At 22, young, foolish, hopeful
I fell in love,
With the big boss,
the leader of the free world.
at 22 I became a *****,
a ****,
*****,
loose woman,
but,
I was in love.
and at 22, he said he loved me too,
in that navy blue dress.
I was only 22.

Marilyn sits by the hotel phone,
waiting for John.

she hangs her diamonds on her ears,
puts on her pearly white dress,
takes the curlers out of her blonde hair.

the phone rings.

I’m sorry Marilyn,
you're just not first lady material.

come back to me
just one more time

remember that time
I gave you the confidence
to talk to that boy
we both know You’re too anxious
to do it on your own

you know I make you feel better
I can take all the bad away
all the pain
numb  you
you know it’s what you want

we can go out for a drive together
that’s always fun

lets not let this DUI come between us.

stop grieving over me
I’m right here
in the store
right across your house
on the ads
the radio, the tv

you can’t avoid me forever

just drink
bring me to your lips and
drink
drink
drink

just one more drink.
just one last time.

I lied,
I flirted,
I played games,
I used

you
and him
and the other guy too

Now it's my turn.

He lied.
He flirted.
He stole a kiss.
He spent the night.
He didn't stay.

He used

Me.

and it's okay.
because I did it too.
So I got what I deserved.
In the end we all do.
Maybe next time I'll think twice before

Using Someone like you.
Using Someone like me.

I wonder if You knew this
I wonder if You knew
You had two small humans to raise.

You knew, but the darkness
had you by the throat
so you stuck your head in the oven.

You were loved
even by the man who left you, at the time,
he just had his own demons to fight off.

Your children aren't looking for mom anymore
They understand.

happiness in a small glass
acid, warm fire

fire that brings down the wall that I hold so close to me
and invites anyone and everyone in.

***** that leaves foreign fingerprints on my skin
and an empty heart, building back the wall again