Can't sleep
My heart heavy
Knowing the truth
Only setting me back
Reality sets in
Deep.
Mind racing
Eyes flutter
I can't fight it off
I'm falling
Farther, and farther
I can't reach the bottom
When will it end?
Never.
Ill continue to spin
Until fate sets in
Urged to inhale
The breeze of death.
A constant battle
Playing a game
Is it all in my head?
I'm lost
No, confused.
Someone love me?
Someone want me?
Loneliness seeps through my soul
I can't bare this existence
With no one around
To hear my screams
Of insanity
Or fantasy?
Ill be gone...
Before you know it.
Reaching out
With no one to catch me.
Drifting... Down.
As I spiral into infinity.

Classic clouds clear through the night
Whispering a lullaby

As I look into those deep green eyes
Singing as the sheep pass by

Brushing my face with tiny fingers
You melt me with your sweet linger

Curled up in a warming blanket
Your skins aroma leaves a peaceful essence

Rosette lips pucker close
As I give you my deepest affection

Laying you down next to my heart
Where you will stay even after we part

Dreaming of a dream that you will never leave
This is our bed time routine

Good night my sweet angel , I love you to pieces.

Phantasmagoric


Entranced through the spirals of delusion
Limitless misery trapped betweeen the perfect illusion

Shattered visions trickle along a joyous dream
******* of deep waters biting through the atlantic sea bream

Whispering in the midst of silken white fantasies
Swiftly stricken back into the disturbing realities

Prismatic colors embedded into a spirit of misconception
A darkened certainty embraces its profound deception

Peaceful pleasures circling whimsical euphoria
Drastically transforming into agitated hysteria

Reflecting portraits of tasteful affection
Briskly dissolving into appalling fabrication

Stimulating my mind with exceptional optimism
The day I met you heartbreak obstructed essential wisdom


MEGAN JAMES
(ALL RIGHTS RESERVED)

As I sat glaring through the curtain
Dark shades of history are still uncertain
Leaving behind an empty space.

Stumbling down ill stricken hallways with a dangling hope
A teardrop glides down its last *****
This harsh reality taken by surprise.

Never forgetting the day
Tragedy was just a phone call away
Wishing I could pick up the pieces.

It only seems like the other day you gave up the fight
Your black and white memory will last until we reunite
My deepest emotions, too vexatious to hide.

Toxins enter deep into my body
Gasping from the poison
My world is beginning to fade
I don't remember why I am here
My heart hardened
I have shut everyone out
I yearn to be alone
I feel as though I am being ****** in
I am losing this fight with myself
My tears slowly drop to the ground
As my days pass I think of the deceit
Why did I believe it?
I wish I had the answers to these emotions
Gradually I have noticed an inner change
I am not the same exuberant soul I was as a child
Memories from the past mark my death
I desire to be someone new
My temper unexplainable
Fed up with irritable questions I cannot fathom
I tense while receiving the spiteful words thrown at me
I am unsure of my mental stability
I crave acceptance
This is what I bare throughout my existence.

Tormented from the inside out

I've put an end to my distress

Wishing to be consumed by it all

Weakening an introspective expression

My beating heart shatters...

Illusions haunt my sanity

The remedy, mythical.

Widowed through a shadow

Dusk seeps over the silvery skies

My horrendous nightmare becomes reality.

I scream uncontrollably while I gasp for air

As I fall to the ground, I notice nothing is there.

Suffocation in my bare skin.

Scarlet puddles flood the open space.

My soul intoxicated as I laugh in my deep sleep.

My fears are simple...
Not shrewd enough or dextrous
My love divine, yes majestic
My purity maintains as my objective
My faith steady in my beliefs
Striving to be worthy at his throne
Virtuous and righteous I will become
My scars swept away with justice and unity
Victory through Him who has created me
Devotion and warmth to those in need
Repenting of my sin in prayer
Kneeling down with compassion and hunger