How do i stop loving you?
How do you start to love me since i can't stop loving you?
How did i even bloom if im stuck on this wall?
How did i even get to this place?

In this long period of loneliness
I hear her voice
She said she was here to save me
To open my eyes and let me see
To hold me up so i wouldn't drown
She made me look up when all i felt was down.
She made me who i am today.
My love showed me the way.

I'm not alive. I suffer over and over, reliving my death.
  Im not in heaven or in hell. Though i feel as though both are intertwined.
  The feelings are gone. The voices are back. My insanity is rising as i try to keep it from reaching its peak of existence.
  They're pushing me to the max and i let them. I could stop the voices but they are apart of me and i can't cut them out of my life.
  And so, i will keep them there hoping to hear my conscience once again.

The water is really is deep.
I can't feel the bottom of this endless water.
I see you at the bottom and desperately swim until i can reach you.
I grab hold of you and begin to swim back up to the top while my lungs begin to burn.
I get you to the top and you start to breathe.
It was too late for me.
My lungs collapse before i can take another breathe.
I know you're devastated but i am not.
I saved you and that's all that matters.

I'm alone, but I'm not.
  She brings me back to life and tells  me I'll be fine.
   She takes me to reality when I'm on the brink of insanity
  When I was going to **** them she wanted me to spare them
   She dressed my burns with her friendship and gave me a new name.
   I'm alone but I'm not and she calls me best friend.