He looks down on me
Not with belittling eyes
They are soft, softer than the pillows on his bed.
They are a deep brown that swallows me, distracts me from everything terrible.
They are addictive, absolutely necessary for me to get through the day.

I love you, but it frightens me
Because you are the only one I see
Because everyone else fails to be
You.

All I want is the pain,
To feel a little less insane,
To see my emotions rain,
Raining red, raining bright,
It's raining all over me tonight.

Clumsily, carelessly spewing out words
That now I would take back, if I could.
I idolized you, losing my value,
Standing by as your ego just grew.
Now I only have myself to blame
As you look down on me
With no intention of equality.