I am afraid my demons have warded you off
My demons are solid, my demons are not soft

Today, I thought I felt something
A spark, a flame between us

Today, maybe I was wrong
There is no spark nor flame

There is
doubt,
vulnerability
and confusion

One day, not today
there may be less of the bad and more of the good
I hold my breath now and wait for that day

You say words that remind me of him
but you're different

You're handsome and kind as was he
but you're different
You have goals and dreams
You have patience and gratitude

You're so out of my reach
but so was he

The joy flashed across your face
The saddened creases faded
You became whole again in that moment
and today was the first day that we believed in remission

What has been inheriting your soul has been lifted
The reminders have been removed from view
You are you once again

All that can be asked now is for continuity
Let the joy of remission and comfort continue

I do not know the way you speak, walk or laugh
but I would like to
Surely you are not perfect
but show me a flaw
I cannot have you as mine
but I like to pretend
I do not hold your heart
but please allow me
I want you,
the way you speak, walk and laugh
the way you appear flawless
the way you fight my grasp on your heart
I want you, as mine