I miss you.
I miss your smile.
I miss your laugh.
I miss your hugs.
I miss your kisses.
I miss you.
But you’re at work,
So I’ll see you soon.

Parts of me are broken.
Parts of me are healing.
Parts of me are out of order.

Parts of me are hard where they used to be soft.
Parts of me are stronger.
Parts of me are soft, loving, and nurturing.

Parts of me are teaching.
Parts of me are learning.
Parts of me are growing.

Parts of me are kind.
Parts of me are angry.
Parts of me are beautiful.
Parts of me are vile

All the parts of me
As angry,
As ugly
As dark,
As kind
As beautiful
As imperfect,

All these parts of me,
As much, as they bother me,

I still get to be me, and I still get to be loved by you.

I hope every morning at 4am, when the world is dark and you crawl out of bed and you’re getting dressed or smoking a cigarette, you know you’re loved.
I hope everyday you know you’re appreciated and seen.
I hope that when a song comes on you think of me.
I hope you know you’re my moon in the darkest skies and my sunrise on a dewey morning.
I hope you know when you touch me, I melt.
Your sweet words follow me throughout my day.
I hope you know you take my breath away.
I hope you know you’re safe, you’re loved and that you’re cherished.
I hope.

I forgot how it felt to hold a paperback in your hands, the smooth cover and the weight held in your hands, that book smell.
The crisp pages you turn, with each breath soaking in the words forming a story that only you can hear.
It’s almost like it just melts in your hands sending vibrations through you, jolting you gently as you curl up under a warm blanket with a cup of tea and you think to yourself, “this is so good”, aching for the next word, hanging on to what happens next; but you feel a calmness as you find yourself comforted by each page and by the end you experience every emotion, because the journey has ended, but your left with the thought of those words, on those crisp pages.
Paperback.

Everyday with you is a dream.
Today you made me laugh so hard I cried.
You looked into my eyes and sang to me.
We talked for hours.
Everyday with you is a dream,
Today I giggled yelling “come get me” and I ran across the house, hid in the corner giggling, giggling so loud, you found me and of course that was my plan.
You came over saying how did you fit in there?
Giggling the whole time and cracking jokes about it all.
You give me this feeling like there’s no way any of this could be real, a dream come true, like a fairy tale.
All of us laughing, I know this can’t be real.
You’re home.
I swear, everyday with you is a dream.

Speak of the devil, I once heard and when you entered the room it shook
And your darkness emerged with my light
Giving you a piece of the moon on the most black of nights.
A beast emerged and he smiled, there; weak and surrendered I became yours, for your darkness matched mine, for I had been seeking you for decades of eternities.
Your arm and mine, I touched you and you became my weakness, bound to you forever.
You are my dark sun, my beast, I soak you in and feel your warmth, on our beautiful island;
Where the water caresses the sand, the water being the clearest blue, my favorite place in the world, right next to you.
Speak of the devil.

I would follow you into madness, for you are my moon. You are the dim light, pulling me out of the abyss.