while her bed is full of people
her heart is empty
longing to be filled by him.

the petals
fall
the leaves
turn brown

but
my love
will never fade

yours did.

five more days
until i leave
brought back into a world
i do not belong in

leaving my friends
leaving my home
leaving where i love
for what?

stupid questions from people
i do not care about
and do not want to see
but what do i say?

“it’s good to back,
i missed you”

i remember
all the late nights
yelling and crying

i try
to block it out
keep it from my mind

i can’t
forget the things
we said

but the funny thing is
i couldn’t tell you
about the good times

why only memories
of pain

shivers
up my spine
even in intense heat
left alone
in the cold pain
of self loathing

but the warm blanket
of him
wraps around me

i am okay.

i think
about you
every day

about what
you think
of me

you do not
even consider
what i do

even still
it is you
and always will be