You can kiss me with your words
But not with your lips
And you can tell me that you love me
But I can't feel your fingertips
All I want is to feel you
Instead i'll text you goodnight
And when I see you again
Hold me till morning's light

I'm happy for now
I expect to be happy a bit longer
till that old memory of a boy returns
he'll dance on these fresh flowers
til they're wilted and dead
and walk off like he's entitled
like he deserves to break my heart time and time again
he'll return again when i finally feel safe
and tear everything apart
I could push him away
stab his very though in the heart
but I'm not that strong
because he's like a drug
and when all he does is break my heart
I need him
and he'll never stop

I'll have long forgotten him
moved out of state
happy
a new life
new friends
maybe a new love
and when me and my love are drinking our morning coffee
you'll show up on my doorstep
with an apology and a convincing smile
I can't help but think I'd leave him there
and go with you
for a week or two
until you break my heart again
if i still have a heart by then
if you haven't already tore it out of my chest
still beating and bleeding
bleeding your lies
that I can't get enough of

Turn up the radio, love.
to drown out my thoughts
we could talk about us
and we should
but if you turn up the radio
we don't need to talk
we can sing
you think you're a good singer
and so do I
truthfully we're both terrible
but that's okay
cuz I love you
and I love this song
So turn it up
and we'll pretend responsibility is a fairytale
and doubt is a myth
Turn up the radio, love.

You like me
and I like you.
It's not always that simple
because
every time we kiss
I'll wonder
Do you wish I was her?

You're my best friend
I tell you my fears and my dreams
my weird habits and embarrassing stories
I tell you about the cute boy in my english class
And the other cute boy i asked to the dance
I tell you who I have a crush on
but what if today
I told you I had a crush
on you
because how couldn't I see this before
we both love to cook
and we're musically inclined
we have the same taste in music
you make me feel like there's not a care in the world when we're together
all of my best and craziest memories were with you
how did i miss
how blue your eyes are
or how you're always there for me
and i'll never forget the countless sweet things you've said to me
so if I kiss you,
are we still best friends?
can i want to hug you and hold hands and cuddle
but laugh and joke around and talk about music
do stupid things we get in trouble for
I'm in love with my best friend.
It feels so right
but it feels so wrong
so next time i'm in your old blue truck
I'll sit there quietly
like I have nothing to say
when its running through my mind to tell you
I love you.

I killed a girl.
She was closer to me than anyone i've ever known.
She knew me better than anyone else.
She knew my deepest fears
My darkest secrets
My every thought
She knew all my quirks and habits
She knew how i spoke and walked and loved
She was my closest friend.
But i hated her more than anyone.
Even though I was her only true friend
The others were traitors and liars.
She had the lowest self esteem
The longest list of problems
The worst personality
I killed this girl
And i liked it.
She was me.
I killed her and replaced her with the me i was supposed to be.
She was condfident and funny
Smart and outgoing
She had the best she could ask for.
She was happy.
Fun and determined
Talented and optimistic
In this sense you see
****** is a good thing
And the best decision I ever made
Was to **** that girl.

I long for touch
Not by means of sexuality
Not innapropriate deviance
I long to hold your hand
Rest my head on your shoulder
Is that strange of me to say, best friend?
I love you so much, as in means of friendship
I'm in friend love with you.
Can i sit close to you?
You can put your arm around me
We can snuggle
You can run your fingers through my hair.
But society sees a ****
That is not what i am
I enjoy human company
Especially the company of my best friends
So i will hold your hand
And fall asleep on your shoulder
Because i love you friend
I long for touch.