I'm the girl
That's never been kissed.
Partly because no one has wanted to kiss me.
But mostly because I haven't wanted to be kissed.
Partly because I don't trust easily.
But mostly because I don't trust myself.
Partly because I think I love too easily.
But mostly because I know that's true.

Thoughts are
Amazing
Powerful
Detrimental
Unbelievable
They either control you
Or you control them.
Fear, however,
Is surprising.
You dislike it, yet sometimes
You don't dislike it enough
To change it,
And become unafraid.
How?
Forgive, love, live.
And move on.

I hate it when
People tell you what is true
As if it's a fact
Not a matter of opinion.
I hate it when they say,
"You never know."
Because they're right.
Yet, not really.
"You will never know"
When you'll meet the one.
Sure.
"You will never know"
What will change your life.
Okay.
"You will never know."
Just because I'll never know
What can and will happen
Or what can't and won't happen
Doesn't mean I can't live
Or plan
Or do something differently.
Never knowing is what allows us
To dream.

The concept of this is rather complicated
Yet entirely uncomplicated
Because during it all
As time went on
I began to realize something
That all theses times you were on my mind
It wasn't plural
Because I only thought of you once
And never stopped.

What were you doing
Giving me all these
Side glances
All this eye contact
It's amazing
How easily I let you
Or wanted you to
Mess with my mind
The way we could talk
And stand so close
I thought you might step back
Yet you didn't
What did that mean
When every time I looked at you
You without fail
Were already looking at me

I'm writing
In a dark and twisty effort
To get over you

Unfortunately
I don't think it's working