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Oct 2013 Megan Amber Przekurat

Portland Grace

I woke up today with the same emptiness I have woken up with
most mornings
for the past eight months.
Just like I went to bed last night,
wearing my loneliness over me like a blanket
like I do
almost every night,
since I said goodbye to you.
And I wonder why,
I can't forget about all the people
who have treated me so poorly.
Why small scratches at my visage
left massive scars
that bled for weeks.
And I wonder what I am doing wrong
to be someone
so undeserving of love,
when all I have been trying to do
is put broken people back together,
but maybe
that is my first mistake.

Oct 2013 Megan Amber Przekurat

Sense

Oct 2013 Megan Amber Przekurat

eccentricities

Sense

I stand there, avoiding the instance of your coming
letting the noise drown my thoughts
allowing the wind to remind me to move on
restricting any word to escape my mouth

But my senses always got the best of me

I feel you
My skin could not contain it's longing to be held again
I hear you
My ears immediately focus on your husky voice
I smell you
My nose has never been so familiarized to a scent
I see you
My eyes lose control but manage to cancel everyone else in the room
I almost talk to you
My mouth chokes and reminds itself that I am its master
I let this mutiny pass with the exception of my words
Restraint is our motto
But I guess I couldn't avoid the unplanned rendezvous of our eyes

You're coming closer
Your eyes filled with determination
filled with comfort
filled with happiness
While mine remain the total opposite
You comfortably say, "How are you?"

How dare you

You managed to make my mind lose it's control once again
You have manipulated it to reminisce a tormenting past
Something I thought I have trained it not to do
Ruining my scripted response of "I'm fine"
Messing up the story line in a matter of three words
My eyes are telling a story
I hope it's language is foreign to you

My eyes
I recall you saying it was my best asset
And often I would close it, an action I'm restraining at the moment
You know I closed it when you touched me
Setting my skin ablaze with the feeling of security
I closed it when you carelessly said "I love you"
Making my gullible heart get too attached
I closed it when you cuddled me
Wanting to get lost in the moment
I closed it when you kissed me
Hoping the feeling will last forever
I closed it when you stopped all these
Wondering what I was doing wrong
I closed it when you were texting someone else
Dying to know who, but afraid to ask
I closed it when you lied to me
Wishing you would take it back
I closed it when you left me
A moment tattooed in my vision
Open or closed, I see it
And others see it too

Your question remains unanswered by words
I will not close my eyes
Not this time
I'm just staring
Directly at your beautiful pair
Half-hoping you see it too
My eyes that scream "Save me"
Louder than what my lungs can reach
For this is the most effective way to respond

Everything made sense
And my senses were playing along
But you walked away naively
And what hurt me the most was the fact that
You
read
my
*eyes

(I guess Superheroes only save the pretty ones huh?)
This is my first poem here. Please give me some constructive criticism if you can, I would really appreciate it! - a.b.

Oct 2013 Megan Amber Przekurat

Don't Leave Me

Oct 2013 Megan Amber Przekurat

Michelle Beauchamp

Don't Leave Me

(I) just want you to know that when you look at me and my eyes sparkle with (love),
it's love for (you).
And only,
You.

When you see me smile,
it's because someone,
which is you,
finally makes me happy enough to have a genuine smile on my face.

When you hear or make me laugh, through my laughter I'm saying “Please don't go.”

When we hug,
I hope you can feel my love transferring to you
I hope you know that when I hold you,
I could hold you in my arms forever, and that I literally have to force myself to let go.

And that when you hear me tell you,
“I love you”,
That is the most honest thing,
I have ever said.
- *M.K.L.B

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