mini radebe: Poems

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mini radebe Nov 2013

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I cry the tears of my mother
But bear the strength of my father
My body that is the broken home

change

mini radebe Jul 2014

change

The way I am is the way I should be
Why try and change me?
Am I too passionate?
Does the rage that resides in my eyes make you..fearful?
Am I too different?
Does it bother you that I could be like the 1st page of a new book
Everytime?
Am I too cold?
Does the ice in my vocal chords give your emotions frostbite?
The way I am is the way I should be
The way I am.. Is the way I'll always
Be

"dad"

mini radebe Dec 2013

"dad"

Anger so dark it became my shadow
Voice so hostile it cut through my thoughts
And I bleed...
Hand so firm it dented my courage
Eyes so intimidating it killed me inside
And I wept...

So if you touch me and I feel rather cold
Please forgive
After all I am
My father's daughter

damaged goods

mini radebe Nov 2013

damaged goods

The contours of my back
Surface with broken pieces
Of life
So don't touch me
You will cut yourself

empty bottles

mini radebe Dec 2013

empty bottles

The alcohol rains over my organs
The presence of regret is evident again
Numb.
The movement of your Adam's Apple
Hits the back of my neck like the first piano key
The look of your zealous eyes..
They shun gravity
They lift me off the ground
Faded.
I am so faded
I remember every element of you
But only once the bottle is empty

I

mini radebe Dec 2013

I

I could write a million songs about your skin
How the beauty and softness resembles your soul
I could sing a song about your smile
How it carries the story of your past and your dreams for the future
I could dance to the sound of your voice
The melody of your every word runs through my body like a river untamed
I could love you forever
You are my seed to the tree of love and peace
I could kiss you for eternity
Hoping my affection would help you grow

letter to my cup of coffee

mini radebe Nov 2013

letter to my cup of coffee

dear friend
I hope the sun shines so bright it lightens your soul
I hope the night is the only darkness you ever have to feel again
I hope the love you receive showers you with strength and courage to stand taller than everyone
The lips you feel tell you the story you've been waiting to hear all along
Dear friend,dear flesh,dear soul,dear cup of coffee
I hope the joy you feel keeps growing and blossoms within_

maybe

mini radebe Jul 2014

maybe

Maybe I wasn't cut out for this
Affection so effective
Its a chapter in my dreams
Maybe I wasn't built for this
A voice so potent it fuels the poison
That is love
Maybe I don't deserve this
A love so pure the hairs on my arm
Stand
The path of my veins leads to you
My heartbeat..rises like a bird
On a new day
Maybe I wasn't made to love

nothing

mini radebe Nov 2013

nothing

I look in the mirror as if I'm going to find myself behind it
Day in,Day out
The person in the reflection grows more and more unfamiliar.
Is pain meant to make us forget who we are?
Do we,ourselves even know who we were before?
I cannot love anyone before I love myself but who am I?
Am I the abstract painting on the wall?
With the looks of beauty but the message of pain?
Am I the sad hawker on the side of the street?
Searching for that bit of happiness in an empty jar?
No.
I am nothing

Nothing_

plead

mini radebe Jan 2014

plead

Please don't get sick of me
The love that we give to one another should only be allowed to grow
Please don't let go of me
Your fingertips move in the motion of healing
Please don't turn your back on me
For your scent will leave with you and I will find it hard to breathe
Please don't stop loving me
No one can ever make my name sound any sweeter

protection

mini radebe Jul 2014

protection

I am your protection
The crack in your voice when you
Begin to cry is held together by my
Love
I am your protection
The pain that you feel is shared between us so you won't hurt
I would never want to see you hurt
I am your protection
The sting of the painful memories is soothed by my desire to take care of you
My desire to help you
My desire to consol you
My desire..to protect you

un-masked

mini radebe Nov 2013

un-masked

anger holds the biggest vacancy
In my head
In my heart
I even wear it on my face
Don't like my mask?
Walk away.
Don't try and take it away from me
Its all I have left_

you_

mini radebe Dec 2013

you_

I forgot what it felt like
To no longer wake up just for yourself
To crave the purest form of affection
Attention
I forgot what it looked like
To be drowning in a resevoir of unfiltered feelings
Feelings of love
Feelings of hope
I forgot what it sounded like
To have your walls hit the ground
Just by a single touch
My smile is sincere again
My laugh echoes again

You_

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