i loved you
i loved
your skin
your eyes
your lips
I loved your soul and your mind
and especially your heart
but i was wrong
for your heart is black
non- existent
a lie
the jack of spades
the joker
I will not be yours
for I am not Harlequin
I loved you once
but never again

i thought you were the one
my neo to your trinity
i guess i chose the wrong pill
because you're in the matrix
and i'm in the real world
lost

sunglasses
lipstick drips
humid
heat
cigarette on my lips
caressing me with your fingertips
kiss my cheek
but nothing more
for as you once said
i'm just a *****

darkness
i feel a chill
is that you i say
no answer
but i know you're there
i feel you
you seem to know when i need you most
no one believes me but i know
deep in my heart
you said you'd never leave me
but you left this earth
i couldn't keep you
although it happened so quickly
so suddenly i couldn't believe it was true
but when i look to the sky i feel you
when i see a butterfly i know you're there
it's comforting yet sad
sing my beautiful angel
just like you used to

bright lights
blind
deafened by the silence
lost
senses failing
death
fearing the unknown
heaven?
hell?
purgatory
we live this everyday
this hell we call earth
or is it somewhere in between?
question
exposed
it's fun being the living dead
isn't it?

it always starts the same
we fell
i love you
i love you too
be mine
i'm yours
behind closed doors
don't worry baby you're the only one
but what about her
pay no mind
she's nothing compared to you
i love you baby
baby i love you too

if you don't have a heart like a lion
i can't be your lioness
if you cheat me
i won't put you to the test
love is hard
my love runs deep
you hurt me
i'm not enough
emotionally dead you are
it's unfortunate
because i truly love you
but how can you love someone
if you can't love yourself

staring at the clock
3:30 am
seems to always be
can't sleep
all i think about is you
no wonder
but you're not in my dreams

toy with my heart
play the strings
don't worry
i don't feel a thing
for i am nothing
as are you