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390 · Jun 2014
Am I made for love
Mercy B Jun 2014
Perhaps the truth is that my heart has become far too concerned with all the sorrow this world has tossed my way.

It is more likely tho that it is tarnished, leaving an ugly stain, ruined by the hardships that I can not  simply not wash away.

Words became my weapons, strategically used to grant the illusion of peace and disregard, whilst I hide behind a facade

The more intentally I struggled to perfect my shadow dance it seamed more wandering eyes begin to ****

Desperately, I search my soul to remember a time in which my heart would open up and embrace the love around me.

Somewhere buried deep inside this broken shell lies my longing, but my memories will not allow it to be free.
386 · Jun 2013
The unknown
Mercy B Jun 2013
I am usually so well with words accepted for at this moment right now.

I can not explain this emptiness that has swallowed me up some how.

Like a deep penetrating sadness but also it is so much more.

A voice inside my head taunts me that I know was not there before.  

Like diving head first right into the shallow end of the pool.

My mind hits a brick wall when trying to explain my emotions, instead out pours endless drool.  

This nothingness grows inside me and leaves devastation along its path.

Everything that is me soon will be destroyed by this no named beast's wrath.
386 · Dec 2014
Make it Rain
Mercy B Dec 2014
I know not what I must do to rid my mind of this endless
silence

Make it rain
To rid my pain


Lighting fills the night sky to shield the world from my echoing cries.

*Make it rain
To rid my pain
Inspired by my most adored artist Ed Sheeran
379 · Nov 2014
Me
Mercy B Nov 2014
Me
I am me

The only me I can  be

If you just  open your  eyes

Then perhaps maybe you would **see
Thank you Jeanie fore being my Bi polar buddy and ythe inspiration behind this poem
373 · May 2013
Music in Me
Mercy B May 2013
The pounding of the bass pulsates down thru my core.

The lyrics wash over my mind leaving me yearning for more.

Each note entices my body to move along with its rythmic tone.

This overwhelming force takes me to a place of my very own.

Relishing every moment I find myself getting lost in the sound.

With an everlasting melody inside my  head I tune out the world around.
371 · Nov 2014
Nobody
Mercy B Nov 2014
I am nobody
Who are you
Are you nobody too

They can't see me
Hidden in plain view
Lookin at me but right thru
#mercieb
369 · May 2013
Thru the Glass
Mercy B May 2013
The sadness of today is chasing the hope of my tomorrow's out of my head.

This endless torment I allow to take hold is so fierce , like a savage beast it waits to be fed.

On display for the world to see my madness, frantically  I try to hide behind the glass.

I try to convince myself that one day it will be different, that this too will pass.

My mind wanders to happier days when I was able to be the only thing I've ever wanted to be, ME.

I shut myself off from the world and in my sweet solitude I am able to keep secret what I don't want them to see.

Paralyzed by the curiosity of what they must think I try once again to open up and let them back inside.

The idea of them prying into my thoughts, telling me all I've done wrong, only makes me wish I had continued to hide.
366 · Sep 2014
These Eyes
Mercy B Sep 2014
These eyes

Are like infinitesimal notches to my soul, yet the story remains to be untold

Allowing glimpse of what may be, and  still I am  petrified  to let you watch it unfold.  

These eyes

Can be full of compassion and fury , and manage find just enough room to house lust and rage.

Act as a gateway into my mind, which also tends to be my most frequented cage.

These eyes

Help keep at bay unwanted strangers, and somehow that same intensity is what draws others near.

For far to long were hidden behind unfathomable pain, but no longer will i allow it to cause even one more lonely tear
351 · Sep 2014
Truth
Mercy B Sep 2014
The
Truth
In
Your
Eyes

Only
Confirms
All
The
Lies
342 · Sep 2014
ONE
Mercy B Sep 2014
ONE
Amidst the remenets of this dilapidated sanctuary, There stood one.

One relentless warrior
Un willing to be broken
Refusing to admit defeat.

Embarking on the  journey down this treacherous path was one


Still a little shaken
Un clear of what is to come
Yet head still held high

In sight of glory, not daring to look at the road left behind , still was the one

Not completely sure of the ending
Remembering never to make the bed too hard.
Allowing nothing to encroach on her freedom


I just never knew that this one could be me.
305 · Sep 2014
eternal sleep
Mercy B Sep 2014
I am in awe of the deep silence of an eternal sleep, one which is unable to ever be broken.

          Indulging in the notion that no longer shall i be tormented by these thoughts and words never spoken.

A peaceful hush, that is capable of washing away all of the constant clammering inside mind.

           A place of refuge from the chaos which lingers in my dreams, such a place I fear I will never find.

Watching the world, standing beside myself, knowing that the screams in my head no one will never hear.

              I hold on to the hope that on the day before your life changes forever the answers may not be fully known, but at least become more clear.
281 · May 2013
Time
Mercy B May 2013
Spend
          Pass
****
                     TIME

Rewind
            Remember
Make
                       TIME

Keep
        Relive
In
                      TIME

Never
         Have
Enough
                      TIME
279 · Sep 2014
more perfect me
Mercy B Sep 2014
If  only I were able to be a more perfect me
I would finally be all the world thought that I  should be

The many failed attempts I have made at fitting in
would be erased, no longer for the world to see


If only I knew how to be that more perfect me
I may finally feel comfortable sitting in my own skin.

I could put away the plethora of mask I've worn, and
instead of being runner up the real me could actually win
152 · Dec 2022
DONE
Mercy B Dec 2022
I'm filled right to the brink with one sided conversations.
The shiver penatrates down to my core with out care or hesitation.
Gaining in strength until my own thoughts begin imploding in my head.
Spewing shattered fragments of all of the words left unsaid.

I'm done with all this sadness.
Staying silent as the years they flew.
My head overflowing with madness.
At last I'm done with you.

I am tired of waiting to be good enough, finally in your eyes be fixed.
I must solider on and stay my course so my gaze remains transfixed.
Im finally standing up and making moves and yes  I'll do this on my own.
Better to sit tall in sweet silence than keep arguing a truth I've always known.

I'm done with all this sadness.
Staying silent as the years they flew.
My head overflowing with madness.
At last I'm done with you.

— The End —