I'm getting over it...
This ache within my chest.
I'm tired of you saying lies...
whether you believe them true or not.

You don't love me like you say,
So please stop saying so.
If you loved me, honestly, even as a friend
Well simply, you wouldn't hurt me so bad.

I am very well versed, and used to as well,
In the pains associated with the heart.
I've dealt with dreamers and Demons
And worse, lying Angels before.

I'm getting over it...
The ache within my chest.
The longing heart so eager to cling
With a mind tired as it tries to persuade.

I will build the bridge all in time,
Your river of lies were never mine.
So don't you worry about me
Cause honestly I'm standing over you...

My bridge is high and strong,
Yet yes its incomplete.
I still have a little more growing up to do,
And then trust me, I'm getting over it...

You don't understand what makes me so upset. You honestly seem to think that nothing's wrong. When have I ever, and I mean EVER, gave you a short answer to anything?

You are simply blind.

Best friend? Best friend!? Can you ******* hear me now? I'm screaming out in silence until you hear a sound - and you don't figure that there's anything wrong.
'How are you?' you ask 'Been K' i answer. WHEN HAVE I EVER ANSWERED LIKE THAT? Cant you see there's something wrong? Why wont you ask? Why don't you care to know?

You are simply blind.

I know you have a child, I know you think you're busy. But even if I had a child, even if I was busy out of my mind - I would make time for those who are important to me. I might not try to keep in touch with my mom and dad, but if you mean that much to me I will do everything I can to get in touch.

You are either simply blind.
Or you don't give a ****.

Lost.
What does that mean any more?
Lost in the moment?
Lost in the tide?
Lost in the whirlwind?
Lost in my pride?

I'm lost in the Love I thought had died
And now I can't help

Things that don't make sense any more
Seem to enter and exit through the same door.
I try to reach the **** to turn
Only to find there are things you never want to learn...

Things that don't make sense any more
Are coming at me from all sides.
With no shields and no sword
I'm left screaming with no one to hear my cries.

These things relay themselves in over lapping disharmony.
The rules are curving and bending -
What once was set in stone is now molding like clay
And I can't tell what impressions my actions and words are sending.

I'm lost in these things that make no sense,
Drowning like an insect stuck in the slow sap.
But I'm not sure if this will turn to Amber or
It will be my ruin.

Why can't you just leave me alone?
I honestly can't take the pain any more.
Are you the lier I convince myself you are?
Or are you honestly that fecking stupid....
Just that cruel?

You wanted to call me today.
I, thank the gods, was asleep.

I feel as if life's turned upside down...
Honestly the news has me shaken,
The lies I've believed,
And the signs I've miss taken...
Are you lying to her?
Are you lying to me?
The cats out of the bag and now
The world is upside down you see...

I've said nothing wrong,
But you've done nothing right...
How many times have I been there for you?
And yet when I need you you're out of sight?
She's sitting there, hands touching you,
Before my friends and yours too.
If you tried to keep her a secret
You're playing the cards all wrong...
For introducing her will make
The rumors spin faster!
Can't you hear Upside down song?

But here I was deceived,
Told by you day after day
That she was completely
Forgotten and out of the way.
What a fool am I to believe you so quickly.
I let you touch me, Kiss me,
Love me like I thought you should.
But here I am seeing the lines
That I let you cross while I stood
Completely unaware... And now
Everything's Upside down.

How could you do this to me?
Take advantage and use me so?
You love me you say? How funny.
I would believe you if not for last night...
You bringing her out and kissing her lips,
Taking her hand, playing under the table,
While before those who you knew would tell me.
You have no shame...I can't believe I let you...
I can't even finish the sentence... cause I don't want to.
Everything is spinning till i fall Upside Down.

This relationship, this friendship,
That Bull you think you have?
Consider it gone, lost and over.
I want nothing to do with you,
I will always Love you, I swear you've
Pulled my heart from my chest.
You're games are finished, I've broken the board,
Flipped it till the pieces have all fallen like
The broken pieces of my heart.
So you have fun with out me, not even a smile
Will you get from me while she's on your arm.
You're a lying snake cheating and playing with hearts.
Have fun playing your games with the Board...
UPSIDE DOWN.

If I were a piece of trash
You just tossed out of the way
And I could talk, what might i say?

'You're horrible, the walls agree,
Did you see what you've done to me?'
Even your ears could hear this i know.

Your appearance to every one else
Has come to an all time ******* low.
All because of that *****, that ******* ***.

Your Ex, the reason you would call me each night,
And ask me to the garden to cry. You CRIED.
And yet you return to her so easily!?

What is your problem? Every one warned me...
Whats worse is that I heard and knew it would happen,
And yet i let it unfold, with nothing better to do.

I couldn't and can't control your life,
But I can control how you make me feel.
I didn't stop you, from hurting me at least...

And now all I want to do is get back at you.
What would work best I'm still figuring out,
But till then I'm drinking each night, no doubt.

But **** it, I could easily ask your roommate,
The one you hate so much, if he could teach me
Exactly what you wanted to but didn't think was right...

I could hurt myself with my addiction,
The fear you held so highly, a glass of Jack,
Oh pints of Beer...Long Islands and Tequilas.

Or I could just do what you do, Ignore.
The worst thing I could do and simply
Knock you in your pain to the floor...

You texted me four times today,
You called near to six, from 9 to 5
You didn't take a break.

You must really care to try so hard,
Even called those I would hang with
To make sure I was Okay...

Well sir, I'm starting to wonder,
Whether or not I was the trash;
Or you were dear sir...if you were...