lonely and hurt,
broken i remain
residing in hell,
living in pain

masked by lies,
i slowly fade away
the nightmare i live with,
each and every day

the meaning of it all ,
to which my mind attends
has not one answer,
that i fully comprehend

the bottom of my mind,
holds the answer which i call
i keep reaching towards it,
in this never-ending fall

"stay strong amd keep going,
it's never to late"
no one seems to realise,
that it's not worth the wait

there's no such thing,
as help outside if your mind
its you against yourself,
with your demons intwined

it's a battle hard fought,
but never to be won
either way you end up losing,
when it's all said and done

"too late came and passed,
and of me, nothing more
i wrote my own ending,
and shut my own door

"live life to it's fullest,"
thats what they all said
but what's the point in trying,
when you're already dead?

Once you start to fall apart
The world is uncaring, scary and dark
Once you begin to lose your way
It gets harder to cope day by day
Once the sadness eats you up
You don't care anymore, you don't give a ****
You spend all of your time isolated in bed
Despairing over what's happening inside of your head
Soon enough you'll want to die
To end it all and close your eyes
In the hope that when again they open
You're in a lovely little place
Where no-one's broken

Life without you, is no life my dear
It hurts far too much and I think that it’s clear
I do not belong here, at least not without you
I think I now know what it is I will do
I’ll go down to the tracks where you took your last breath
Stretch my arms out to meet you as I too embrace death

Numbness flows like icy blood through my veins
Consuming my feelings and overwhelming my brain
But could it be worse than the most searing pain?
It’s like the dark night chasing the light from the sky
It stops you from seeing, it makes you go blind
It may seem a good thing but could it be a lie?

Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
It’s too hard without you.
I’m struggling to just breathe.