what she bleeds through
And her  eyes are  the tiny windows
You can see through.
She wanders the streets,
Searching for someone
Who eye's she meets.
Searching for someone,
Someone sweet.
Plagued by violence,
She lived her life
Trapped in silence,
Til, coated in bruises,
She began her defiance.
Beaten and broken
She's left her past
And pain unspoken,
Til, coated in bruises,
Her rebellion was awoken.

I used to have a heart
But the streets stole it
I'm no longer a poet
Just drugged with a pen
Hitting rock bottom time and again
Its hard out here
So I grab another beer
And drink my pain away
Til a sunnier day,
If it ever comes
Til then the drugs will numb
Me and my bad decisions
And all my artistic visions
Til I'm no longer a poet
Just drugged with a pen

You've been the preacher
Baby I've been your pulpit
You've been my teacher
On just how to take a hit
I fall for you
You say you love me this amount
But its never true
You broke my heart way more times than I can count
So I'm moving on
I'm finally quitting you
I wrote this song
Just to tell you I am through
Now I'll fix my make up
And go out on the town
Its just a break up
I don't need you around
But you're a master
At heart manipulation
So its a disaster
To try and end this relationship
Baby you're my vice
I always crawl back to you
Its my pride I sacrifice
When I lie and say we're through

I hear my train coming
Chugging down the track
I hear my train coming
I won't be looking back
I hear my train coming
To take me away from you
I hear my train coming
But I don't know where its going to
I hear my train coming
Its taking me where I can shine
I hear my train coming
And I know I'll be just fine
I hear my train coming
To take me far away
I hear my train coming
I'm finally leaving today

I'm a problem child
Unraised, but somehow grown
Returning every night
To a broken home
Where fists were mouths
So words broke bones
But somewhere within
A metamorphosis took place
And I took off
Left without a trace
So my scars
Could finally be erased
Now I'm sleeping on benches
Got nowhere I belong
Not looking for a home
I never stay anywhere long
I'm always on the move
Running away from what's wrong
Now I'm beggin the question
Is broken better than alone?

All my friends
They go to any ends
To be on that silver screen
They wanna be large
They wanna be stars
They just wanna be seen
So they pop pills
And seek thrills
And sell their souls for some green
Their passion gets lost
In the glamour and gloss
Til they don't know what life means

They tried to bury us my dear
But they didn't realize that we were seeds