AWAKE
you haunt my thoughts
ASLEEP
you haunt my dreams
AND IN BETWEEN
there is nothing to be said

Just the fact
Just the notion
Just the idea

That at one point

You cared
You obsessed
You enjoyed

About me
Over me
Me

Is enough
To keep
Me holding on.

It's still raining
And no one has said a word.

Miles
do nothing

but reaffirm

the fact


that I



am so



in love




with






you.

You are still lingering
All over my skin
Burning softly
Stinging gently

be* [verb]- to exist
been (past)

You should have been there.
You should be here.
You should be there in the future.

Your mouth
and your eyes
are telling me two
very different things.

My head
and
my heart
are causing
a Civil War
within
my own
self.

the green of your eyes
eliminates
the grey of my soul
and
the blue in my mind
and
turns my heart
red

i am longing for a pair of arms to hold me
yet i do not know to whom they belong

There are wars going on in the world
There are children starving in the streets
There are women walking miles to get clean water
There are hearts broken
There are tears streaming
There are births
There are deaths
But none of that matters
Because I am laying on your chest
And your fingers are running through my hair
And your scent is making my head spin
And your lips are tracing my forehead
And I am so in love with you
That the world seems perfect

I loved you once
With all of my heart
With all of my mind
With all of my being

And you hurt me once
All of my heart
All of my mind
All of my being

i live for the days
when the lamps are on
in the middle of the afternoon
and the rain hints melancholy
beneath its frigid tears
when everyone huddles beneath sweaters
and takes shelter together in beds
and hopes for no tomorrow

Bust in the door
Sweep me off my feet
Carry me off into the sunset
Cue the credits
Play the joyful music
Let us live happily ever after
Complete the story of us
It's in your hands

Even after
everything
you put me through
All the
hope
All the
hurt
All the
pain
I could
never
pollute your name
Because of
all the
love
I still have for
*you

I bet he's cuter than me.
I bet he's stronger than me.
I bet he's funnier than me.
I bet he can cook better than me.
I bet he's in better shape than me.
I bet he makes you laugh a lot more than me.
I bet he makes you smile a lot more than me.
I bet he kisses better than me.
I bet he can hold you tighter than me.
I bet he knows exactly what to say to make you happy.
I bet he you do so much more with him.
I bet he's always on your mind.
I bet he gives you butterflies.

But there's one thing that I know for sure.
He can't possibly love you like I do.

the
night is a
demon
that reminds
you
of everything you
wanted*
to forget

How does it feel to be with the wrong person?
To be too scared to come back
And say
That I was right.
That you were too scared all along.
That this one is the one
That actually counts
And will mean something in the long run.

I went to sleep
with
clouds in my eyes.

I woke up to
more
clouds in my mind.

This was supposed to be it.
I was supposed to be done after this.
We found each other and then we were supposed to just live happily ever after.
But that whole plan didn’t sit well with you.
And you deviated from the intended path.
The intended path of the natural flow of things.
And you found someone else.
Someone that’s not going to treat you like I do.
Someone that doesn’t know you like I do.
So I’ll be waiting right here for you.
Tear-stained and broken down.
But forever yours.

I woke up to a thunderstorm.