And then I made a conscious
Decision
to eat my pain to fill the void
Friends don't matter
Expression devoid
of the emotion
that I thought I had
an invitation?
None to be had
Not for me
and it always
Has to be
Me. to initiate
a line of invitation
to communicate
or else I don't go
I don't get to see
the real colors of
the friends that I thought
I had next to me
I see that time is of the essence
essentially,
I am the only one left
I can hang out with my guy
and the shadows that haunt
me at night when I sleep
My guy's amazing,
but other than he
Who do I have?
Nothing but a ridiculous
Boundary
that I cannot seem to cross
They've drawn the line
and laugh at the loss
Friends, ones that I thought I had
I'm screaming,
they whisper that it's all in my head
This turned into somewhat of a rap with the same kind of rhyming pattern as the Gorillaz, and I nod my cap to them in the last stanza. It's a little rough, but I was kind of angry when I wrote it as it seems like my friends always go and do things without me, and unless I actively invite myself, they don't think to call me/text me in order to include me.
My mom always told me that real friends will pick up the phone.