It was chemistry
Like cloning
I could feel our souls recognizing each other
This wasn't the first time
We've met before
I was your slave in ancient Egypt
Your sister as we burned, accused as witches
I stole you from your bethroved
As we sailed away on my pirate ship
Over the centuries we have found each other
As sisters
Friends
More than often lovers
Today they'd say we were
"Meant to be"
While poets call us
Soulmates

I hear you taunting me
The bottle of pills in the drawer
The bag of grass in my purse
The line of coke on the table
The pint glass at the pub
The naked flesh in my bed
I hear you calling

The open window
Daring me to jump

Hollow
Empty
Void
Silence
How many synonyms can I find
for my darkness
Does it beat?
Not a sound
Does it feel? It is numb
there is nothing left to feel
Loneliness. Nothing.
A slave to  my emotionless pit
Yes, a pit
Not a heart, no
There is nothing there
He's taken it
Taken it against my will
I searched, searched every corner
Alas,
Nothing
"Love does not live here anymore."

That's all she said.

Sometimes I wonder
What if I woke up with amnesia?
What if I forgot everything?
Who I am
Where I've been
Who I've ******

I wonder
If I could start all over again
Without the darkness that follows me

Would it still be me?
Would I not make the same wrong turns?
Or would I become someone completely different
Someone happy

Are we not all just victimes of circumstance?
Our experiences
Our virtues
They mold us into the people we become
And if I were to forget all that?
Could I not then become the person people think I am

I wonder if I forgot
Would I be happy?
Or are the demons and I but
One and the same

Would you take a second Look?
At the girl who dances on table tops
And dresses a little too ******?

Could you love a girl like me?
the girl everyone's had a taste of
I am like that first slice of bread
everyone's touched it
but no one really wants

The party girl
the free spirit

The Lost soul

Could you love a Misfit Doll?

I sit here
Red Coat
Joint
with your *** on my breath
Do you see me?

High heels
Lace stockings
Silk bra
Big lips
Can you see me?

Danced out heels
Ripped Stockings
Push up bra
and a croocked smile
Who do you see?