The rain beats down but numbs no pain,
And on my soul a growing stain.
Relinquish my life to time and its will,
Just popping them in - pill after pill.
The night grows late the rain on my face,
It still feels so bad I wish these pills would erase.

Again and again one at a time I feel no shame,
The worst is that I am the only one to blame.
I want it to stop,
To my knees I drop.
Tears start to roll like rain on the window,
With passing time I retreat to my shadow.

The voices have stopped and the silence is blind,
I close my eyes and hide in my mind.
The pain still so sharp,
Why won’t it stop…
Becoming a part,
Why won’t it stop...
The void gets bigger ******* me in,
I do not struggle I am letting it win.

Alone in the dark I sit and I cry,
I want to let go I try and I try.
They said that they needed me,
But how can that be?
They know not me,
There will be no we.

*I

I don't know why you did it and I really don't care,
You took all the happiness and now you won't share.
You took what I gave and you tore it apart,
It felt like a knife straight through my heart.
I tried to stay strong as I gave it my all,
But despite all the work I continue to fall.

I want you gone and out of my head,
I want you gone you heard what I said.
I want it to be over I wish we'd never met,
But what you want is not always what you get.

I just want to be free but your hold is relentless,
I fight the need but it really is pointless.
I've tried and I've tried and I've tried it again,
I've tried to the point where I'm going insane.
I want it to stop as I'm loosing the plot,
The pain and the hurt they're all that I've got.

The strength I've not got to stay resolute,
The single thought of you will always pollute,
My mind my heart my purpose and cause,
You continue to be my biggest of flaws.

Sad but true the fact of this is,
My life, my love my whole will be his,
From now till forever my last hope I've resigned,
To waiting this out and trying to leave you behind.

An empty space so deep inside,
A hollow that I will no longer hide.
I am not weak just easily swayed,
A prime target on which to be preyed.
But all will change and of this I am sure,
Pain and torment I will no longer endure.

Evolution is key to survive in this place,
And evolve I will in pride and in grace.
The person I've hidden for so long in the dark,
About to burst free my word you can mark.
The smiles that show and the hand I extend,
Will be true and will stand my long lasting friend.

A novel creation and a unique direction,
I have no doubt it will cause greater friction.
No point in living if you don't feel alive,
So from this point for life I will strive.
A genesis of sort a new beginning unfolds,
Now its time to see what my future holds.

It will not be easy I never said that it would,
Nor am I the fool that thinks that it should.
I don't owe you a reason, conclusion or theory,
All I know is that it's time to do this for me.
I'm not sure where I'll go or what I'll become,
But this is my choice what's done is now done.