I can't seem to trust myself.
Pain.
Hurt.
Body image is ****.
I find myself drifting off to the old me.
Old ways. Days with out food.
Just to look good.
Abusing my mind, soul, body.
Until I am happy.
And then depression hits.
I eat.
And then then cycle begins again.

So many thoughts going through my head.
So many words left unsaid.
My heart can barely take this anymore.

I want to be happy, but instead I stay in this state of mind where nothing can go right, and everything about me is a mess.

I’ve let myself go, to the point where I’ve lost myself in the midst of it all.
I wish someone could just take me away, far away.
Show me how it means to be happy and care free.