As the days grow cooler now,
I start to face the question, How?
It’s been so long that I can’t hear your voice,
But as the day draws near I'm left with little choice.
To tell you now just how it was,
That you took my heart and then hit pause.

You never knew and I don’t blame you for that,
But in misdirected anger I still hissed and spat.
On that day - so late in November,
The sights the smells - your smile I still remember.
Merry and Jovial we relaxed by the pool,
The evening breeze welcomingly cool.
As the sun set and the sky filled with stars,
I started to feel like I was heading for Mars.
The feeling was alien overwhelming me so,
A feeling of love …
I couldn't let that show!
And I’d never let it go!
It tore at my heart and split me in two,
Surely this could not have been all because of you?

It’s closer now the time we’ll meet again,
I know it won’t be easy - a meeting of pain.
I have my plans and I'm sure you have yours,
But I'm not going to force open those doors.
I’ll tell you my truth on the hold that you had,
It was not a craze or in passing a Fad.
It was what it was but I want to move on,
But that’s now not to say that I want you gone.
Understanding and Acceptance is part of us all,
It’s just how you cradle the rise and the fall.

It was never your fault it was me through and through,
I should have just come out and said it to you.
I loved him then and would have given my all,
But time and again I stood up just to fall.

I’ll never forget you I don’t think that I could,
But moving on is something I should.
I'm not looking for feet sweeping kisses and a lifetime together,
I just want you to know my life isn't over.

A summers day so warm on your skin,
An autumn eve the restful kin.
The winter’s night cold and forlorn,
The coming of spring like a rose and its thorn.
Seasons will change and time will not halt,
And this is in no part your fault.

I never honestly thought this day would ever come,
Or at least that I wouldn’t be privy to the rolling conundrum.
The eternal school of life couldn’t even begin to explain,
The highs and lows of so much unnecessary torment and blame.
In the aftermath of our own personalized brand or Armageddon,
We now sit and evaluate the accounts of what feels like yester-year.

We see that we have weathered the storm together.
Now we are closer, stronger, directed, Purposeful, collaboratively more creative.
Just all round happier the figurative dust has settled and the weight is lifted.

I guess what we should really be saying is – Thank You.
Thank you for teaching us, for pointing us in the right direction,
For the effort you inexorably exerted on yourself in selfishness,
Which ended up only creating Reason & Order out of Chaos & Discord.
Most of all – Thank You
For opening up a door,
That we never thought was there before!

Days gone by and fires extinguished,
Letting go of the light my hope diminished.
'Twas a lie when they said that in time it would heal,
The prospect of time holds no more appeal.
And now that you've left my memories grey,
I guess this is now the price I must pay.

I'd thought it was love undying and true,
But it was never love that tied me to you.
It was the warmth of your touch and the smell of your hair,
The way that you walked that's what made me care.
Your Eyes got me hooked and your smile reeled me in,
It was a war I knew I would never win.

Sometimes you made me want to scream,
At times you made it seem,
As though nothing that I'd ever done was ever good enough,
But most of the time you made it not seem so tough.
Sometimes you made me feel like breaking-down and crying,
But now alas without you there I just feel like dying.

As the Sun rose up above my head,
I leave this land with much unsaid.
To pass the time was now my goal,
To live alone a broken soul.
Out of reach like the Sun and stars,
Round my head I'm chasing cars.

A burning flame’s secluded light,
Like the thought of you still burning bright.
In a heart black made of pain,
I still use your name to keep me sane.
Our time had passed and you moved on,
I still struggle to fathom that you are gone.

I walk the road in hope to find,
A reason in time to rest my mind.
But a dimming glow and faulting belief,
Leads my heart to find no relief.

I will push on with a budding need,
To learn and grow and nurture the seed.
I will succeed of that I've no doubt,
I will live and sing and dance and shout.

I have realised now I don't need you here,
But the thought of you still holds me dear.

I will move on with time I'm sure,
But a feeling like this has no cure.

Hurt and scarred I ran to hide,
I know this hurt will not subside.
They left their mark and left it well,
And the less I try the more I dwell.
What's done is done and I should move on,
Looming in the shadows now that they're gone.

It seems like yesterday they turned and walked away,
But what they said and did with me would stay.
I thought that I had left them far behind,
I thought the deal was sealed and signed.
I thought with you I would move forward,
I thought with you I would feel empowered.

I feel so empty so cold and blank,
Almost like the ship that sank.
Shattered dreams a lonely wreck of love and time,
The punishment does not seem to fit the crime.
But still I stand alone or not,
Thankful for all that I've got.

Every night I shed a tear for what has passed,
An opportunity missed and never grasped.
My own stupid mistake no one else to blame,
Admitting my pain I feel no more shame.
Taming the beast of broken emotions,
Dealing with the past and growing frustrations.

I've no doubt that the person I knew is no more,
Changed like the line of the beaten shore.
Still I hold on with no explanation,
Still I hold on to the forgotten location.
Still I remember the way it had been,
Their face their smile the person I'd seen.

I don't know how they did this to me,
But my only wish is now to be free.
Free from the pain the want the need from it all,
But I guess that to give it all up is still my call.
Stuck on a person my heart will remain,
Until at long last myself I reclaim.

Empty hearts and empty heads,
Are leading me to empty beds.
An empty soul no lust to try,
Just watching life rush on by.

A loveless lust so false and untrue,
Feeling less and less a one man crew.
A solo act of sorrow endearment,
The endless game for self procurement.

A life well lived and stories well told,
A life of endless torment sold.
Broken dreams and shattered hopes,
From the start never shown the ropes.

Deja vu a dime a dozen,
A tear in time forever frozen.
A life entwined with pain and grief,
A growing void of disbelief.

A duet sang with only one voice,
Given up on making the right choice.
Losing sight of goals once set,
I'll go all in that's my bet.

Pushing on and breaking ground,
Life and love in fate are bound.
Sit back relax and enjoy the show,
Not much left now time to go.

What is worse than blindness is to have perfect sight but no vision. We have enough people who tell it like it is now we could do with a few who tell it like it can be, and whether you say “I can” or “I can’t” you are always right.

Just think if second thoughts came before first thoughts, how much wiser we would be. The only thing is that we don’t get a second chance to make a first impression.

There is nothing good or bad, thinking makes it so and well done is always better than well said. Where words fail music speaks. Hearing tells you that the music is playing but only listening tells you what the song is saying.

People judge you by your actions not by your intentions. You may have a heart of gold but so does a hard-boiled egg. You can not build a reputation on what you are going to do. There are no short cuts to any place worth going and if hard work is the key to success then most people would rather pick the lock. Success is getting up one more time than you have fallen down.

A journey of a thousand miles must start with a single step, on that journey stay alert because what you know today may not apply tomorrow. You give but little when you give of your possessions it is when you give of your Self that you truly give, then the only way to have a friend is to be a friend.

If you were arrested for being kind would there be enough evidence to convict you? Expect miracles, you are one, but always have control over your emotions or they will have control over you.

The pessimist sees danger in every opportunity and the optimist sees opportunity in every danger, and the best compliment any one can ever give you is that you are different. Go confidently in the directions of your dreams and live the life you imagined just remember that happiness is not having what you want but wanting what you have.

May my words be sweet and tender for tomorrow I may have to eat them. Have a blast while you last and the truth behind it all is that you were born an original do not die a copy!

Compiled By : Michael-Kent Dobison