Fire burning bright
Surrounded by the darkness
Somehow I found the light
Trying to separate fake from real
I learned some wounds don't heal
I made too many mistakes
I know now many things that look real
Turnout to be fake
I didn't have patience for faith
I heard too many people got lost along the way
I'm too busy to be busy
They say work to hard and the stress might **** me
That's the risk you take for being too dedicated
A quick way to have yourself self medicated
But you get nowhere in life by being lazy
I would get no further if,
I depended on the chances people gave me
So depending on myself
Some chances I got to take
I'm not perfect so of course I'll make mistakes
I just refuse to settle for less
Or get lost along the way
But it's hard to find the way
When you surrounded by the darkness
Every time I find joy it seem to always rain
Every time I gget hurt,
I get left a scar
Some scars never heal
Even through the pain I still smile
The fact remains that I'm still alive
So long as I have another breath
I can take another step
Long as I'm moving forward
I'm never looking back
Long as God got my back
I'm never turning back
Unless it's back to the scripture....

Psalm 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil:
For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

You are my Masterpiece
After you all other inspiration decease
Like the Mona Lisa to Da Vinci
Or the Harmonie Bleue to Matisse
A beautiful work of art
Your imperfections is your best part
I wish to be your Michelangelo
You belong in the heaven I can feel the angels' woe
For them I shed a tear
But losing you is my greatest fear
I'm everything with you... Noting without you
Your so rare that just the mentioning of your name is taboo
Girl you're more valuable than a Picasso
You deserve the best so I place you in my castle
And of my heart you are the main piece
So I guess thats why I call you my "Master"Piece...

You didn't see the tears
That she was hiding through the years
You did see the bruises
Though she covered them with excuses
You didn't see the fights
That happen behind there doors at night
You never heard her cryz
But you saw the pain behind her eyes
She never asked you for help
Deep down inside she knew that she needed her self
Because who knew what she face better than she did
She was a grown woman on the out side but inside still a kid
Calling out for help but no one would answer
And as time went on the problem grew worse like cancer
She looking for a "Doctor" to come and tear it out
But no one heard her mental scream and internal shout
So who will help her who physically cant ask for help
And who will help her who cant help her self

Blade to wrist
Gun to my lips
This is not a game
So dont consider it a joke
Rope around my neck
Would it be ironic if i choke

My mom told me Neva start
What you can't finish
So if i pop one pill
Should i not stop till the whole bottle is deplinished

And I just hope that tylenol doesnt False advertise
cause im really just looking for a rapid release

**** IT

.:i I drop to my knees i:.
.:i And begin to pray i:.

"Lord thank you for the day,

But now i must ask that you tell the guards
at the gates to make way
I'm coming home, prepare a room
i feel like this world is crowded with fake people
and for me there is no longer room.
Im not saying i hate people
But I feel I tried my best at it LORD
and i feel as if now my home resides with you
Im just hoping that everything is true.
You know the gold pave roads
My own Acres
My own Mansion
I want to have it Eternaly with you
But lord im smart and i know there is nothing as half truth
so if i take my own life ill never get to meet you
Than I guess it is all worth the trouble
Im just waiting for the day that i get to greet you"
Amen

Her walls go higher than any ceiling
To build them so high she paid a killing
She gave up her soul
Her heart... Her whole
Being
See she was seeing
Every man as being one
The one that did her wrong
And now shes contempt with being alone

Her walls arn't made of bricks
Because those need to be fixed
Hers are made of blood and tears
From all the pain that she felt for years
So how do you tear them walls down
When theres no foundation and no ground
Maybe it's simple
First you got to understand her mental
She needs a friend not a lover
Not for you to kiss her but to hold her
Tell her that you love her till she believe you
Her walls will only fall if u put in the time
Only if you come true and quit all the lien
Only than will her walss fall
Mentaly and Physically she'll give you her all

Some times it hurts
The pain is inside
Where my demons hide

My Id is in a constant struggle with my ego
To be the super hero
My super ego
Tries to suppress my Id
But if my Id emerges
From my deepest thoughts
I'm lost without...
Words...
To describe the carnage that would ensue
I'm talking slit wrist
To the random-est,
Of people only to fulfill my inconspicuous bliss
I'm talking shooting nukes just for fun
Armageddon... Wouldn't that be fun
I'm talking gun towards brother
Knife against mother
And you dread your sleep
Cause that's when the snakes come to eat
And this all happened inside my head

Sometimes it hurt
The pain is inside
Where my demons hide

Also There I hide my soul
In a empty hole
All by it lonesome
No visitors allowed
But somehow she kidnapped my soul
And she wanted my heart for the ransom
She was bad too... And than some
Angel in my eyes
But a demon in disguise
Tempted me to do all the wrong things
Telling me it would be alright
See I was struggling through the days
Barely making it through the nights
She promised to show me the light
So as I see the gold flicker
She said this can be your life
And I told her I'll take it
Because the money and the fame
seems to make everything alright
But wait can you also promise Love
Can you promise me a girl that's
going to be there just because
She down for me
One that if I ever leave
will hold it down for me
I'm talking one that will
go to town for me
Cause that's all I really need
Can you promised me a good seed
To provide my wants and needs
So now I'm contemplating the price for my soul
All in my head

Some times it hurt
The pain is inside
Where my demons hide

Dear, The One That Got Away;

Hey how you doing? I hope I'm not intruding. I just want you to know that when you left, You left me in ruin. To understand we never talked much. To be honest the only conversation we ever had was a shared smile. On a crowded street, But it seemed to last a while. They say eyes are the windows to your soul. So when our eyes connected my soul threw rocks at your window. Begging to be let in, Romeo and Juliet. We could of had that fairy tale love, obviously that only happens in books. Because our opportunity past so now I must dread the opportunity I never took. If this letter ever reach you, I want you to remain strong. I want you to know if you try your hardest nothing can defeat you. With that being said I guess the only thing left to be said is, I hope you feel the same way...
Sincerly, Your Lost Love