Inner thoughts so loud.
My mind is buzzing, but my body is bound.
A robin trying to fly out of my chest.
Don't say a word,
Of the insecurities that your thoughts fest.

How could this happen?
You always tried to be so prestigious.
Self destruction.
You always wanted to be Sid Vicious.

First thing I said,
Was "never again".
But I think about it
Again and again and again and again and again.
I want to be reckless.
I want to be selfless.

I've looked inside myself,
And I've discovered honesty.
Let me pass through here, and never return.
Let me pass through here, and never return.
Let me pass through here, and never return.
Let me glaze in this soothing burn

Die. Dissonance, die.
I'm so happy, I could cry.
This open cage, I stay within.
This infidel scolds his sin.

I want to be a tragedy,
Without their hurt.
I want to be clean,
I want to roll in the dirt.

Held in two, I must shred.
Held in two, I regret.
It is here I forever bide,
It is here I am fit to be tied.

I want the smoke to consume me whole.
Yet, I suffer without total control.

You drift into my thoughts like the sea.
Sometimes you are soft and motionless.
Sometimes you crash into me.

I want you to leave me.
I want to be free.
But I want you.
And I want you to need me.

I see you in the darkness.
I see you in the light.
I want to step into your skin.
I want to burn from within.

This vessel wants to carry you.
This vessel wants to fly.
I don't want to be myself,
And I don't want to try.

Hear what I'm thinking of;
What I'm too afraid to say.
Would you still love me…
Do you love me? Am I ok?

I want to sit with you under the moon.
I want you to tell me about everything you do.
Tell me that I'm good enough,
And that I'm just like you.

But wait, I've lost the great test.
To be you, I want to be someone else.
And you,
You would never change yourself.