As i'm laying in my bed
Thoughts spinning in my head
No bullets exiting the weapon that is my mouth
Only tears flowing from the faucet that is my eyes
No one to save me from this bind
I'm alone with the noose that is my mind
When i'm alone with my mind my thoughts are in a hurry
When i'm alone with my mind my vision is blurry
When i'm alone with my mind all i see is the noose
The noose that tells me what to believe
The noose that tells me what to say
To think
To hear
To do
TO WANT
I fight the noose every day
I fight to ignore the things it says
I fight to rid of the thoughts it puts in my head
I try to ignore the things it shows me
I try to believe i'm really free
but it never works.
all it does is make me hurt
all it does is make me see
the thing it wants me to see
that all i have to do
to be free
is to put my head inside the noose
and jump
but if i jump
will i be
will i be truly free
or will i be tied down by the wrongs from inside of me
even after i have jumped
will all my thoughts forever be dumped
will i ever be truly free?
NO
never will anyone be truly free. never will anyone be saved from “their sins”. because there is nobody to save you. there is nobody to blame yours and the world's problems on. so no,
we will never be free
not you
nor
me...