You said you would keep me close
closer than the priest is to the alter
But you pushed me away
With every promise broken
Every postponed appointment
You mentored me to walk away
And at every lessons' end
My heart cracked and bled petrol
Which burned my love to produce soot
That darkened my veins cause my heart pumped hatred
I became a blacksmith used every hurt to forge an iron heart
So cry not for me
Cause tears cant make a dead heart love

#hurt #walkingaway #tears # heartbreak

Everyday
All I did in every way
Was to please no one but you
Take time to think it through
All I ever did was to love you

At times
I would look at you and stare
Just your smile lit me up like a flare
Thoughts of losing you were my worst nightmares
All I ever did was care

I have never understood
After all the love I gave
All I got back was so much hate
You were the reason why I did
All I ever did

My loyalty to you wasted
Efforts never appreciated
Were the circumstances understandable
Or were they really complicated
To love and care for you
Was all I ever did

#love #care #hurt

I sit and remember
Of how you were a crucial member
A part of, a bit of
The smiles I formed
The laughters I conned
I sit and remember

What I feel is best spoken
Not written
Best walked
Not ridden
If wishes I'd have every kind of horse
If permitted I'd use every kind of force
Just to get you
Give that smile back and respect you.

Love is a bed of roses
But you forgot roses have thorns
You were pricked and went away crying
I was left, never stopped trying
But I was zoned
Boxed in a circle called friend
Yes I sit and remember

Moments when our love touched
Affection kissed
And care caressed our feelings
We valued eachother and just like a shilling
We owned our world's currency
Then came inflation-we crumbled

I remember
You bought a teddy
Fused your name and mine to give birth to GreWan
I remember you telling of an endless together
I sit and remember and I ask
What happened?

I sit and remember
Of how my mother smiled at your sight
Of how every effort to get you back
Led to a fight
Silence, tears, anger, fears, lows, darkness
I sit and remember and wish for that candle to light
Give this darkened heart some light

#memories # heartbreak  #tears

They asked me if I was planning to stay with you forever
And I told them music is eternal
And playing this tune will be reminding me of you
You're like Fela Kuti and Salif Keita on a mixtape
Or Stevie Wonder and Smokie Robinson on Def Jam auto tune
You're my music
And as I am about to give highest accolade to essence of being and balance
Bear with me
Sit still as I take you to depths where oceans of lyric and rhyme
Are brought down by tide
Into this slowly throbbing heart
And the music of the sun
Is made clear in the reflection of our eyes
I can see the notes dancing
Like ecstasies aroused by the kicks and snares of an old school beat
Like messages found in a calypso
Dance with me
Remind me like the rhythm of the night that you'll last forever
And the streaks of light from dawn shan't be seen
Till I nestle in thine arms
So play me the dead man's tune
You're my music.

There it was,
All I ever wanted,
All I ever thought of and longed for,
So close in the physical,
I saw it all in her eyes.
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My fantasies went higher with every rising of her chest,
yet chances of being with her lowered with each exhale,
        taken she is,
so I ask myself,
what is heaven like if such like moments lead to hell?
#crush #Infatuation

I HOPE

  I hope the sun shines just for you today.
So that you absorb the warmth store it in your heart and let it stay.

I hope you smile more today.Get rid of the frown let your face glow and keep it that way.

I hope you see the one who makes your heart skip a beat. I hope they look in your direction and blow a kiss.

I hope you drink your coffee hot with lots of sugar in it,just to get a glimpse of what it means when I say life is sweeter with you in it.

I hope you know that there is no limit. That whatever you choose to engage in you can be the best in it.

I hope you make it through this day fulfilled and successful.And if for whatever reason you don't,I hope you know that tomorrow still awaits you.

I hope you get home safe. Whisper a prayer and shout Amen.

#Hope #I

Slow down little heart
the love you're after is older than you're excitement.
It's selfish of you to think you deserve it.

Slow down little heart,
The love you're after is stronger than your thumping.
It'll hurt you to even think you can pump it.

Slow down little heart,
A time will come when you'll proudly play your part.
When love will be yours to have.

But it is not this one.

This is too complicated for you to understand,
It is upon false hopes that you stand.
Promising and exciting but
can never fully be returned.

So stop little heart.
Stop beating for what you cannot have.

#Crushing #Hurting #Love