his body fits so well on top of mine.

his shoulders are freckled blades of beauty.
the muscles in his arms move and stretch as he reaches down to stroke my face.
his back is a smooth slate of speckled marble,
carved carefully.

I look up into his eyes.

they're oceans flooding my mind.
they drown my soul in wonder.
the oceans roll back into his head
as he leans down onto my body.
he breathes warm, sweet air onto my neck.

then,
it's finished.
he pauses.

at that moment, we are a complete puzzle, because his body fits so well on top of mine.

Text: "I wish u could just be happy"
                         Text: "I'm happy with you
silence

Are you not "happy" anymore with me?
Can you not stand me?
Then why the **** are you still with me?
Why the **** am I still here?

Please be my guest and define happy?

I went to a funeral today to show me death is so real. Told my friend. He said death might be real, but life is just as real.

This morning I watched the way the sky blends like a man pushing down, ******* it to some how make it perfect when it already was. I can't explain what happy or beautiful means because, I've never been called that by someone who has stayed.

So don't tell me those things

We're not happy anymore.

my mother once warned me of
addiction
in the form of a bottle
but never told me about
you
and your pale blue eyes would
drive me to every AA meeting
I've ever been to
(s.j.b)

but how can coming home
late be a crime when
there was always
a part of me wondering
what it would be like to wake
up next to you everyday
(s.j.b)

Your words burn going down but yet
                  I
                                   still






                   swallow



It's 2 am and you still are keeping my thoughts up. New record.

I'm still wasting away time in thoughts of your eyes
Smile
Smile
Eyes
Smile
Lips
Lips
Smile
Eyes
Lips
Smiling on the outside
You're nothing more than the letters on my *******
The cuts in my rhymes
The songs in my throat that crawl out of my mouth to someday save you from all this worlds hate
Anger
Why is my heart still breaking?
Still wanting to tie our pinkys together so we can't let for of the promise of forever
So tell me
Why does it feel like Gods just a babysitter on the phone?
And why the hell am I still alone?
1. My aunt says I'm too sensitive and I can thank my father
But doesn't that make your smile just as sinister?
2. A chance is what I desire
But I've never had a chance I wait for change but change becomes passion
Passion becomes destiny
Destiny takes a lifetime
Lifetime is nothing but a waste
Just watch the channel
3. Yes, I keep guns in my lungs just waiting to pull the trigger on someone
4. I was taught that being alone is better than losing what you want
5. Let's pretend that we don't exist and love never sprung up from our finger tips when I first touched your lips with
Happiness wanted to exist
I think so did forever
6. I'm sorry I came hard with claws
7. I'm sorry your life looks like this in photo albums
8. I'm sorry I spit every single problem on the bottom of your shoes
But you denied it for no more and no less of a quarter
9. I went home with cuts down my spine thinking I'll be fine
10. Your words bleed the blues of my words that should be spoken but are only left scars
1. The moon is closer to the sun than I am anyone
4. You
To caught up in other peoples business because your own countless nights without sleep isn't enough
25. Everyone died their hair in memory of you
Blue
But they can't tell one thing about you
6. I'm down kneeling on already scraped knees
5. The trick of attraction is that it doesn't make sense
4. The trick of attraction is perfection
3. I'm sorry we can't talk about it
2. She spends her nights lying awake retracing her lips because there once was a time he had kissed them
1. Do you get the catch?
Or are you the chase?
Or the base?
Maybe the core?
Ya, you're the core of my hate

He's the tickling laugh in my throat
2. He's the deep thought on Saturday nights
3. He's the daydream under my tongue but the reality of seeing him and her together (forever they say)
4. He's the reason why my hands are always cold
5. He's the smile that lights up my heart (and my face, as red as his girlfriends lipstick)
6. He's the reason I look back into
The past
The night on the trampoline
The winter guard performance when he first touched my hand, but quickly let go to touch hers
7. He's the overwhelming feelings in my head when our eyes finally hit each other's
8. He's the (we oddly have a lot in common)
9. He was always that phone call in the summer
10. He's the long bike rides where his wheels hit the same pavement, but she
She's the whisper of dout that we can never be a we

~(T.P)~

Definition of friendship- the emotions or conduct of being friends.
Definition of friend- a person whom one knows and whom has a bond of mutual affection.

1. She knows me better than I know me with my eyes closed, upside down, swinging on a tireswing with a frog duck tapped to my ankle (holding a lollipop)

2. They says friends come and go, but what do they say when you're in highschool and everyone around is the same.

3. She hates me because we started as friends but he grew wanting to be more when she hid behind texts.

4. She's the best poet I've ever heard, but not the bravest.

5. I miss her.

6. She hates me.

7. I lost my only friend.

8. She hates me.

9. She hates me.

10. She ******* hates me.

11. She's the only one I let read my poems before I speak them.

12. She wears her heart on her sleeve.

13. She's so sad, but makes everyone around her laugh so she won't feel as lonely.... Hiding behind the tears of a clown.

14. She's insecure but as beautiful as a rain drop hitting a window.

15. But she wears the ugliest mask.

Yet I'm still laying here. It's pitch
                              black
The only thing bright enough to see is this tiny little screen I
                    tap tap
                                     tap
To write you this poem.
                You'll be happy to hear I've started smoking again to let my lungs go
                 B
                          L
                A
                            C
         K
Because for once, I let them breath. You told me to try.
              You said it'll be fine. We'll be fine. Yeah I believed you, but my mistake. You're like the smell of nail polish remover, you can last for days but gone in a week. Oh, but a month later, your stench, it'll crawl the house.
                   I'm sorry to be bitter,
     black.
                                          I know every morning when I wake up,
                   my mouth will taste
Like ****
                           because I know I've been saying your name
                                        all night.
~T.P~