unanswered questions
like a parasite in the blood stream
i feel them crawling through my veins
the confusion and discontent
infects my forearms
i can sense my blood flowing with uncertainty
nothing makes sense
except for you -
listen to me
look in my eyes, not at them
see the sorrow and disorganization
be there, be ever present
calm my blood
be my rock
understand me
until i can understand myself

the skull is a cage
filled with unspoken thoughts
and abstract longings
a masquerade of logic and order
is formed
the unspoken becomes the unthought
the abstract becomes the unimportant
replaced by systematic expression
waiting to be tamed, the mind is an animal
the skull is a cage

create a habitat in the vastness
invite me to it
show me it
let me love it
let me capture your smile in my mind
let me inhabit your habitat

time passes
water flows
drawing circles
in the corner of
your room
trying to find
the center
it all went wrong
trying
to find
the center

a liminal experience
we walked together
she looked at me
and i at her
her eyes said the same thing
that had been inscribed in mine
our hands let go
the eyes went blank
a liminal experience

stop! right there-
good, now, smile wide,
wait, hold on-
is the battery dead?
i can’t work this thing
too advanced for me
oh..that button? got it.
ready? oh ****.
it’s gone.

darkness
elephant walking
darkness

pupils dilate
lungs inhale
……….
exhale
……….
inhale
……...
exhale
………
feet walk
left/right
left/right
left/right
towards the light