Michael Ellis

Michael Ellis Dec 2011

Sky

Head up to the sky
the street lights feel like eyes

Eyes of the past, present, and future

Memories of love, hate, and regrets
because I was too shy

To shy to make things last, stay, and proceed

Feelings of happiness, sorrow, and pain
rush through my veins

The same very veins that carried blood to my cold heart

The heart that once was whole, happy, and big
is not broken, sad, and tiny

You see it wasn't someone who made my heart the way it was
it was the experiences that it went through

I've only been alive for nineteen years,
but I feel like I've been living for eighty

We all go through our temptations and trials
some conquered some failed, but what really
matters is that we are alive and we can keep our
heads up to the sky

Michael Ellis Dec 2011

Seeing Things Clearly

When you see me

You see a peaceful joyful soul

When you see me

You see smiles and happiness

When you see me

You see a strong cheerful young man

When you see me

Yon don't see me like I see me

rorrim gnikool a otni kool I nehW

niap hguorht neeb esohw yob a ees I

rorrim gnikool a onti kool I nehW

ytitnedi on sah ohw nam gnuoy a ees I

rorrim gnikool a onti kool I nehW

eb ll'I yas elpoep nam eht ees t'nod I

rorrim gnikool a onti kool I nehW

erutuf on htiw eruliaf a ees I

When you see me

You don't see the real vulnerable

Me.

Michael Ellis Dec 2011

Untitled

I've been in this for too long I
don't know what has me stuck
on this song. My head keeps
on tellin me to go for it show
her that you can make it rain,
but my heart is screamin' please
please I don't know how long I can
handle your pain!

What to do, what to do?
The truth hurts but the lies
only heal this open wound.
On one hand I see pain and
strife, but on the other I see
a new happy life. I know whats
good for me and I know what its
gonna take to set me free. I just
can't do it.

You might be thinkin' "What the
hell is this ***** doin? I can feel
your pain by just readin your words.
Why stay and keep on loosin?" I'll tell
you why I stay. I'm too stupid to lead
my feelins astray. When I go for some
thin, I bring all my being into it. I hold
nothin back not willin to quit.

It may **** me in the end, but in the end
I know i was the one who tried to make
things blend. You see. I come to you
writing this poem not for a specific person.
I don't need someone jumpin to a conclusion
and turning this into a car collision.

Time heals all, but this heart has been up and
down way to many walls...Its time to open up
a new page in this story and this chapter will
be labled Untitled.

Michael Ellis Dec 2011

Friends

Ever been so happy you wanted to cry?
**** I wish I had wings so I could Fly!
Lookin’ up to the sky thankin’ God I’m alive
You see, I was witherin’ away deep down
inside, but know I’m feelin. so rivived. I can
keep runnin’ this was to my heart’s content.
I promise to give it my all in every single event
just as long as you promise to give it your all in
every single moment of your life. We both know
things in life don’t come easy, but we gotta stick
with what we know and try new things even if it
brings us strife. Don’t worry about the little things
‘cause they clip your wings. You’re as strong as a
giant and as smart as a genius. All you gotta do is
keep your head up through all that is goin on and
I’ll make sure I’m there for you when you need some
one to lean on.

Michael Ellis Dec 2011

New Beginnings

Seein' her eye to eye is prolly the hardest thing to do.
I mean, I didn’t cheat or anythin like that
just took things too fast
and I ******
up.
They say it takes two to tango and things will work them
selves out, but with this I don’t think it
will. Jumpin’ to conclusion
just ain’t the
way.
Can’t believe I had somethin’ so good but let it
spoil to somethin’ rotten. I wish I could
go back into time and
listen to my
heart.
Shoulda kept **** private but just like a gossip girl,
I went and gossiped girl. I swear I
had the right intentions girl.
I swear I
did.
Feelings are a powerful weapon. They can make one
do things they’ve never believed they could,
but at the same time
they will break
you.
It
wasn’t just you,
I messed up too. Don’t
listen to what people have to say
we both know you’re a good girl, so believe it.
Things
will get better
girl, just let time do
it’s thing. **** was said about both
of us, but it shouldn’t change who we are girl.
We’re
both good people
who moved just a little
too fast. After all, we both run track.
We live, love, laugh and die impacting people.
Don’t
give up kid.
No matter what listen to
your heart even if you can’t hear it.
I know you’re gonna be big, for you are a giant.
I’m
here for you
when you think i’m not.
New beginnings lead to new memories.
I got mad family love for you kid stay strong.

Michael Ellis Dec 2011

Set Free

They told me not to jump to conclusions boy, but the others in my head told me to express my joy. My heart told me to keep it to myself and not to tell anyone else. **** she had me feelin’ like a lil’ kid, got me all excited and makin’ crazy vids. How did someone so small got me, out of all people, to fall?

You see, I wasn’t the type of ***** who went head over heels for a girl. I made sure my heart was locked up tight and waited for that one special day where I’d find that one special girl that change my view on this sick twisted world. I’ve been lied to, cheated on and played it seemed like love was just a game that every girl knew how to play.

Her heart has been through many trials and experienced crazy **** as a child. I felt her pain as she told me stories of the past. I promised myself that if we would got together we would forever last. I’d give her better memories than the one before me and show her things that will set her heart free.

I wanted to show her the better things in life than what she has seen through her pain and strife. I saw the little girl in her as she opened up, cryin’ for someone to come and build her up. Somethin’ deep down reached out to take her by the hand and show her that I was the man who was flexible like a rubber band. Who would be the one to protect her from the dark and give her life some excitement with just one spark.

Her heart has been through many trials and experienced crazy **** as a child. I felt her pain as she told me stories of the past. I promised myself that if we would got together we would forever last. I’d give her better memories than the one before me and show her things that will set her heart free.

The story doesn’t end in the love direction. In fact, it ends with a bad connection. Things fell apart as time went on and soon became strangers who were in danger of losing ourselves. To be the only one she’ll ever need just became a figment of my imagination and will never be brought to life like the dead through reanimation.

Her heart as been through many trails and experienced crazy **** as a child. I felt her pain as she told her stories of the past. I thought we’d forever last; I thought I’d give her better moments than the one before me, but in the end, I failed to set her heart free...

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