you call me your baby, so i might as well act like one
i've always been one to bite the hand that holds the milk bottle
you wanna see me act out so you have a brat to punish
but you ain't seen nothing yet.

i wanna knock you into next week with what i could tell you
darling boy throws a temper tantrum,
but maybe that's cause they don't listen to what baby wants

if i gotta get hit to earn my hit
then i'll do it.
i just want your attention, and i want them to see it.
cause all they see now is god in the eyes of a boy in the stable stalls

darling boy gets a sugar cube if he behaves well
he knows just what to do
but he wants you to crack that whip over his yielding spine to make it hurt

so don't speak to me in my precious mother tongue
i want to hear the low, sensual note of your sweet 'enchante' rolling off
or maybe i want to hear you nicker like a horse..
since you're my friesian, such a beautiful stallion

give me what i want
a mass of bruises and scars and they spill out all over the sheets
not too hard, just raise your fist and let it fall with the same impact of their words

stick it and twist it
see how much i writhe for you
darling boy loves it much
can you see it in his dead eyes ?

i miss the soft 'sweetheart' of my daddy
especially as i see the birthday wishes which read like death notes
give me something good to remember

call us the master and pupil
the stallion and the foal
my eyes glimmer at sight,
because the stud and the syringe are one and the same

he doesn't like the disrespect, dongwook, look me in the face
darling boy has black eyes and both cold hands
on the barrel of the--

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"come !" i called over my shoulder,
voice higher than the late summer sun
in chime with the song birds and wind gusts
the sweet air settling on my tongue

we echo your joyous laugh like a child's
one by one, our rapid heartbeats out of beat with the gallop of heavy hooves
singing and running through the lush gardens
tips of my fingers brushing thick trees and long grass

water runs, rushes, cascades down the side of a cave
spreading into a pool of crystal clear that glimmers
we strip off our stresses, and i'm first
skipping off like skipping rocks into the bone chilling pond

oh, he's just gorgeous
absolutely angelic, thatches of soft hair on his body like a true man's
slender and lean, hair perfect for running my hands through
beautiful from the top of his head, to the tips of his toes, beautiful.

i wait, i'll always wait for you
even if it's only for this, for you to shed articles of clothing
expose yourself, dive into the water as if they were my open arms
even though it's cold, i'm not always perfect

he's funny. he laughs. he makes me smile
splashes and sprays move onto bigger things
playfully wrestling, covered in the cold water that descended into them
going under the surface, pulled out feeling baptized

is this love ? i don't think i have to ask
in the arms of a man who gave me everything and more than i asked for
i'm truly happy, i feel as if nothing else matters
they treat me best, as if i was nothing but theirs, one who needs tender care

it's impossible, utterly impossible to believe i'm anything undeserving of
because none of this was their fault
even though i can't come to terms with that
i can't just.. make it better. but he does. they do.

they always do
pepper kisses on my eyes, the tip of my nose and pink lips
never had daddy loved me like they do
not recently, at least.

as we're frolicking like foals
i know heaven is a real place
i think i can believe that now
finding solace and sanctuary in their embrace better than a home

he steps out, heavy breathing
i can't help but watch, but i don't wanna stay
lose the warmth of your body left in the cold of the water
i chase, i run back after you like a horse

we become one in touch with the soft earth, soil warm
sink into the touch, hear your sighs and they settle my restless soul
i love the feel of his skin as he gazes into my eyes
your paternal hands in my hair send shockwaves like lightning

i was almost distracted, seriously
but don't think i forgot about you, not once
i want you closer but i'll give you your space
knowing you're mine is enough in moments like these.

flushed pink, skin sweet, pressing soft kisses without any bite from my teeth
everything's like it always used to be
but it's better now, i don't know what i'd do without you
don't ever leave me, you're all i've ever wanted.

we used to hide away from everyone else
because no one cared for me like he did, not genuinely.
sharing soft touches and kisses in this almost sacred space which existed for us
perfect, really. even better that you're here with me.

i yearn for you
i want to give you my life
because you give me what i love
almost without question, without unease

"what about you, mon chéri ?"
oh, it's just... perfect. everything i could ask for
it's my favorite, and it's even better with you
but i need you closer. i need to feel your love.

oh, it's the happiest day of my life
i'm brimming with adoration, i want to tell them how i feel
feeling his fingers brush my hair
i know i love it because i love you

my darlings, strong like two broad stallions
with big hearts, they strive to protect me like a harem
filled with them, only them, i feel it under my skin
it's nothing i think i could ever live without

it really does feel nice to be loved.
it lasted longer than a split second and they made sure of it
i wanna express it to you in the form i love it most
but we're being called back, pulled out of the sunshine.

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