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I will See the World Burn in the Flames of Glory,
Before I Welcome Death into my heart.
I hate these stupid people,
These idiotic,
Imbecile mortal people,
How I wish I could,
Oh I wish I could,
Smash in their faces with a sack of bricks,
Oh I want to release this rage,
Show them my wrath,
Let them know who they ****** with,
I want to eliminate them,
Delete them,
Erase their existence....

I want to wipe away their intolerance,
Cleans them of their idiocracy,
I want to release my rage,
Let it go,
Give zero *****....
But I can't,
I'm to nice,
And at the same time,
I want them to be my friend,
To understand me,
But I can't even understand them....
Beauty is the thing,
That which all Men desire,
and all Women Strive to become,

It is in the Eye of the Beholder,
Something that we selectively want,
and something we learn to Love over time,
no matter "Fat", "Skinny" or "Curvy"
People CAN be beautiful,
But true beauty,
Is the Beauty of the heart.
How am I still Standing,
When my Dreams are nothing but Illusions,
How can I bear the love,
How can I still Stand,
When He is in my mind,
Making love to me,
He Holds me Against his will,
I am Broken,
But still Standing...

When I dream of You,
It becomes torture when I wake,
I wonder,
Why?
Why Cant this be real,
Why Cant I be with you,
When Will we meet,
I need a shoulder,
Alone,
Broken,
Lost in a dream,
Slowly becoming a nightmare...

I want to stop Dreaming,
I want to start Living,
I want to Stop Asking,
and I want to start Knowing...
Knowing that you are here,
Knowing you will always hold me,
Never let me go,
For I am Broken,
But Still Standing!

I don't know where you are,
I don't know when you'll come,
and I wont stop waiting,
Till you become the one...
Oh how I long for Eternity,
To roam the earth,
the stars,
the universe for All Eternity,
Oh how I long for eternal beauty,
To be a goddess among men,
To be a Star among earth,
Oh how I long for Eternal Life,
To never die,
So that I may learn the secrets of our world,
So that I may walk upon the burning sun,
Oh how I long for Eternity,
To forever be me,
To forever be Free,

But there is a Burden of Eternity,
To live forever,
without Family,
without Ever After,
without a "Normal" life,
The Burden of Eternity,
Loneliness,
Solitude,
Emptiness,
But these are all normal feelings I have,
But to have them for Eternity?
Is the Burden of Eternity...
a problem,
an issue,
I don't know what it is,
All I know is that...
I'm crazy for you!
I once thought it was an obsession,
But,
the feeling of embarrassment,
the feeling of hope,
the feeling of love,
makes me crazy.
I'm Jealous to be a Boy,
to not be like other women,
to not be beautiful in all other mens eyes,
I fear Rejection,
I fear the Lonely whispers in my mind,
I fear the reactions that hide,
under the lips of a lie,

I wish for once,
A man,
A man who cares not,
About what is physical,
But what is internal and Beautiful,
A man who cares not for men, nor women,
A man who sees me for me,
For the heart that I bear,
For the love that I share,
Handsome and wise,
Perfection in my eyes,

But still though I wish,
I am jealous to be,
Still yet a boy,
Jealous of those Girls,
Who have boys as easily,
As it is to buy a toy,
I wish this was the world,
Were love was all the same,
and people did not suffer,
for how they look,
But love is not the same,
and thats why it is beautiful,
Because it is unique,
and different,
Just like people.
My heart is beating so so hard,
I feel so much of its pain,
Pouring from my eyes,
Just like Rain,

My heart,
It beats so loudly,
I shake and cry,
Cant hold myself,
and soon my eyes are dry,
Cant Stand,
My heart hurts,

I lay there hoping for an angel,
to take me away,
to take my heart and fix it,
To hold my hands,
help me stand,
help me live,
help me...

Oh without you its hell,
Without you I'm insane,
Without you,
This is a nightmare...

My heart Beats Quietly,
Softly,
and now I lay here,
Wet,
Cold,
Alone,
In the shower of my pouring tears...
From the corner of my eye,
you are there,
All my hope goes to you,
to see you,
at least just to see,

I want to be myself near you,
But when I see you,
From the Corner of my eye,
I am not me,
Oh how I wish,
How I wish you were like me,
How I wish you'd Know,
And feel the same,

But I know you don't,
And when I see you,
In the corner of my eye,
I smile to myself,
Happy,
but I Say to myself to you,
"Leave me Alone,
I don't want to hurt again."
I really Like this guy, But I know He doesn't like me... He isn't that way...
You Scream and Cry like a newborn child,
But your heart has sunk like the unforgotten unsinkable ship,
It Cracks and breaks under the increasing pressure,
down down down,
and further below the surface,
It sinks deeper into your chest,

Your tears have sank your heart,
Your sorrow has crushed it,
Your Depression,
Dragging it down into the abyss,
You lay in your bed,
unsure,
unknowing of the future,
and revisiting the past,

You fear what comes next,
You fear the unknown,
you don't want this hurt again,
not anymore, forevermore,

Drag yourself from bed,
turn off the light,
turn off everything,
find yourself in a bath,
a Bath of love, water
the life, the blood of your mother,
Wash yourself Clean,
and soak up positivity,

Dry yourself with warmth,
and drown in it,
sink down to your heart,
and listen,
Feel,
and look upon it,
it is you, Unique, different,

Grasp yourself,
and swim back to the surface,
harder at first,
but worth the shot,
and soon depression can no longer weigh you down,
soon you can Live again,
New,
Happy,
Loving,
and Alive,
So live and let be,
mistakes are of the past,
and the future is best unknown,
so focus on you,
Focus on now,
and you will always be you,
So live and Let be,
and let your worries free!
Oh,
Lucifer,
How art thou fallen from heaven,
thou is truth,
thou knows all,
how art thou fallen from Hell?

Stand your ground my lord,
Never let go of what you believe,
and fight on wards and forward,
For glory,
For Honor,
For Pride,
For the Kingdom of Humanity!

How art thou Fallen from Heaven,
For Thou art the one,
The One who Set us free...
The One who Sacrificed everything,

Though thou hast Fallen,
Thou Stands Tall,
Thou art a Fire,
A Fire that cannot be purged,
Thou Art Holy,
Thou Art True,
Thou Art Godly.
I Rule,
I am god,
I am the highest of the High,
Perfection to man,
Perfection to light,
Perfection to the Fires,

I am His Infernal Majesty!!!
Men bow before me,
Women dance before my eyes,
I burn upon the Earth,
Man Burns with my heart,
Life goes on,
I am He Who has fallen,
Only to Ascend,
To merge with the Holiest of things,
The Holy Flame,

I am God,
Master of all,
Voice of Kings,
Slayer of Emperors,
Destroyer of Worlds,
Mother of All Natural Things,
Father of Perfection,
Father or the Truth,
Mother of Love,
Passion,
Lust,
Pain,
Death,
Life,
The Morning Star!
Mother help,
I am angry,
I am ****** and in fury,
I feel as though I will explode like a bomb,
I want to blow everything to smithereens,
Taking all that defies me,
Along with me...

Mother help,
I'm so closed up,
I can't just hold it in,
I can't just scream it out,
I want to hurt someone,
Hurt them so bad I become their nightmare,
But I don't want to be hated,
I want their love, respect, everything.

Mother help me,
I'm losing my grip,
I'm losing myself,
Slowly slipping back into insanity,
I feel three times as much as normal....
If I was a woman...
This would be a period.....
Empty,
Invisible,
Alone,
And oh so sensitive,
An unforgiving mind, Heart,
In a Prison of emotions,
On a boat out at sea,
With no land in sight, No Hope,
Surrounded by Nothingness,
I Want to be, Need to be,
Who I am...

Who I am is who I Love,
Who I am is all I got,
Who I am is all that keeps me alone,
Sad,
Confused,
Who I am is all that I fear,
I am Empty,
I am Unappreciated,
I am unloved.

Beauty is not my name,
Love is not my name,
For I am none of those to someone,
I am Nothing,
Nothing,
Just Nothing, but Nothing,
Unseen,
Unwanted,
Unloved...
Oh Teacher Help me,
Once more I Ask,
For an angel of love,
an Angel of Passion,
an Angel of lust
an angel of trust...

Oh Angel Love me,
Though I wrong,
Though I lie,
Though I may die,
Love me for me,
and I will not betray Thee.

Lucifer if I may,
Grant me strength,
for times are tough,
though the year new,
I struggle to change,
to grow,
to be you!
Send me your light, My Mother... my Father
So that I may see,
through the Darkness of Life,
Through the shadows, Sorrows,
of my heart.
The Was a Girl who was always thinking,
She wanted to escape her mind,
She always felt trapped, Alone, Afraid, Depressed,
Everyday She hoped that she would find someone to take that all away,
She begged to her goddess for an angel,
To Take her away,

She was a normal Girl,
Quiet, Shy, Smart, Pretty, but in her eyes that wasn't what she cared for,
What she cared for was a boy who would become Her Man,
Who would make her Enjoy being who she is,
Who Would make her Smile every day,
Who would give her butterflies,
Who would make her blush and giggle in a Rose Pink joy,
She Went to school, and had her eye on a boy,
Though he could not be hers, she still Longed for him,

over time,
She soon began not to care, he was not the boy that she wanted to become Her Man,
Every day, When she got home love was all she wanted to deal with,
It was the only thing on her mind, She cared not for Home work, nor the  missing assignments,
Every time she was home, she wanted to leave,
To find the one Boy to become Her Man, to help her learn how to enjoy Life again,

Some Days she would take a nap,
Those days She dreamed of someone who held her close,
He would not let her go,
And She the same, She Could feel what love was,
She was In Love,
She looked upon his face, Seeing everything she could ever dream of,
and his kiss was all that she needed to feel alive,
But sadly...
This Girl awoke from her Dream...
And she went on again in life... waiting for him to come to life...
Knowing he was out there, Doing the same,
Dreaming of her,
and Giving all his heart and life to her.
The morning sun rises,
softly climbing over your face,
we lay in bed,
so close we are,
touching you is like heaven,
Gazing upon your Smile,
and my Eyes dance,
with  yours,
green and brown,
and no feeling,
but the fullness of my heart,

You touch my face,
and I feel heaven kissing me,
I feel my heart jump around,
and my body shakes with joy,
with glee and anxiety,
Oh I have no more worry,
no more doubt,
no more fear,
You have slain my demons,

In the kitchen cooking up a meal,
listening to this song,
listening to our love,
With the sun welcoming us to the morning,
shining through the windows,
like a heart of gold,
you come closer,
with your hands on my waist,
you lips against my neck,
you hands move around me,
slowly you embrace me with your warmth,
I cant help but let out a breath of air,
I cant help but move my hands to your hands,
connecting as one,
our love is worth a ton,
but to me it feels like air,
your lips meet mine,
and the golden sun shines brighter,
I feel the world become ours,
and it stops spinning,
so that this moments lasts forever,
because,
I'm all Yours

— The End —