I feel you pulsing through my veins
This feeling will never be  gone
Because the feeling will always remain
I have a feeling that you are the one

If I brushed your hair aside
And our lips met
Would you try and hide
Or make this a moment we never forget.

I wake to visions of you
You're always on my mind
This I know to be true
I'm feeling this for the first time.

This time I can't hide how I feel
Because it's the sweetest thing I know is real.
When I think of you I can't help but smile
No matter what if I'm with you I'm having fun all the while.

As they put me under
I can only wonder
What is wrong with me?
Is it person I see as me?
Is it my extra weight?
Is it how people hate
Just because I dont fit?
Maybe its that I refuse to quit.
No, nothing is wrong with me.
Me is all I can ever be.
I might not be hot.
I'm happy with what I've got.
My beauty is on the inside.
Myself I can no longer hide.
I don't need to be under the knife
Because unlike you I'm happy with my life.
To you this must seem so strange
but to me I see no reason to change.

They call it suicide
But on the inside we've already died.
You say you care
But when I needed you no one was there.

I put the gun to my temple
But you're really pulling the trigger.
When you look at the pistol
Do you realize that your mistake was much bigger?

I gave you all I had
But it not being enough made you mad.
I gave you my heart
But you preferred to rip it out.

When I asked if you could hear
It fell on a deaf ear
Despite all that was said
You didn't hear a single word.

But now that I'm dead
Maybe what I had to say will stick in your head.

Why did you have to rip our child from the womb ?
Why did you have to send him to his eternal tomb?
Why couldn't you let me be a happy father?
You say you have an explanation but don't even bother.

Would having our child having their first breath really be a crime?
Why do you look at it as stopping it just in time?
No matter how you look at it you took a life
Doesn't matter if it was by scalpel or knife.

You ended a gift from God
You act like it doesn't bother you
But I know that's a facade
Because that could never be true.

Now I pick up my pen
So that you can see the beauty within
For a child is a beautiful gift
If you take it away you create a permanent rift.

Some say it is a choice
But I say we need to hear their unspoken voice
Let them live
For we do not know if your sin God can forgive.

He crouches in the drench
Waiting for his enemy to walk by
He stays still despite the stench
He sees his enemy out of the corner of his eye
He stays still
As the enemy gets near
It's unfortunate that he must ****
But he does it so his countrymen can live with no fear
This time he managed to escape with his life
So that he may make it back home to his wife
Next time he might not make it
But his name we will never forget
After months away
He manages to rest for a day
He's the unknown soldier
He gives it all for the flag
When he can no longer make it to be any older
We bury him a soldier, a hero fighting for the flag
That now rests on his casket
I'll send a dozen roses in a basket
I can never forget the soldier who laid his life on the line
So that I could live mine.

Why can't I see through these bloodshot eyes?
Why do I need this poison so bad?
Why can't anyone see past all my lies?
Why when you help do I get mad?

I stuck the needle in my arm
I thought I could handle it
But I didn't contemplate the harm
Now the pain I felt I can never forget.

I feel the poison entering my veins
Temporarily alleviating my pains
But when it wears off I'll need another dose
Being able to get close to people is what I miss the most.

I needed you but you needed a needle
Thats how I feel
When I look down in the casket and realize it's real
Your pride was crushed long ago like a beetle

You pushed everyone away
And yet
At the end of the day
No one will forget
How you needed drugs
And when you asked for help it was met by shrugs

Memories of you haunt me
Visions of us together taunt me
Too bad it wasn't meant to be
You knew that all along so why
Didn't you just tell me?
Did you enjoy living the lie?

Inhale lies
Exhale pain
With bloodshot eyes
I scream your name

I cried
I couldn't breathe
I almost died
You wouldn't believe
The pain I felt because of you
When you said that we were through.

You were my drug injected under my skin
Everyday I fight to retain sanity
But I just can't win
Because my next fix will never be.
When we see each other you act like you don't know my name
Yet your memories still fill me with so much shame.

Inhale lies
Exhale pain
With bloodshot eyes
I scream your name.

Now no matter what you say
My pain will never go away
Throughout the years
I shed so many tears
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm sober because it's all over.

I inhaled your lies
And exhaled pain
My eyes are no longer bloodshot
Because now it's my name you can't forget.

I hide what I feel inside
For fear of what you might say.
If life is like a roller ride
Then mine could fly off the tracks any day.

Music eases my troubled soul
And relieves my stress as a whole.
If you were to come in my room
You wouldn't see my inner gloom.

I smile on the outside
So that you won't realize I'm dead on the inside.
If you really looked into my eyes
You'd find the reveal all my outward lies.

I am impossible to label no matter how hard you try
Because I'll retain my individuality until the day I die.

I fall too easily
Even though I know
You could never love me
I still smile and keep up the show.

I try to look on the brighter side
But I see so much pain
When you see the true person they hide
Your thoughts would never be the same.

I don't care to fit in
If you were like me
And had to live in my skin
You is all you'd want to be.

I'm a puzzle peace that just won't fit
Yet you keep trying to force me to conform.
No matter how much I complain you won't quit.
You keep trying to mold me into a perfect form.

You can't appreciate what makes me unique.
You believe I'll be happier without a name.
No matter what you think
I will not allow such shame.

You tell me I could be perfect
If I just listen
But I know it won't be worth it
For inner shell would thicken.

I am piece h
I fit where no others go
For as we age
We finally start to grow.

Humanity is a mystery never to be solved
Ever since the first day we evolved.

As I lay my head down to rest
You ask if you may pull the rope
And my response is be my guest
for what is life when you've lost all hope.

I watch as the golden blade seems to descend from heaven
Waiting for the blade to come crashing back down to earth
I was brought into this world at the hour of seven
And ever since cursed from my moment of birth.

Praise from others made my heart grow warm
So I gratefully agreed to stand atop there platform
But now I fear that I am in for a great fall
For I turned my back on reason and became like you all.

I look out into the crowd of spectators
And see not one of your faces
For instead all those people you called haters
Have taken your places.

I feel no regret, for I know my legacy no one shall ever forget.
Heaven or Hell it does not matter where I go for my end is but a show.

As I sit here all alone...
My heart slowly turns to stone...
Your words resonate through my brain...
...They fill my heart with so much pain...
You made my life a living hell...
Now all that's left is an empty shell...
I sit here trying not to cry...
Thankfully not a single tear comes to my eye...
I always thought our love true...
But in the end I meant less than nothing to you...
You pushed me aside...
And told me to hide...
You looked me in the eye...
But every single word was a lie...
You made my day...
And then took all the joy away...
You saw my passion as a burning fire...
And extinguished the flame before it could get higher... Now the vision of you fills me with so much misery...
And yet you seem so much better off without me.

I waited so long for you to say
Those three words to me
But at the end of the day
It was never meant to be.

So now I'm broken
These tears are soaking
Through
Thanks to you.

I told you so many times
That I wanted you
But you told me a thousand times
That I didn't want you.

I gave you my all
But in the end everyone
Has to have a great fall
When they can no longer see the sun.

So now I'm broken
These tears are soaking
Through
Thanks to you.

I sit here with a heart full of stone
And a chill resonates in my bones
All because
Our love never was.

Somebody save me
My future is fading into black
Once i pull the trigger there will be no turning back
Why must this be?

What's this vision of beauty I see
Past all my pain
Will she lend me an ear
Or have me cry out in vain?

I've been hurt so much before
That I can't help but say no more
Her glance ends all hostility
And I realize she's the girl for me

I was at the end of my rope
But now I have a new hope
For her beauty is my salvation
If not for her I'd face eternal damnation.

I love you
The three hardest words for him to say
He wanted them to be said
Because they're true
He thought about them every day
Replayed them over and over in his head

He wonders if she feels the same
He asked himself time and time again
Does she know my name?
Not knowing got under his skin.

To compare this to chess would be obscene,
For while I am a lowly pawn she is a radiant queen
He can't bear to know if he got down on a knee
Would she say yes and say that she loves me?

As he brushes the hair from her face
He manages to smile past his former disgrace.

Why did you leave
A little kid with no hope?
A little kid afraid to believe?
A man slowly nearing the end of his rope?

You were gone by the time I was two.
I never got to feel your touch.
I feel like I would have been better with you
But unfortunately in that I was asking too much.

Why couldn't you stay?
Why did you have to go away?
Over you I shed many a tear.
Because of you my head is never clear.

I sometimes wake in the middle of the night
Screaming your name
Hoping you will come back and make it all right
But the next day I always feel so much same.

Maybe it is time I bid you a due
For  I truly never needed you.