How do you refuse something you want?
How do you want something that doesn't exist?
Is existing a good thing?

Help me to understand
Understand what I cant be explain
Explain what I cant see
See what others are blind too
  

All things that will never be clear to the blind souls stuck in pain and confusion that is created by YOU....

When I heard "Can We Talk" my heart began to beat against my chest

Then I heard her voice say YOUR NAME
A feeling that's so hard to let go of

I knew I was done

To think the hands that touched me - TOUCHED HER

To feel your kiss would never be the same you have destroyed me

You dared to invite me in then took my soul out and replaced it with anger

You would never know the pain you have caused with in me

My chances of loving again are slim to none because you were SELFISH

My dream of a family circle is now a circle of you not existing in my life

"CAN WE TALK"

We live in a SOCIETY obsessed with looks
Are we ASHAMED?
Are we AFRAID to be left alone?

RECONSTRUCTING your self-esteem by going under the knife
REPAIRING those parts you feel are damaged
You do it to IMPRESS youself "So You Say"

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Oo yeah NICKI MINAJ
What a beauty

SUPERFICIALLY beauty is within the eye of the beholder

   WHERE
                    DO
                            YOU
                                      STAND
                                                     ????

Before you there was no light only darkness

You introduced yourself and from that day on life started and it was still unknown to me.

To think you would  be the one to save my life was never in my plans.

And now once again you have made  the hairs on my body stand up with happiness.

I will always think your loud and sometimes annoying but to know that there is so much more to you will always make me proud.

Today you GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE and you become a role model not only for me but also to my children.

CONGRADULATION TO MY LIFE SAVER MY ROLE MODEL AND FOREVER AND ALWAYS

MY SISTER

You will always be the STAR that shines the brightest.

I LOVE YOU

The good girl stays home

The good girl cooks and cleans

The good girl has kids

The good girl watches you go clubbing

The good girl watches you lie and
believes

The good girl sets her life aside to please you

The good girl knows NO better

One thing you don't know about the good girl

SHE GOT SOMETHING PLANNED FOR YOU

For she is now a Women That will no longer except *******

ONCE I WAS STRONG
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY STRENGTH
YELLING IS ALL I KNOW NOW

CRYING!!!!!! WHAT A WASTE

I FELL TO THE LOWEST OF LOWS
CRAWLING LIKE THE BABY WITH IN ME
I BEGGED

STAY AWAY, THE EDGE IS SO CLOSE
BACK OFF DON'T TEMP ME.

I PULL BACK YOU PULL FORWARD
I SAY NO YOU SAY YES

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
JUST GO

NOT SAFE LIKE I WISHED AND PRAYED FOR

THIS INNOCENCE WITH IN ME JUST WONT GO AWAY

WHY DID YOU LIE? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
JUST GO

THIS PLACE IS NOT SAFE & NEITHER ARE YOU

Life is a mix of complications.
Life is what you give to that baby growing inside you.
Life is what I feel when I look in there eyes.
Life is full of surprises.
Life is being adventurous.
Life doesn't change just because you do.
Life doesn't stop just because you did.
Life doesn't matter if its not with you.
Life doesn't always have sun, flowers, & happiness.
Life doesn't hand you a free dream.
Life can be hard
Life will be hard
Life is hard
Life is what we make of it.

I TRY TO BE PERFECT
I TRY TO GIVE WHAT I CAN
I TRY TO PLEASE
I'M ALWAYS THERE
IT HURTS TO KNOW I'M ALWAYS 2nd.
THEY DON'T SEE ME THE WAY THEY SEE HIM.
I STRUGGLE WITH MY THOUGHTS AND THE PAIN IN MY HEART.
HOW COME I SEE WHAT HE'S TO BLIND TO?
MAYBE THERE STILL YOUNG AND DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT I MEAN WELL.
9 MONTHS AND LABOR PAINS, SOMETHING HE'LL NEVER KNOW OR FEEL.
DOES THIS MAKE SENSE OR IM I JUST BLINDED BY MY OWN SELFISHNESS???

I really don't

You think i put him first but i really do not
You think i love him more but I do not
I'm sad to hear your thoughts and what you said
As i thought , it ran through my head
To appreciate what I have now
I just want you to know I love you

This is the day I walk away
The day I stand up
The day I Look you in your eyes

You will not control me
You will not touch me
You will not make me weak

Enough
             I yell
Enough

This is your END
            &
And my BEGINNING

The perfect woman has the STRENGTH of a superhero
The power to make you over come fear

She speaks the truth even if it hurts
She Stands by you no matter what

Judging is not in her vocabulary
But correcting your mistakes is her goal

Her family is her pride
There is no limit to what she can do

She educates you for the real world &
Her ego never gets in the way

The perfect woman is so loyal it will amaze you


Every breath I take is because of her
She is my motivation & inspiration

My life became complete when god gave me this perfect woman as a MOTHER