Who's sins am I paying for?


I got **** on my mind
Some **** that u told me
On Father's Day 2010
U said u wasn't my daddy
U broke my heart
And I wanted to cry
My mind was ******
And I wanted to die
I pushed it back as far as I could
But as time went on,
There were too many clues.
I started to noticed features
That didn't quite match
I wanted to question u
But didn't wanna face the fact...
That I had been the result of deceit
9 months in her womb and
Dad was left with the receipt.
Every time he looked at me
He claimed he see
The man who took his wife's *****.
So daddy beat me
And this woman watched me
Cry out for her
Reach for her
Stare into her eyes
Tears flowing
Pain
Pain
It hurts like I'm being ripped in two
But I don't know by who
All I feel is pain
But pain slowly dies
All I hear now
Are my own ******* cries
But that's what I get
I wasn't supposed to be
U wish u had of aborted me
U didn't ask for a baby  
I'll never forget that day
That day it changed my life
The moment I realized
I am a victim of self hate