When the director calls cut
“That’s not how it should be
Those were not the words that
I had planned for thee”
For I have directed your life
In such a way you fear me
Not show compassion and love for your own family
You were mine to control, not to speak or share
You were mine to gently stroke that long golden hair
In the instant I beckon, text or call
You should answer and be grateful no-one one else will love you after all?
For who would want you
With a mind of your own
With love, dreams and a vision and a hand you can hold
You have nothing to offer
For you are not worthy
Don’t you know how many women want me? Tall, thin and curvy?
For when I decide, when I let YOU go
Go forever you shall, for my heart is so cold
I’m the wolf, you’re the sheep and I’ll never swap clothes
You will answer to me and I’m in control
For my heart is black and empty just sourcing the next
To take in my wonderful, god-like righteousness

For I have no compassion, empathy or soul
Always on the look out ……  mmmmm who’s my next goal?
Don’t you see that I am perfect in every shape and form
You should forever be grateful that I ever spoke to you at all
For you see you are my plaything
And I will bathe in your tears
Seeing your weakness gives me the strength that I need
To build my self up
To rid me of my frown
From a blow to my narcissism
In which I frequently drown

No time will I waste, for I am a man on a mission
To abate this dread when I look in the mirror
The man I truly am thrives on deep-rooted pessimism
To feed this yearning but it’s now my hunting season
You see’s it’s Spring and yes I’m a wolf and I need to eat
The heart of a maiden who’s naïve, caring and sweet
I am the greatest, you mere mortals are fakes
You see I am the walking, truth speaking, handsome and great
My age is a lie, my charm on top form
But I am cold and need someone’s heart and house that is warm
Oh I will portray myself as honest, as a good listener and kind
But it will all be lies, and too late will you find
That I have nothing to offer, no emotion, no care
And when it’s too late I turn into your nightmare
So prepare to give all, everything that’s precious
For I will take it all to make myself feel better
You will be left with nothing I’m an emotional vampire
Who will throw your dignity deep into the fire
But don’t be sad, I’m won’t be
Because I will walk free
It’s you who will mourn the loss
You and not me

Yeah we had a fall out
So what's new
And here I am again
Because every time I hear something I don't like
I add to my target ten

Many things and people are affected
So much that I don't see
I'm on a path to don't know where
Or who I'm meant to be

Now I will have talked to many
And many more than talk
But I'm missing that one thing that I can't quite describe
It's the thing that I destroyed

So whatever the number six? seven? eight?
All the same to me
Don't take it all too personal
You're not the target see?

So on I'll crash with my headlines and charm
To add to my magic number
What will happen then I don't know
Even I am beginning to wonder!

I guess I'll sit and I'll look back
At the conclusions I jumped to in haste
And wonder why it didn't work out
Was it worth it? Did I act in haste?

A bit of me thinks I'm always right
I have to be? Don't I?
It's up to everyone else in this world to make the effort
To view with my mind's eye

So I'll jump right in with both feet
And make even more of a mess
And ultimately when all said and done
It's better than loneliness

If I were to face the truth and admit I'm wrong
That I acted out of haste
How would I face each day knowing that I'm at some fault
This is life! I can't cut and paste

So I'll blunder along and wear my mask
Plod and pretend that I am always correct
I'll tell you half a story if you ask
The truth I'll have to reject

I sat and thought the other night
About the bumps in my life in 5 years I have hit
Death, disease, house move and stress
Empty purse, work stress, I took it all apart bit by bit

And the one thing I lacked through this obstacle course
When I look back through my state of affairs
Was the love of my life, my magnetic force
The one whose burdens I had shared

Now many a thing has happened to him
And I sat with him night after night
Hearing his confessions of guilt
Listening to his meanderings ..... his choices wrong? or right?

But during the hours of need when I needed him
His presence was nowhere in sight
He had found another woman to cuddle, another hand to hold
And with whom he would spend the night

Now there may be many more obstacle courses I face
And in the dark of night I wish he knew
That our friendship was not a place to go
It's a feeling, a togetherness, where I thought our love grew

How could lips so sweet, proffer words of deceit
How could your words of love turn so cruel
How could your demands on my heart be so consuming
You knew all I wanted was you

How could your mood shine like the golden sun and switch to the blackest of nights
How could you let your fantasies fill with me with fright
How could you ever think I'd want another man in my life
You knew all I wanted was you

How could you torment me with the contents of your mind
How could you taint our love with your other women
How could you destroy the most precious thing in life
You knew all I wanted was you

How could you take away our future without a second glance
How could you stamp on my heart after all we've been through
How could you turn your back on our friendship
You knew all I wanted was you.

I looked in to her wise tired eyes
And said "mum why did he do this to me
I gave him everything I had and more
What did I need to do to make him see"

With love, concern and tears in her eyes my mum's frustration came to the fore
"My lovely lovely little girl,
No man who loves you would ever call you a *****

You did everything you could for that man
And as your mum it's been hard for me to witness
The light in your eyes slowly fade
You don't need anyone's forgiveness

You gave your love unconditionally and went many times without
How many good memories do you have my blossom
I'd say more bad than good,
How often did you two go out?

I've seen my daughter who is a beautiful flower
Have the man she loves turn her into a ****
Don't let him do more damage to you
Believe in yourself and you'll be free

I know how much you love him and
I can see how much you hurt
I can see your pain my sweet little girl
To your family you mean the world

So let this one who has caused you pain
Vanish deep into the night
He'll realise soon enough what he's lost
You know this ..... you are very bright

And I hope that if he comes knocking my love
You'll remember the words that I've said
Go find someone who loves you
Whose moods won't fill you with dread

That man will never be happy my flower
Don't let him take any more of your heart
Leave him to his other women to play
Time for you to have a fresh start"