My eyes envision a blackened wood
Where my heart longs to roam.
A shudder wracks my supple frame
And I long for it, my home.
Paws flex slowly on slivered glass
As I follow this trail to the end.
The howls of my pack dance on the rain
And my spirit begins to mend.
Blood soaks the night, I slip sinew and bone
While shedding this frail human skin.
I scream to the moon, my Mother above
And signal the hunt to begin.

I drew a picture the other day.
My Mommy's heart was blue and gray.
Big blue tears fell all around,
tumbling to the soft green ground.
My Daddy handed her papers, white,
and then they had a bright red fight.
Screaming was heard around the block
nearly until 7 o'clock.
The dark brown door slammed so hard,
and Mommy ran out into the yard.
Daddy was gone, his car down the road.
Mommy sobbed, threw rings of gold.
I hid in my bed, rainbow covers pulled high,
while Mommy yelled at the pink and blue sky.
I drew a picture the other day.
My Mommy's heart was blue and gray.

Strange how a scent can remind me of tears,
of sorrow, of love, of long-passed-by years.
It stirs up my memories, bitter yet sweet,
like dancing with shadows; move forward, retreat.
The bright trumpet flower with sugary dew
is scented so utterly, totally You.
It's the smell of remembrance, dusted with love.
A subtle reminder you're somewhere above,
and should it, by virtue of wind, float on by
you might see a tear or two flee from my eye.

I’m sure that she’s an angel,
Though I’ve never seen her wings.
She  hangs them in the closet
By the door with coats and things.

And she swears that she’s not special
As she laughs and shakes her hair
But to me she is salvation
And I need her like the air

I pretend that I believe her
And I don’t look for her wings
But I know they’re in the closet
With the coats and other things.

Lust is the study of dance and retreat
      The chase and the beat
Where souls move together, collide and complete....

And musicality crawls through our skin
      So transparent and thin
Like the breath of a kiss that has yet to begin.....

Just like the thunderous beat from the drum
      We pulsate and come
Apart at the seams like your cat's got my tongue.....

The music fades down so the silence can start
    It's own form of art
          And all that remains....
                All that remains.....
Is the stone steady beat of my percussive heart.

Devoid of all things, I am numb to the center of my being
Eloquence, spider webs, elegant poison drips from my tongue
Speeding through my veins to trip up the heart
Once more, I find myself broken and bleeding
Lying on the cold marble floor, skirt up, hair down
Angry, crying, mascara streaked down ***** cheeks
The temptation of the bottle too close to turn away
I am nothing without my soul, and that’s long gone now
Only the shell remains, and she’s got a cold shoulder to the world
Nothing much matters anymore, but the darkness and I

Of this much I’m sure, love’s a *****, boys.
**** her before she ***** you.

They’ll carry you to your grave, broken, and battered
Heart stitched shut, riddled with bullet holes and
Engraved upon it will be little scratch marks for every heart broken.

Hell hath no fury, and Love doesn’t forgive, or forget.
Ever. She keeps a scorecard, and she’s got your name on a target
All we can hope for is that she’ll take pity on our souls. Maybe
Remember that she has a heart too. I doubt it.
The most we can believe in is ourselves.

Jesus, could it hurt a little more?
Underneath all the blues and blood and
Salt that licks at my battered and bleeding heart
There’s a pain I didn’t even know could exist.

Leave me alone in my silent screams of
Ever churning midnight cries, the sobs that wrack my body
Again and again, pulling forth misery and anger,
Vindictive rage and hopeless anguish
Even when I’m sleeping it doesn’t stop.

My dreams bleed with the memory of you
Echoes of what we were, what we had, what we could have been

Hurried runs through memories, trying desperately to erase you
Out of the corners of my aching brain
Somehow it never occurred to me that I could hurt so badly
That my chest would feel as though it was collapsing
I never believed love could take everything from me
Leave me alone with nothing but my ****** body, and
Even though I still love you, I need to be hostile right now.