anger. envy.
taking the best of me.
broken. hearted.
don't want to be parted.
pain. sorrow.
afraid of tomorrow.
love you. need you.
chances so few.
empty. longing.
death im prolonging.
ticking. tocking.
the clock, it is mocking.
screaming. falling.
my demons are calling.
laughing. hating.
the demons are waiting.
hoping craving.
i truly need saving.
but break me. condemn me.
i am deserving.

that bottle has an infectious effect.
from your hand, to your heart, to your ****.
why go for the girl you truly care about
when you could just take your pick?

why resort to actual intimacy
when you could just fake it?
why keep my heart perfectly in tact
when you could so easily break it?

my insides are twisted & shriveled to dust
but thats something i would never show.
i'll only cry if you will.
but if you did i would never know.

you think not, you care not, you love not.
and you see not what goes on in a heart.
your sickening desires leave you oblivious
and us greatly torn apart.

never again will i see the day
that you come running when i call.
deep in your eyes its become so grey.
all the blackness of your soul, i see it all.
i'll never again be held in your arms.
all your compassion is dead.
this newfound ignorance is doing much harm,
but youve planted a seed within my head.
i cant turn away, i cannot evade
this torture and ill deceit.
with everything between us, everything weve made,
in the end i'll still fall at your feet.
over and over i succumb to your spell.
im foolish for sticking around.
you know for you i'd put myself through hell
just waiting to be found.
whenever i find myself semi-free
you creep into my mind.
it never fails, you'll always haunt me.
and my sanity i will never find.
you unleash these empty charms on me
to draw me in and entice.
but everything good i feel comes with a fee.
i am never to be sufficed.
realization is too late now,
im already gone beyond repair.
but i have to get away somehow.
this one-sided love just isnt fair.

this isnt real.
it cant be.
happy things in life i cant see.
im lost in Oz without my toto.
now lifes a record deal i cant make solo.
mental stability is scarce.
i feel like a soulless shell.
i might be better off
if i was shot straight to hell.
my hearts not in my chest anymore.
from me its been ripped.
my soul is like a pitcher of sorrows
and it had finally tipped.
if i see a knife, i'll cut.
if i see a cliff, i'll leap.
tie a weight to my foot and jump in the ocean,
whichever one is cheap.
i just cant dwell anymore.
not in this place.
im trying to escape the memories, the pain.
but im epically losing the chase.

we are bound by crepe paper chains
and fooled into thinking they're steel.
and we allow these things to hold us back,
and prevent us from really knowing how to feel.
happiness is in the distance
when it could be at our feet.
we struggle with these paper chains,
then foolishly face defeat.
our personal view is distorted,
with a vision so blind to our light.
we constantly live with a beauty unseen,
keeping our souls from taking flight.
whenever we try to stay built
we end up being nothing but broken.
bottled up, these feelings burn the mind,
but we keep them with struggles unspoken.

laying in that bed,
that scorching, pernicious cradle,
waiting for wrongs to pass.
omnipresent voices echo in her head,
playing in the shadows and
taunting her every thought.
there she dwells, mourning the
years of silence that are finally taking their toll.
tossing, turning, struggling to breathe,
she prays for a bearable lullaby,
one that never appears.
in the air is the bay of the broken,
silent weeping is all that is heard.
she twitches, she tenses,
keeping her composure at a level of malignancy.
all she wants is peace,
all that comes forth is disaster.
so she sinks further into her sheets,
into comatose, where at least her mind can run.
horrified, restless, stuck.
insomniatic.

you used to be my favorite song,
what i always loved to hear.
now you're just a broken chord
fading from my ear.

once you were my favorite color,
as bright as they can come.
your pigment has reduced to dullness,
now to the darkness i succumb.

you used to be my favorite place
to sit and rest a while.
i am left with nowhere else to go
that even inspires a real smile.

once you were my present day
that nothing else could shatter.
now you are a simple memory
that doesn't really matter.

you were the perfect puzzle piece
that intertwined with me.
someone tore our puzzle apart
and forced themself where i should be..