I forgot how it felt to hold a paperback in your hands, the smooth cover and the weight held in your hands, that book smell.
The crisp pages you turn, with each breath soaking in the words forming a story that only you can hear.
It’s almost like it just melts in your hands sending vibrations through you, jolting you gently as you curl up under a warm blanket with a cup of tea and you think to yourself, “this is so good”, aching for the next word, hanging on to what happens next; but you feel a calmness as you find yourself comforted by each page and by the end you experience every emotion, because the journey has ended, but your left with the thought of those words, on those crisp pages.
Paperback.

“I
   Was
     Broken
        To
        Protect you
            And you were broken to understand me”

“You're silly, you’re cute, you’re annoying”
“You don’t like me?”
“That’s not what I said,  I LIKE YOU”
Giggles and smiles.

-Watching Star Wars-

“Were you sad when Liam Neeson died?”
“That ******* died?”
“No in the movie silly”
As we talked about how he became one with the universe, force
I giggled until I was snorting.


You’re asleep.
You are laying next to me, you’re so beautifully masculine; your hair brushed against the pillow.
I love days with you, but at nighttime when the world is quiet, from your hair to your arms, your warmth, your heartbeat. I could lay here and say that every moment led me to that high, that need for your touch,
And for who you are, every breath I have in your presence is a breath not wasted.
You are my every heartbeat, you are my joy, you’re my peace and my light, darkness when you need to be, but with you I’ll always be safe, you will always be my home.

Everyday with you is a dream.
Today you made me laugh so hard I cried.
You looked into my eyes and sang to me.
We talked for hours.
Everyday with you is a dream,
Today I giggled yelling “come get me” and I ran across the house, hid in the corner giggling, giggling so loud, you found me and of course that was my plan.
You came over saying how did you fit in there?
Giggling the whole time and cracking jokes about it all.
You give me this feeling like there’s no way any of this could be real, a dream come true, like a fairy tale.
All of us laughing, I know this can’t be real.
You’re home.
I swear, everyday with you is a dream.

Speak of the devil, I once heard and when you entered the room it shook
And your darkness emerged with my light
Giving you a piece of the moon on the most black of nights.
A beast emerged and he smiled, there; weak and surrendered I became yours, for your darkness matched mine, for I had been seeking you for decades of eternities.
Your arm and mine, I touched you and you became my weakness, bound to you forever.
You are my dark sun, my beast, I soak you in and feel your warmth, on our beautiful island;
Where the water caresses the sand, the water being the clearest blue, my favorite place in the world, right next to you.
Speak of the devil.

Raindrops dripping on the roof.
Dim kitchen light.
A candle lit.
Tv quiet, white noise.
The air conditioner blowing, cool air.
You’re sound asleep, my heart full from laughing and almost falling over, the most euphoric - heartwarming feeling and I’ve never felt it, I never felt that bolt of electricity that jolts you full of joy, smiling and high off each other.
Dr. Seuss book, giggling and bedtime, growing up so fast, I can’t believe you’re 7.
Calm.
Quiet house:
Peace.
I’m home.

I would follow you into madness, for you are my moon. You are the dim light, pulling me out of the abyss.

Blue eyes, I’m lost in.
Under your trance.
I’ll follow you anywhere,
Chills fill my body, can feel my heartbeat
Bound to you, wrapped around your finger
Forever yours, forever lost in your blue eyes.