When I heard "Can We Talk" my heart began to beat against my chest

Then I heard her voice say YOUR NAME
A feeling that's so hard to let go of

I knew I was done

To think the hands that touched me - TOUCHED HER

To feel your kiss would never be the same you have destroyed me

You dared to invite me in then took my soul out and replaced it with anger

You would never know the pain you have caused with in me

My chances of loving again are slim to none because you were SELFISH

My dream of a family circle is now a circle of you not existing in my life

"CAN WE TALK"

Before you there was no light only darkness

You introduced yourself and from that day on life started and it was still unknown to me.

To think you would  be the one to save my life was never in my plans.

And now once again you have made  the hairs on my body stand up with happiness.

I will always think your loud and sometimes annoying but to know that there is so much more to you will always make me proud.

Today you GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE and you become a role model not only for me but also to my children.

CONGRADULATION TO MY LIFE SAVER MY ROLE MODEL AND FOREVER AND ALWAYS

MY SISTER

You will always be the STAR that shines the brightest.

I LOVE YOU

ONCE I WAS STRONG
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY STRENGTH
YELLING IS ALL I KNOW NOW

CRYING!!!!!! WHAT A WASTE

I FELL TO THE LOWEST OF LOWS
CRAWLING LIKE THE BABY WITH IN ME
I BEGGED

STAY AWAY, THE EDGE IS SO CLOSE
BACK OFF DON'T TEMP ME.

I PULL BACK YOU PULL FORWARD
I SAY NO YOU SAY YES

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
JUST GO

NOT SAFE LIKE I WISHED AND PRAYED FOR

THIS INNOCENCE WITH IN ME JUST WONT GO AWAY

WHY DID YOU LIE? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
JUST GO

THIS PLACE IS NOT SAFE & NEITHER ARE YOU

I TRY TO BE PERFECT
I TRY TO GIVE WHAT I CAN
I TRY TO PLEASE
I'M ALWAYS THERE
IT HURTS TO KNOW I'M ALWAYS 2nd.
THEY DON'T SEE ME THE WAY THEY SEE HIM.
I STRUGGLE WITH MY THOUGHTS AND THE PAIN IN MY HEART.
HOW COME I SEE WHAT HE'S TO BLIND TO?
MAYBE THERE STILL YOUNG AND DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT I MEAN WELL.
9 MONTHS AND LABOR PAINS, SOMETHING HE'LL NEVER KNOW OR FEEL.
DOES THIS MAKE SENSE OR IM I JUST BLINDED BY MY OWN SELFISHNESS???

Life is a mix of complications.
Life is what you give to that baby growing inside you.
Life is what I feel when I look in there eyes.
Life is full of surprises.
Life is being adventurous.
Life doesn't change just because you do.
Life doesn't stop just because you did.
Life doesn't matter if its not with you.
Life doesn't always have sun, flowers, & happiness.
Life doesn't hand you a free dream.
Life can be hard
Life will be hard
Life is hard
Life is what we make of it.