McKenna Christine

McKenna Christine Nov 2013

Desire

As you take in my every movement
I watch you bite your lip.
With my hand on my thigh and my hair falling to my back
I take one step closer, moving my hand to my hip.
I just wanted to be someone you'd crave
Someone you'd think about at the end of the day,
You always tell me I've always been your one and only
but i know you've always been a hopeless liar
and i wish i could hate you, because you've torn me down so many times
just know baby, you'll always be my burning desire.

McKenna Christine Nov 2013

What if..

what if I killed myself, would you want me then?
with slices in my wrist and my hair done all nice and pretty?
with my eyes shut and lips blue, would you still want me just as much as I want you?
would you still want me in your arms, if my heart that once beat for you lays still,
out of your reach, lost under your charm?
would you still love my face, expressionless and blank,
or would you imagine me like my old self smile on my face, even though it was always fake?
it doesn't matter anymore darling, the blood kept flowing, deep enough where I felt like I was floating. and my heart was aching, my head was falling, eyes getting heavy. diagonal not straight. everyone knew this was always my fate.

McKenna Christine Nov 2013

Summer Night

Eyes green with envy and face red with rage. Your arms wrapped around her and your fingers planted on her waist.
Your lips must've been wonderful, after all those cigarettes and that beer. but you kept whispering her name, something I just couldn't bear.
While I just stood there imagining how easy it would be to race away but somehow keeping calm, the moon whispered to the stars, then they glistened and feel from the sky and I envied them terribly, because after all they were the ones who could fly.

McKenna Christine Nov 2013

2 am

I'm thinking and it's scaring me
because in my mind you're with her

I'm thinking and it's scaring me
because you always seem so far.

I'm thinking and it's scaring me
because I can't get you out of my head

I'm thinking and it's scaring me because you're making me feel dead.

I'm thinking and it's scaring me because all I want is to tear my skin

I'm thinking and it's scaring me because baby the darkness is gonna win

I'm thinking and it's scaring me because you're gonna leave

I'm thinking and it's scaring me because the blood isn't gonna recede.

I'm acting upon my thoughts and this is gonna be the end, I'm sorry babe but I'm better off dead.

McKenna Christine Nov 2013

Tear me down

Your words built me up, sending me sky high
while your actions tore me down.
You acted as a barrier, keeping me from harm.
but you never took the time to glance at my arm
The blue from my veins took a new colour red,
and you'll never know this but darling you made me wish I was dead.
You're hands explored my body, while your eyes explored my mind and I have many secrets. most you'll never find.

McKenna Christine Nov 2013

Ocean

I'm standing at the ocean,
staring out at sea.
I've collected all of my doubts,
but they were taken away with the breeze.

I'm standing at the ocean,
my soul gets lost in the waves.
I try hard to call it back,
but she loves to misbehave.

I'm standing at the ocean,
my mind is turning blue.
I'm thinking about letting it swallow me, because I'll never feel whole without you.

I'm standing at the ocean,
but all I can hear is your voice.
The last time you told me you loved me, and how you never had a second choice.

I'm standing at the ocean,
about to jump in,
I just wanted to let you know dear,
I've loved you ever since the day we began.

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