I remember the moment I first felt you,
Moving silently in my womb,
The sudden wash of emotion,
As into my world you did cocoon,
9 long months I carried you,
Hour's of labour pain,
It was worth every minute,
As my tear drops fell like rain,
I immediately fell in love with you,
So proud of what I'd done,
My greatest life achievement,
I had produced you son,
I now had responsibility,
Far greater then any other,
The most important job of all,
Now I was a mother,
I made a silent pledge to you,
One I'd always keep,
I would keep you safe from harm,
I said as I watched you sleep,
Now I sit and watch you grow,
Can pick you out in any crowd,
And the only thing you'll hear me say,
You did your mummy proud!!!!!!!!!

He come's to me in the depths of night,
Angry and twisted and full of fight,
I wish and wish and try as I might,
Nothing removes this ghastly sight,
Panic and terror fills my head,
My body contorted and full of dread,
Recollection and memories fed,
So broken and lonely and frightened in bed,
A man I once loved and adored,
Has broken my mind and my emotions floored,
With sheer abandon the tears poured,
When will it stop, oh help me Lord,
A woman of courage, sincerity and grace,
Lie's her tormented in a very dark place,
Grief and loss etched on her face,
Oh what a crime of passion.

Who really bother's
Why do we care
Who really knows
Why we're even there
Does anything matter
What do you think
When the **** hits the fan
Do we swim or we sink
Is anyone happy
Do you really know why
We struggle through life
Only to die
So many questions
Go round in my head
Is life for the living
Or just time till we're dead

Here I am
This is me
What you get
Is what you see
Standing here
Wasting time
Thinking of
Another rhyme
Words go round
In my head
I lie awake
In my bed
Anecdotes
Similies
Use them wisely
If you please
A blank pad
A dried up pen
Please don't give me
Block again
I need my words
They have to flow
And to the world
They're put on show
Excitement flows
I've reached a peak
Nah can't be arsed
I'll save it for another week

Cowering in the corner,
Anguish on my face,
Being shown a lesson,
So I always know my place,
Longing for my freedom,
Being shown for my good,
Dare not question my husband,
Like every good wife should,
Spirit and body broken,
The bruises that you see,
Symbol's of a marriage,
Now I'm his property.
He selects my clothing,
Never let's me from his sight,
I often pray in silence,
Can't someone see my plight,
When I was a little girl,
I'd often dream you see,
One day someone would love me,
This wasn't how it's ment to be,
The darkness envelopes me,
The blood thunders in my ears,
I'm praying for a miracle,
I scream but no one hears,
Inside I'm slowly dying,
He's so horrible, cruel and mean,
To some this may be torture,
To me it's just routine.

Looking in the mirror,
Who's that I can see,
She look's vaguely familiar,
But seem's a stranger to me.
A scar above her eyelid,
Sorrow written in her eye's,
Memories etched across her face
That she often tries to hide.
Grey flecks in her hair line,
Slight wrinkles on her face,
A smile to light a thousand stars,
But sadness, just a trace.
A woman of worldly wisdom,
The school of hard knock's wise,
This heart was made to be broken,
Even a glass eye cries.
So what has really happened,
My reflection is all I see,
So many thing's have gone before,
Now I see the real me.
Inside my heart is screaming,
My soul it longs to soar,
It hunger's for some reason,
To have a purpose to adore.
Need's to understand the secret's,
That's trappped down deep inside,
Wash away the million tears,
That I often wished I cried.
Now looking in this mirror,
For the first time I know see,
I may once of been a prisoner,
But finally I'm free