the buzzards above me
circling and soaring.
a staring contest for miles.
and im at such peace
that i fear
soon my grin
will fly off my face
and join them.

"in prison,..what you think
is what you are."
he was two weeks out of a 13 year sleepover. He told this to me
in my dream.
a year later i think of it.

i now know the one true place
a person is imprisoned.

.

undress me with your naked eyes
a skeleton can tell no lies
but hide the truth
from sleeping spies
to know nothing
is all thats wise.

i was a suit
was always worn
i knew not what else to adorn
my soul with but that shoty form
ive died and im reborn.

im still young enough
to build my own casket.
still smart enough
to build a test
that only i can fail.
still enough
to watch myself
pass by.

when you stand in my mind
wearing only your skin
your pheromones penetrate mine.

to taste your biology
leaves my tongue drowning
with nowhere to go
but to yours.

the distance...
              ...iisssssss......
                    ­    .sooommeewwhhheeereeee........
                              ­                  ...and....&.

a fly flew into a spiders web
and now its dead
the spider walked into my house
and killed my mouse
the spider crept into my room
to meet its doom

life is a river.
at the end of the river
is a baby.

you never decorate
your christams tree.
you sit around all year
waiting for it to leave.

"and take that stupid ******* wreath
    with you when you do."

i come from the veda
and im going back.

my family tree is a skeleton.
the truth is in these bones.

im left wanting to tear
off the rotting suit that i wear.
leave it lying tucked into
the space between
the door and floor.
keep the room quiet and cold
to give me room to think.
allow the music
to leak out of its seams
so i can have something to listen to
and something to drink.

your nightmare has legs.

it pays you to
watch it shave
and you accept.

-Are you enlightened?
-Does a dog bark?
-Yes.
-So then, yes, you are a dog.

i know
what it is to be
immutable madness.

for this decade of my flesh
pushing through the streets
under the sun to find a place
to sleep in the shade,
my rhythms have been guided
by the mesmerizing code
told to me
by my very own
self appointed hypnotist.

the spider who sleeps deep in my ear
who's dreams drip down my throat
and fill a pool inside of my chest.

but i never knew the tongue in
which a spider speaks.

i know not what i have done.
i woke up in a place lost to the world.

a poem cant capture it
a movie can't capture it
a life can't capture it
the universe cant capture it
that's why its watching itself
its waiting to see it
thats why i was made
to move through the mud
until we know what it is

when i sleep in your head
all the animals are dead
and id make it a song
but its a quilt of skin instead.
and i give back to my church
but they think that they are thieves
theyre on the job while i marry
writing checks for alimony.
my three children bury me
inside of all their tombs
and they pass out and know
that im an animal too soon..

fallin asleep at the wheel
and i wake up with no cash
gettin high on garbage
gettin drunk on trash.

ill turn your kid into a puppet
with a color t.v.
for a mind with eyes for buttons
salty broken screens

the umbilical chord
is plugged into the wall
and its drippin wet with surgery
playin a scene
of dead vets workin
on their own bodies
lookin for the coins they swallowed
to pay the fare for the ferry.

in one cigarette you can make art.
in one lifetime you can smoke almost infinite deaths.
tragedies
worth capturing
at least once.

a psychedelic manifestation of form;
we leave this place.
we live inside of each other,
lit by the light
of the near death
of everything;
it passes through our bodies.

time is a molecule
which we ride upon;
a play thing for children.

we grow closer
or further
from eternity-
the nature of the soul we share.
-the eight-limbed creature
sews its bodies into;
one breathes out to one breathes in.
swallow each other
back onto the floor,
and *****
our psychedelic
manifestation of form.

crystal information
will cast light
out of the head.

the shadow will be
no more
of the puddle on the floor.

we will spread
beyond our bodies,
beyond what is dead.

my soul is my river
my body is my dam
and my heart
goes out to
all the dying fish
drowning in love

there is a perfect semblence
between the forest and the trees
when you see the world
as the world would see it.

i caught the devil
and cooked him
and i ate him...

with my dead friends
and dead family

the teeth are evicted.
looking for a mouth to rent.

the tongue is fat like king.
breathing in the moisture
and the mold
to be eaten.

i love ******

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words are leaves
grow and
falling out of a mouth
gnawing at air for fruit

There is wear on my life as it skids to a halt and is scattered across the highway and into a tree.

he howl at the moon

bark at the sky
to keep it secret
from the sun

it is not because of my talents.

or because i am very smart.
  and spiritual
   and connected
      creative
   and the way im
    deeply touched,

but it is because
    i am    insane;

-that is the icing
           on the cake

        which i lick clean
  off my ***** fingers.

her hand
cooks
on top of mine.

steals the warmth
from the room.

a shivering fire
begs for a meal
so we give it.

theyre trying to
make you
**** yourself.

pianos will speak to me forever
from their big
beautiful
gaping
mouths.

they will always
fill the room
with my
emotion.

i know when they cry.

gonna marry me a skeleton

gonna bury me a bride.

sat at the wedding

until somebody died.

the sky smiled

and the earth opened wide.

i see a heart
and i think of you
but what should i do?
because i see you
and my brain farts
but it comes from
the heart.

my landlady
has died.

she sits in
a chair
which i havent
had the time
to make a make on.

it must be nice
because her house is nice.

its all old dead wood
and im satisfied
by its condition.

but my rent is due
and i dont know how
to approach an
old dead
landlady.

i figure if i take care of her dog
it will amount to something.

but i have nothing for
the dog.

i might join her
in her disposition
to negotiate
an agreement.

i might die
in the chair
beside her.

Nobodies going to survive
this life
and im

Willing to wager all my love
on this
with you

And i just hope you have the heart
to do
the same

Yes we will die but we will thrive
until
we fade

Yes we we can live but we will fade
unless
we thrive

And these are all the things that ive
been meaning to

Share with you along with all of
my love,
my love

To everyone ive ever loved
oh   how   i    love   you

and i hope that you are happy
(as happy as can be)
(oh god im happy)
(and watching clouds)

and i hope that you do smile
(more often than not)
(and your heart swells)
(when i see you smile)

and i hope that you are laughing
(for no reason at all)
(and crying)
(tears of joy)

and i hope that your heart swells
(when you look around you)

and that youre surrounded by

everyone youve ever loved

and i dont mind that im not there

because im in the clouds above

and i can see you watching

and i can see you smile
(and my heart swells)

im raining tears of joy and laughing.

To everyone ive ever loved,

    i want you to know
   that i still love you
  and care about every
   hair on your bodies
  and im sorry because  
i know that ive failed you
(and nothing can stop me)
(even if youve forgot me)
(i hope you havent forgotten me)

youre  everyone ive ever loved
my heart is emptying without you
and so im filling it with
everyone ive ever loved
and i deserve to be deserted
by everyone ive ever loved

like water fills a vase and gets
soaked up by a rose
until its brittle and it breaks
until its dead and decomposed
whats there
that could serve
in your stead
well only my heart knows
theres nothing left i can accept
so in my heart a cancer grows

time slowed down
and walked right passed me
and i couldnt look it
in the eye
but it followed me home
and i remember the last thing
it said to me right before
it left in the night was
remember me.

when you realize
that this whole time
your hands have been spiders
crawling out of
the mouths of snakes
then you've got it.

it floats in me
like dead birds
in a dead sea.

i cant grab it
and cook it
and eat it.

i will poor myself
into a cup
and drink heavily.

in the minds eye
is a minds eye.

we see who blinks first.

father nature
sits with a hard-on
drinking homemade beer
watching mother nature
tend to her garden.

and she tries
to ignore him
but she likes it.

emotions are purgatory
to purge them
is peace

I smoke so much
that after any run
I'm always huffing paint

ive been resurrected
by an ungodly force
once again.

what do they want from me?

just before the end
he killed himself.
then everyone applauded
and he took a bow.

.

.

my moth flew over to me
and with a sheet of cloth
i broke off its wings.

i tried to make a mercy ****,
to cut off its head,
but instead
it was left damaged
and shaking
and ill.

it bled from the breadth of its neck
and i feel its breath in my head still.

why have i done what ive done.
where is my heart from.

i cant go to sleep.
if i go to sleep
ill become posessed by that ghost.
but that doesnt worry me
ill get the ghost
because i know
itll sleep.