I built a world last night
In a universe not so far away
This universe is here to stay because of the real world is no where I want to play
Wondering around, always looking down, feeling weary and stripped down.
I got tired of the day to day, drowning under the waves of sorrow
Barely holding onto the to the drift woods of happiness scattered throughout the sea of life
Only to have them sink beneath my hands
The world I built inside my head is a place to escape the noise and dread
Reaching out, grabbing stars to lift up my world that lives in the dark.  
A place to hide, a place to rest, a relaxing feeling that helps me best.
So won’t you come and hide away with me.  Explore my world in solidarity,
finding its charm and enchanting space, a place where you can be whatever you want your life to be.

What do you see, when you look at me
Do you see a man, a man of power, power to walk through fire without any pain
Or do you see a coward, a spineless creature without any brain.
Don’t let me exterior, make you blind to my rage
When you mess with what I cherish, I’ll crash over you like a wave.
A wave of damnation and anger, like a Tiger being released from a cage.
Watch your step when you come around me
My armor’s from my maker, the only shield I will ever need
With a sword made of truth and a dagger forged in justice
I’ll carry these tools with me wherever I go, and use them to create peace where the devil tries to flow.

They say your heart skips a beat when you see the one you love, but did you know mine only beats when you are near?
It’s not your beauty that captures my heart, but the glow of your soul that calls to me.
When you are with me, my heart takes flight, unfurling wings of brilliant light.
I take you with me where ever I go, even if it’s just your smile, it keeps me whole.  
Life is whatever we make it, be it good or be it bad, but my life is always perfect when where you stand is by my side.
You make me brave, you make me strong, for you I will dawn armor and a sword and destroy anything that wishes to harm you.
My love, my life, know that you are my world.  With you my life is complete. No matter what this world will bring you are my angel that brings me life.

Can you see what I see, with a mind so unclear? I doubt that you can because I'm a freak my dear. A freak can't be explained with a single definition, it's a thought, or a feeling or simple action that can spread such a thought through these normal people that walk all about. The reason I see what I see and feel what I feel is brought out from thinking out of line and out of the box. Basically I think like a tornado merely less destructive to others unless they can read minds? Then I fear for their fate.  I think and I think but it's not always clear my mind sometimes wonders about those things that have no meaning or just waddle about. I'm here and I’m there, all over with doubt for being certain means power which I know nothing about.
What is this whimsy and silly little rhyme, who knows and who cares it's only a thought not a plot to some story that I have already forgot. I'm rambling on and on sometimes veering off course but can you be truly lost when there is no path, no road for these thoughts.  Back to things that matter or at least seem on point my mind is a freak and I can make it a point.
See sometimes I giggle or stifle a laugh; I can seem nearly crazy or maybe just mad. But I have a reason for such a strange reaction a well-placed switch has flipped and now I see things with laughter.  Even when times may seem unfit, with depressing or sad feelings a bound I know I can find the funny that's running around.  So a freak I will be as I find it quit clever, finding ways to be happy when this life is full of pressure. So with a smile and a laugh and a question for thee, join this freak in all of my pleasure or continue on in your normal minds whatever that may be.

Sitting here in my chair holding my two little gifts. I see the one so very smart and full of jokes, he is a clever one and can only be my loving son. The other gift sitting with me now so small yet feisty and without any fear, clearly that can only be the daughter I love being so sweet to me. These two miracles are the best of me, an enduring legacy.   I will teach them right from wrong, raise them right with love in their hearts and passion on their minds.  I cannot fail this mission in life for these two souls are my shining star light, and others beware if you mess with these two because Daddy is a Monster when you try to harm those I cherish.  So little ones learn all you can, become doctors or lawyers or whatever under the sun, just give it your all and enjoy what you do.  Be loving and kind, not just to others but to one another.  Your brother and sister and it's true...Daddy loves both of you all the way to the moon.

It's time to sleep my little buddy, The day is done and you've had your fun.
You have built great fortresses and battled the unending hordes, but now it's time to rest my little warrior.  The battles won and the day is saved and it's time for you to hit the hay. I know you feel it's o so unfair,  "going to bed now, but I'm a big boy I am three" I shake my head and sigh with the experience of age, I already know the lie.  "I'm not even tired you'll say" but it will be chased by a yawn and a rub if the eye and I'll know that my hunch of a feeling was on the bulls-eye.  Tussling your hair and tucking you in tight I'll tell you how much I love you and turn out the light.  I'm sure you will think as you lay in that bed all alone that Daddy has left you all alone. But fear not my son because even though I am not beside you, you are always on my mind.  I will be near ready to spring into action no matter the fear. I love you my son and I shall never leave you unprotected, so rest now my son and have no fear.

I see you there above the rest waiting for whatever’s left
Watching you from a far waiting for sleep to take me to a place where I can dream
A place where dreams are whatever we want and the outcome of life is not a matter of chance
But a place of unfathomable options and fairy tale like outcomes
I never want to wake up and leave the palace I built in my dreams
Because it’s the one place I know you see me for what I want to be and not who I am
A peasant of life searching for a queen, staring at the stars only to slip in the mud and crash into reality
But every time I sleep I will be back into that place where my life is much sweeter and you are my queen.

The giggles of angles, sound only so sweet
But your giggles and blushes are the sweetest of sweet
The flush of red to your cheeks and bashful stare
Drives many of men to immortal despair
Despair, you may wonder why such a gloomy response
But I tell you maiden of humble beginnings, even the greatest of kings
Know they have no chance with the fairest of fair

My eyes are closed, my mind is set
A race has started and the track is wet
My thoughts are the tires, on this speeding car
They find no traction as my thoughts start spinning without a safety net.
Strange as it is, this isn’t new
My mind has always been stuck on fast forward but usually it’s full of dread.
Now when the car is set in motion I set the gear to ignore fear.
Fear was once my driver, causing me to miss on this and that
But it’s nothing more than a speck in the rear view mirror
As I learned to never let fear decide my fate.

How is the land so quiet, yet loud, when we hear both nothing and everything all around?  Will the thoughts I want and the knowledge I need be there for me now amid all these noisy waves? Or will the torture of ether simply consume my faith.  This daily battle rages within my head, never knowing which victor will come forth, a thought the only brings more dread.  Why must I fear these mental attacks from the nothingness of displeasure that threatens us all?  Could it simply be that I have only grown too weak, to filled with fear?   A breaking of will and eroding fighting skill has left me defenseless, making this daily battle more precarious and the enemy more formidable with the power it wields.  
The morning has started and the warriors make hast, both rushing and taking the most advantageous of place.  While I try to relax and hope for the best, I can already feel the shake in my chest.   The termers of power and fear I can feel, as the enemy has grown stronger and growing ever near. Laughing and jeering as the brazenly make way, as they see only a handful of defenders in my mind today.  While physically I use what I can, to carry on with my journey as husband, father and friend.  All the while I know it’s going to be a very dark day.
As my path for the day is being followed alright, my mental defenses are failing and the darkness is taking over the light.  The darkness enjoys not only the win, but the pleasure of torturing your happiness till it has come to an end.  Slow and steady it’s covered the ramparts and searched for my defenders knowing they are few.  Laughing and whispering evil nothings, for they know they shan’t lose.
There taunts the start as only that whisper but grow in depth and cheer as they mercilessly destroy anything that is near.  I can feel it more now, the mental with draw and the physical pain, the longing for hope that seems out of range.  Fear is strong when there is nothing to face it with, such as love and light.  In this moment both these weapons of glory are nowhere in sight.  I’m forced to pull what is left, both deep and close in hope that I might fight off this spiteful ghost.  The ghost of what, I do not know, only that it haunts my waking hours feeding on my worries and woes.
Deep as can be and curled up within, the feeling of lose is all that’s with in.  No more joy, happiness, or hope, it’s all be conquered by this mysterious foe.  Sometimes we think that there is nothing more to do when in the face of such anguish and pain, that giving up is the only end game.  This is the point when you’re at a crossroads, give up and surrender or dig deeper and bring out the light.  One is easy and one is hard, one final and one enduring but riddled with scars.  Are the scars worth it, as you’ll never be the same?  That’s a choice we must all make when we have battles on these dark days.

It's one of those days. Where the castle is dark. My walls are crumbling and my purpose is waning. The darkness is shaking and quaking my foundations. Running wild on all of my defenses. Even in my room of solitude I feel no safety as the darkness creeps in. Is this it? Is this all I have? To cower and quit without so such much as a twitch? These forces of darkness are wicked that's true with powerful and cunning, unrelenting desire too, I fear their motives and want only to die.
But what is this...this commotion I hear? The sounds of courage, bravery and love radiating from everywhere near. These things I feared were lost long ago, unable to withstand this unholy gale. That's why it seems so strange hearing these emotions all around me coming from foreign forces both near and far.  Their battle cry is fierce and their passion is bountiful, charging in headlong with fire in their eyes. Their determination and fearless charge inspiring my hope that was buried deep inside.
My fortress is filled with warriors I knew not of, but fight they did to fee my mind from its hell like cage. The battle ragged and rattled the castle some more, but for the first time in forever I feel alone no more. These helpers, these angels, these bringers of grace have given me back my   sword and shield. I rally my troops both Tigers and Devils for I shall no longer waste away in this dreary cell. With help and courage and love by my side, my warriors pushed back the darkness till it was no longer inside. The battle was long and started out dim, but never shall I cower again. For my castle is rebuilt, both stronger and new, with gilded warriors brave and strong finding powers inside that will help me grow with pride. With guidance and love and the faith of others I claim victory for now and forever.
Darkness fears light, but light must be desired to push back that dark…