I feel so lifeless , I think I'm disappearing
Not in the eyes of people but in mine
Regardless if I'm sleeping or not
I feel so numb , I'm slowly losing my sight
I close my eyes and I realize that I'm falling
Into a sea of sadness where smiles are forbidden
I'm losing my breath , I think I'm drowning

The sea is dark and I'm really scared
I try to open my eyes but I can't
Then these question cross my terrified mind
Am I really deep in the sea ?
Or am I just beneath the surface ?
Am I really in a sea ? Or am I the sea ?
Is the sea dark ? Or am I dark ?
But then again am I imagining ?

I open my eyes again and realize it was a dream
But wait ! Why am I locked in a room ?
And again I wonder
Am I really locked inside ?
Or did I through the key ?
Is it just my wild imagination ?
Or is it just my unsettled fears ?

I'm lost searching for answers
I'm tired from escaping what I don't understand
My mind is temporary stoping
I'm sorry but I can't fight these demons anymore ...

I'm everything I hate in this world
But yet it's all I can be

I'm everything I can't control
But yet It's all I know

Beautiful is all I what to be
But yet I'm stuck in me

Happiness is all I want to achieve
But yet blood is all I can see

Fear is the only thing I hate
But yet running is all I do

Forgotten is the one word I can't say
But yet it seems like it's me

Lost is all I hoped I won't be
But yet I'm still screaming

Alive is all I wish I can feel  
But yet I can't seem to breath

I'm letting go of all I thought I'll love forever
I'm holding on to the things I never knew they excited
I'm calling out the demons that are hiding with in
I'm chasing out all the angles that are near me
I'm killing all the sweetness I longed to have
I'm reaching out to the darkness that lies beneath the eyes
I'm pushing away all the embraces I screamed loud to get  
All I have know is this dark poisoning air that's choking every single hope of life in me
I need my angles back , I need all the love back ...

Drowning in my own Sorrow
Not finding away out
Feeling so wronged
But still can't move an inch
I'm dying from pain
But still covering it
drifting away from reality
But still imagining what will never happen
Memories never forgotten
But still saying they're not remembered  
Should I run and hide
Or should I stay and fight
Questions that will never be answered

Oh beautiful , how you make me happy
With your perfect caring stare

Oh love , how you make me dance
With your sweet like angel smile

Oh dear , how I can lose my breath
With your close to perfect eyes

Oh honey , how you make me dream
With your breath taking kisses

Oh babe , how you break me
With your careless lies

Oh sweetie , how you make me cry
With your burning like fire words

Oh my dumb heart ,how you love
With so much passion I nearly died
  
Oh me , how stupid do I look
With you leaving and me crying

Will I ever belong ?

A question unanswered
All I can say is , I'm uncertain
Feelings that are well hidden are uncovered
Isolation that is felt to the core is unbearable
Like all this world is remembered and I'm forgotten
I wanna be strong and unbreakable
But for all I know it's a wish that is impossible
I feel weak and lost but mostly unwanted