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Megan Renee May 2013
Sometimes
you make me want to
punch you in the face.
You ignorant diluted shovanist
How dare you
I gave you everything
My life.
My security.
My independence.
What have you given up?
nothing.
Not a tear.
Not your single stability.
You
You sit on your high throne
Built
It almost seems
At the price of
Your humanity.
For I see little.
I am starved of
Respect,
Self importance,
kindness,
Appriciation.
I blame your mother
She is your darkness
She who starved you of
love
Compassion
Caring
Tenderness
She planted the seed
That grew
To mistrust
In my ***.

And so I pay.
I take the slashing
Of my
self dignity and respect
I wade through
Day by day
The debris of his
Pain
Past
Problems
I have a boat
So I shall try
Back and forth
With my oars
Relentless
As the icebergs
I am fighting
to prove myself better
Because
I am a captain
Of my little boat
And
I will continue
Tirelessly
Relentlessly
Endlessly
To offer
To you
My
Love
Compassion
Caring
Tenderness
Heart
Loyalty
Body
Soul
Forever.
Just me
In my little boat
pulling though
Because
This place is
Beautiful
Can you see it
In his
Smile
Laugh
Sleep
Simplicity
I won't give up
Not on you my love
For I
Am a captain
And you are
My bliss.
Megan Renee Jun 2013
Let me enlighten you
To a little thing
I like to call
Emotion.
Despite the fact
You may "distrust"
these
Prior females.
they are surely
More
Preoccupied
because
Honey
Nothing
Changes a girls mind, like
****.
And
Money.
Your attachment to her
Emotionally and
Colorful assumption
in thinking
She has any
Real mental
Preoccupation with you is
False.
Megan Renee May 2013
Why am I so torn?
This should be easy
I should tell you to
Leave
Scram
Vamoose
Be gone
see you never
But I can't
My heart
it pleas your case
Each time I begin my protests
It begins to whisper
And weave
The memories of
Hands being laced
Bodies made of super novas
throwing me deep to oblivion
Where my world
Was made of our beautifully mingled laughter
Your perfect faces
Our silent conversations
The secrets
The time we spent
Building this world
Why can't I have it?
Oh yes
I remember
You left.
I moved on.
Didn't I?
Megan Renee Jun 2013
Sometimes I wonder
If there will ever come
A day
a time
A moment
When
I won't want you any more
Heart
Body
And soul
Those sweet scars
those heavy
carefully hidden
And packed
Baggage
Let's unpack together
My love
My life
My light
My happiness
let me whisper to you a secret
I'm just as broken
Let me clue you in
Without you
I wouldn't know
Where to begin.
Megan Renee Jun 2013
I see myself
doing
These things
And I have
No
Ducking clue
Why
They are dangerously
Pointless
Things.
I am
Happy
Things are where I want
And yet
I
Crave
destruction
My true
Black
Nature

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