I stand above my bed
And examine the damage.
Blankets this way and that
Pillows all over
Sheets tangled up around themselves.
Proof of something that
Only hours ago
Left this place empty.
I take in the rubble
And breathe deeply.
I lower myself down to those
Tangled sheets
And backwards bedspreads
And fill my lungs with you.
I pull them up around me
And close my eyes
And wish for this place to be
The same kind of battleground
Again tomorrow.

She told me to lie still
Let my thoughts take a deep breath
Until memories
were all that remained
She did not know that I carry treasures
drifting in and out of my mind
like the ocean’s tide
that can never be contained

She told me I could block out
the words I write
Even the ones I now know by heart
that wait
As if they were, only a habit
I had formed in time
But........ she did not know
those words
would only keep flowing
She had spoken
too little,
too late

I spoke to her of your embrace
of my first moment with you
How your eyes never drifted
from my own
Then I watched as she saw
your heart in my eyes
It was composing the words
that will never stop flowing
from me
She took a deep breath,
and moved on.

All she wanted was a little control,
control of the life she thought she owned.
Frail and bones, almost gone,
she was slipping away and didn't even know.

Then a butterfly hovered by her ear,
and fluttered its fragile wings for her to hear.
"Such an amazing thing," she thought,
"in such a delicate, little body."

So she got up from that yellow flower field,
and grew some wings to fly far, far away.

When the autumn of your eyes fells into my mind,
I can feel your smell; I can breathe your air.
I can taste your soul, which makes me jump
to that deep hole,
where I’ve been looking for your love.
But suddenly I open my eyes and all my life become a numb.
Messy, messy life!!!!!
because, I can’t have your eyes.
I want to feel your hand next to mine,
Never in this messy life!
But you, you are my life.
it is not so messy like your hair,
I guess that is a crazy one.