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matthewkirn Feb 2011
Take a look
At my city
Can't you see
The flowers
How they grow

Take a look
Show me some pity
Dont you know
I'm no stranger's fool

Take a second
To find some deeper meaning
Don't you know
I'm the one
You call control

Take a second
To realign your haunting
Don't you know
Don't you know
I'm no fool

Take a look at me
You'll see an indigenous friend
I'm free my god I'm free

Take a look
At my city
Can't you see
The trees surround me

Take a look
Oh what a pity
You fool kid
You'll never be free

I said I'm sorry
And I'm sorry
You'll never be free
matthewkirn Feb 2011
Can you help me?
Can you, can you help me dream.
Because it seems
Like i close my eyes and it's morning

This motion sickness
I've had for far to long
And the barrel of whiskey is gone
And I don't know how I will get along

I keep dreaming That i'm dead
On the ship and it's sailing south
The wood has rotted away
Water is pouring into my mouth

I mean I don't watch the news
I just get it from the sky
But I've seen a few to many smoke clouds
To think that everything is alright

Are you alive
Are you alive
Am I?

Are you alright
Are you alright
Am I?

I keep dreaming That I'm dead
On the ship and it's sailing south
The wood has rotted away
Water is pouring into my mouth
matthewkirn Feb 2011
You showed up after nine,
You know it's alright
I saw you in the window,
You waved goodbye to your ride
I swear I've seen his face before.

You showed up in a wheelchair,
My attention span's as short as your hair
What is he doing here?

You told me of some foreigners wedding
The time, the place and the day I'll be forgetting.
Memories are cheap to no end
The setting, the discourse, and disbelief
I can't believe this is happening
I can't believe this is happening.

To hell with you and all you're desires
You want to see my soul set a fire?
I guess fall never comes,
I'll stand here looking dumb

August is always a day away.
August is always a day away.
I'm just a method actor in this play.
I'm always a day away.

You told of some foreigners wedding
Oh yes, I knew your soul - soon i'll be forgetting
Because I don't want to write to some silly lullaby to sing to a wall
I guess you never loved me after all.
matthewkirn Feb 2011
When youre afflictions get the best of me
When they break me down to the point that i can't speak
Do you really believe
This is the best for me.

Does it help to you to feel unique
If you spit while you scream
Cause i'm laying here like someone don't dream
I spell out morning.

The morning comes out
Sun shine in his face
And i'm thinking how
I've been replaced
I've been replaced

So now i've been drawn to drink
My ideas are to weak to think
I'm staring down at my feet
Saying we're all suffering your disease
We're all suffering your disease
We're all suffering disease
matthewkirn Feb 2011
A year ago
We could be found in the same place
Don't you notice how things change
Notice how the snow is starting to act like rain
And the bloods back to flowing through you veins

I swore I put you in your grave
I swore I put you in your grave

Don't you feel these hearts beat
Beating faster to keep up with moments that never last
To stay ahead of the game
Don't you know some things never change,
I feel your blood through my veins

I swore I put you in your grave
I swore Iput you in your grave

Happy holidays, yeah happy holidays
I hope you find your place
Happy holidays, yeah happy holidays,
I'm glad you found your place
matthewkirn Nov 2011
I hope you like
What you've become
Another holiday
I won't go
I know everyone there is a fraud
That's why you get along

I know I love what I've become
The same **** thing as before

If I waste my time here
Do you waste yours too?
If I waste my life here
Do you waste yours too

Stop and listen to yourself
I bet you love your voice anyway
From the way you talk so cheap
I bet you don't remember me

I'm standing right here
Are you really that ******* blind
From the way you talk so cheap
Just another holiday that will never be.

I know I love what I've become
The same **** thing as before
matthewkirn Dec 2011
I keep waiting on my dream girl to wake up.
Shake off this **** and get out of this town.
I bet you prey on us just to starve to death,
I bet you pray for this just to starve.

Angels can't fly when it storms like this.
No angels can fly when this storm hits.
Thunder will shake those wings right off
God can't be as miserable as you are cold.

Keep sleeping, don't dare forget to breathe
Can't miss a second with those eyes clinched so tight.
I'll just leave if you'd rather go through this hell alone.
matthewkirn Feb 2011
I'm starting,
to be able to see,
I'll map it out,
I'll get back to you next week.

Do you
Believe in me?
Or am I just a ghost
We'll wait around to see

Were you,
really conceived?
Or just some accident,
Marketed history.

These walls,
they're calm and cold
Whiskey wore them down now,
And I'm slurring their notes.
Oh I'm calm and cold now,
And I'm slurring my notes
Oh I'm calm and cold now,
And I'm slurring my notes
matthewkirn Nov 2011
If I could
I would
Sail to the end of the earth

And I
I would
Never step foot on an ounce of dirt

For what it's worth
You were the birth of my soul
I don't know
No control, got nothing left but hopes

I know
I've got  
No plans tonight

If you're alive
won't you stop this
Make it right

If I could
I would
Stop the earth

Stop motion
Figure 8
The tapes stuck in reverse

It would be something new
It would be Something burned
I learned we take turns
To turn back into dirt
matthewkirn Feb 2011
This city is mine
You know it feels fine
To have both the day and the night
You wanna go for a ride?
I wanna go for a ride

So I close my mind
Dial back time,
It's normal you know,
Have you changed your mind?
I can't turn back you know, I can't restart
Go ahead walk out of the city, turn back into morning star
matthewkirn Feb 2011
God and a blind man
They're keeping score
There are tall men, staring at me
Guarding the door.

And one of score keepers is,
Is pointing me a finger at me
He said "touch, my heart
give me life, set me free"

I reached out to hold him
He disappeared
Static in the air, vanished
Screeching pierced my ear.

Then the dirt split,
it said "come on in
I've been watching you all your life
We can be friends"

I stared back blank
"it will have to do
I'll say my farewells
and I'll start seeing you"

I go back to the room
Nobodies there
The score book is alone
Just resting on the chair

The blind man left a note,
"i have won"
God ripped his side up
scribbled "I am done"
matthewkirn Nov 2011
Sing a sad song
about a place that never existed
And twist it to suit yourself

Dream about a time
You barely missed and
be bad to your health

Cause she'll only be here once
And you've tried to hard
To take this lighthearted
and not give her your card

Nothing truly crosses over
It gets stuck some place in the fray
But if I have to choose between the both
I'd lose your business in the gray.
matthewkirn Feb 2011
If I had a little piece of the puzzle
Would you say, Would you say
I have figured why you struggle?

If I had a lullaby,
Would you say goodnight,
And would you said I'm not afraid of free flight?

Pack up your bags and say goodbye
To all of your ******* nights,
Sleeping out, Sleeping out in the cold Wind

It blows on, and the devil sun rises,
It keeps my mind at ease
I'm a ******* tyrant, I do as I please

So please forgive me
For the way I'm screaming at your dog
It's nine o clock and I'm trying to get some ******* sleep

You see my friend sleeps with the fishes
He lost some money on a horse race
He now scrambles his brain, he's all over the place

So place me up on the shelf
Next to some trophy you stole
And I'll remind you that gold was not the goal

So gold digger, or grave digger
However you wanna be seen
Remember that it's all in a dream

Remember that it's all in a dream
Remember that you are a dream.
matthewkirn Feb 2011
I missed her name
But that all makes it serene
She doesn't exsist
Stuck as a figure of speech

Think back on missing now
You somehow will run out
Some sunlights a shadow
She doesn't exsist anyhow

Theres so much beauty in nothing
And that's how we sleep
Theres so much beauty in nothing
And that's why we're free

I wish i could find home
But warmth is a kaleidoscope
Something we'll never know
Something we'll never think we know
matthewkirn Feb 2011
There was a kid,
He snuck a peak at heaven
He said "it's okay I'm going back to my room"

He swore he
Was three times seven,
Said "We are all chugging to our doom."

I swore I
Would teach him his lines
take him out back and teach him what to say

He looked up
Said there was no use
He's done all he's here to say.

She cried

I asked why
He never went back
To the window that he drew.

He said "I
I never meant it
I never wanted to save you.

I, I, I,
I die, I died
I died for me not for you.

You see my
My father, never loved me
Sent me here to love you.

I, I lied
I'm just a child
You know me not to be true.

I, I lied
I'm just a child
You know me not to be true

I swore I,
I was taught my lines
You took me out, taught me what to say

I, I looked
Out from my room,
I thought this was a play

Said I,
I'm just a child
Here to teach you how to stay"

I erupted
With fury you know
It's the better way

She Cried
matthewkirn Nov 2011
I swear
If I could fly
We could disappear
We would go so far away
Just to make it clear

That we are young
And ****** in love
Twenty years gone
And going strong

I know I've gotta
I've Gotta wake up

I know
If I could write
I could make it clear
That we are so legit
that the end isn't near

And we are young
And ****** in love
Twenty years gone
And going strong

I know I've gotta
I've Gotta wake up
matthewkirn May 2012
I know,
You know
Your way around
This town here

I hope,
You don't
Try to be
Something special here

A cacophony,
Of 4/4
Nothing's upbeat here

No magic,
No slight of hand
Can be seen here.

And you know,
Better than to be something special here.
matthewkirn Oct 2012
The secret to life is when you realize that you are statistically insignificant.
Just like everyone else.
There is no big bang, secret plan, end game goal.
Only you can care for your wealth.

It would be a disaster to act like at the end of it you get a token,
"Great job at life." no one will tell.
Keep your head down, or up for the matter, it doesn't matter.
If no one is watching, this isn't stealth.
matthewkirn Feb 2011
The sky it keeps faling apart
You share my rib,
We share the same heart
I'll keep you safe from the storm
keep you clean keep you sheltered and warm.
Isaac come to the mountain top,
Everything is okay,
Yeah your with god
If you hear a mouse
Don't be alarmed
Its just my heart
Tagging along
I've gotta go now so heres my amends
The hero goes to hell, the storm it ends
matthewkirn Feb 2011
The sky opens up
And the birds start to sing
And I'm thinking love,
Doesn't mean the same thing
It did when I was a kid
It was alive, We will always be alive

The sky opens up
And the leaves start to fall
And I begin to wonder
Is this all, we were dreaming of
Cause love is always alive,
And it will always be alive

But I'd have to say it would be a lie
I'm just not committed to some, other night.
matthewkirn Nov 2011
I sit here thinking
I sit here while slowly sinking
Wanting to not be here
Wanting to be just some other place in general
Cliche, the words are true
I am thinking of you

I imagine us in the park
Hanging out, after dark
Just being around you for a while
Just seeing that haphazard smile
This as it may seem
Is just a reward one has to dream

But alas, nothing gets amassed,
I cannot have it yet, or at least not once this hour has passed.
For you think yourself to be a demon or queen, most likely in between,
So treat the last few minutes as nothing.
matthewkirn Feb 2011
You want to know what you meant to me?
You're repressed memory,
Some living ghost,
That haunts me in the halls.

Yeah take some time, work yourself out,
It's okay, I'll find someone else
It's not like,
This isn't what I saw in fall.

I'll keep,
I'll keep moving on
I'lll stay up,
By myself to dawn
That way I feel,
Nothing's wrong
I'll keep singing to myself,
My new "favorite" song.

****, how could I forget?
You, you were heaven sent,
Some lush angel in mourning,
That I never "knew"

The lights, they grew tired,
A stereo is now for hire
A lie,
And I'm not missing you

You're right,
Maybe I can't understand,
But you are the one,
That pushes away my hand.
I'll smoke,
while you repeat yourself again.
"You don't care about me",
Yeah, I'm not that kind of man.

You want to know what I see,
I see a drunk, a waste a mess
Avoiding me,
Do your best kid, just move along

I guess you can say the same about me,
Just change the faces and the names,
I am lost,
Why did I write this song?

Oh yeah,
Oh yeah just move along.
Nothing,
Nothing to see move along
If you ever ever get this noise,
Know I was wrong,
For looking your way,
and trying to tag along.
matthewkirn Jul 2013
I know my name
I've seen my face
I've lived the same
I've ****** with fate

Some *******'s song
Some blind man's faith
I know how you want it
You want it the way,
Wanted the wait,
Wanted the way,
Wanted the weight

There you go again
Changing if to when
Said you'd fallen through,
Once again, once again
Quit it you know,
What you've got
Lot of weight
Lot of wait.
matthewkirn Jul 2013
I asked you
Where you went
You said you're off
In the steeple

I asked you
What you meant?
You sang I've gotta,
Save these people

I am the moon
We are the stars
We are the ships
That go, far

I sang a lullaby
With words we don't remember
You sang all your goodbyes
Wasn't even winter

We sang,

We are the suns
We are the stars
We are the ship,
That goes far

I sang of your melodies
You always sung so sweet
Some dreams we don't wake up,
The others we wind up deceased.
matthewkirn Nov 2011
I swear nothing else will do
make me believe it's true
I swear I do
I lie I lie I lied to you

Fall sends me to the edge
Wake me when this winter ends    

make a mask with all this fraud
stop blaming your **** god
I've got friends too

I will fake amends
While i make this mess
I'll come out of this clean as you

Let snow pour down
Oh yeah you're pure now
Another cliche you know isn't true

Fall sends me to the edge
Wake me when this winter ends

Make a mask with all this fraud
Stop blaming your **** god
I've got friends too

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