Here I sit as I've sat before
Blowing smoke rings, nothing more
Never a stir or knock at the door
Just I alone as always before

When I take a moment to watch a ring
Float away on invisible wings
Lead to the sky on the thinnest string
I tried to grasp it but felt the sting
As it disappeared between my fingers
Nothing of the beauty stays to linger

And it's that moment when I think of you
Beautiful and free floating on air
And I know if I try to capture you too
I will leave with hands lonely and bare
Beauty is not a flower to keep
Stored on a shelf in perpetual sleep

It is fluid and ethereal
Not made of any material
For life wouldn't be fair
If I could keep you all for me
I have to let you taste the air
Because beauty is only beautiful when it's free

If only I knew how to say
That we are all drowning in terrible pain
But rather than run the other way
We must stay to fight another day
Of all the demons I have to slay
I never feared them though you may
Sometimes it may seem my heart is gray
But it is from many battles, I had to pay
For I am alive more than they
And I never was scared of the fray
For fear is how we truly fall prey
Our hearts become easy to betray
Our souls are lead too far astray
Our weaknesses held out for their display
Our minds too dull to hardly obey
Our eyes too closed for our thoughts to sway
And to our horrible dismay
We just continue to decay
Though we never feel it for all it weighs
We just close your heart and begin to pray
But the only way to hold the fear at bay
Is if we start living now, today
So mold your heart of the softest clay
Mold it into the most beautiful vase
And fill it with love that will always stay
And maybe someday you'll feel okay

Easy when a face can be replaced
Everyone enjoys the show like broadway
Easy to take a chance when nobody knows you right?
A song and a dance and you're a different man ever night.

This hell is yours
No one forced you here
They only showed you the door
And you chose to choose fear

This is a story I wrote
Of a man so alone
All he needed is hope
So he can find his way home
He's got his heart, he's got his words
He plays it smart, he won't get hurt
All he wanted is to be heard
But he's afraid of getting burned
All he's known is so much hate
So much pressure to be fake
Turned his world into grey
Can you take it all away?
Never had a real model
Someone who knows him like a father
Why would anybody bother
He'll never be like the others
Never let anyone see
What he really wanted to be
He hides behind his smiles
Suffocating all the while
If you looked what would you see
A soul fighting to break free
Or just a sad comedy
Only I know because he's me
I wrote this story
I made this for me
I set the demons free
Locked my heart inbetween
Set fire to the fuse
Said I had nothing left to lose
But nothing is was I was afraid of losing
A slave to my fear of choosing
Now my shackles are weightless
My demons are shapeless
If I'm going to face this
I'm going to have to replace this
I'm not writing in blood
Not writing in stone
It's never enough
And I'm not writing alone
This is a chapter of war
A story of more
A legacy at the core
Won't stop till I'm sure
Lets burn these pages and breathe the ashes
Echo through the ages when this sky crashes
My words shake the ground where I shout
Watch your ears when I come screaming it out
I'm not backing down never letting go
Never going back till I put on a show
So sit back and watch me light the night
You're coming for the ride so hold on tight
Cause this story is for you and I
I'm writing the words to make it right
I hope you've got your pen cause you're not staying here
It time to run for our lives till there's nothing to fear
I'm swinging these bars wide open
And I know I've got you hoping
So just let everything go
And soon you'll know
You'll never hurt again I promise you so
Spill your heart and let your ink flow

I know they hurt you
Cheated, burned, and caged you
I'll be just like them soon
Only with a twist or two
I can't wait to cheat
It won't be fair
When I make you laugh
Even in your darkest despair
Can't wait to burn you alive
With the passion that consumes me
Can't wait to tell you a lie
When you ask if I know what we'll be
Can't wait to make you hurt so much
With a smile to burn your cheeks
For all you'll be wearing it
Every time I dare to speak
Can't wait to cage you up
No freedom in sight
From a loving embrace
Holding you through the night
How many tears you've cried
I will never truly know
How many more will spill the night
I vow to never let you go?
How many lies have been told?
But the truth always hurts worse
You're the most beautiful being I've ever known
Oh how will you live with such a curse?

Painted through the ether
Like a spray of stars
****** if I'm not a believer
Someday I'll be where you are
In the dark peace of space
Floating so slowly
Shining beauty on the face
Of I, so lowly
Burning yourself to light the world
No one else knows what you are
But I'll pull you down to earth
My beautiful shooting star
Elegant skin
Like the silent moon
Slipping through my hands
For dawn is coming soon
You may be so far away
Peeking from the twilight
But for me gravity holds no sway
I will take my flight tonight
Dive into the black unknown
I don't need the light of day
All I need is you alone
And I will always find my way

I feel like you're the girl I never thought I would meet
I've spent years thinking I was being unrealistic but I believed
Now here you come showing me I've spent my entire life settling
And that is something I won't soon be forgetting

Did you know?
I'm sure you didn't
That somewhere below
Somewhere forbidden
There is a shadow of doubt
A valley of death
A thorn that won't come out
Stealing your breath
A wall of scales over your heart
Hardened to stone
A sadness pulling you apart
Knowing you're alone
That no one can help you
No one can save you
No one can break through
And who would want to?
There's nothing here but ashes
Broken dreams and shattered glasses
Your feet are cut and your hands still
A hole of misery you can't seem to fill
No blood left to spill
Nothing left to ****
Nothing worth knowing
Nothing worth showing
An empty husk, a barren world
A beautiful rose come unfurled
This is the end
This is your life
Can't defend
Can't make it right
Dead is what you are
Dead is how you'll stay
Happiness is so very far
And so easily taken away
....But did you know?
I'm sure you didn't
That nothing is broken
And everything is forgiven
I came to this desert to plant a seed
To turn the soil and let you see
To light the dark and set you free
To give you something to believe
Someday you'll see it wasn't all me
These shadows and motes are protection
To hide something beyond detection
The smallest flame of the thinnest candle
So fragile, the lightest breeze it couldn't handle
But you're wrong, it will never go out
It will burn through this cage
Set fire to your doubt
It will smolder every page
Of your sins you couldn't live without
It will take your darkness
And close the wounds shut
Soften your heart from the hardness
Bring fire back into your blood
It will burn you forever
Never let you go
Never let the pain
Torture you so
You are perfect, it's only fact
You must love with your heart and never take it back
Before anyone can truly love you too
You must simply learn to love you
If there is anyone that deserves your flame
It is the one who brought it to life
It is you who deserves the blame
It is you who lights the night
To put it short and sweet
If there was a way I could,
There is always one who believes
Who needs your kindness if you would
It was you, always you
That loves you, so love them too
Someone so perfect you need nothing else
If only I could show you how to love yourself

Who knew, who could?
Who hurt you? Who would?
Who couldn't believe?
Who felt you breathe
And decided to leave?
Something I see
Inside the depths of your eyes
Something so free
Beyond your modest lies
Something is on fire
With the breadth of wind
The stillness of water
The quake of the earth
Such a beautiful liar
The last standing friend
The laugh that caught her
Never knew her worth
Are there words for her?
The stars that align in her eyes
The beautiful summer blur
Moving on without compromise
Catch it before its gone
And maybe you can be the one
The curve of an angels wing
In the grace of her cheek
Like warm snow before spring
In her lips before she speaks
Hands to beat the devils touch
Cause my heart to race so much
Her soul kindled by music and dreams
Reality never made a place for you and me
Her skin is like home
A place where you belong
Where nothing is wrong
Where the seeds of love and life have grown
Her voice like a wind chime on a stormy night
In the depths of fog she is my only sight
A million years I lived before you
But to make you smile
To let you know love loves you too
Makes it all worth while
To take the last tear from your beautiful face
Replace it with a smile that could light this place
To let you know there is nothing to fear
That nothing can touch you while I am here
To hold you outside of a black hole
So you know I'll never let you go
It may seem like its all for you
But you love to make me selfish
Cause the fire in my heart leaves me helpless
And nothing in this world was ever so true

If you are the one
And I for you
Then stop being one
And let us be two
We could be three
Maybe one day
Four or five?
Who could say?
A Four letter word
Between us two
Worth more than a million
I could give to you
If roses can be red
And violets blue
Than who said
We couldn't be two?
A hundred days
Equal our one
A thousand moons
For one sun
If a heart grew
Twice it's size
For just once
That I saw I your eyes
Then I could say
In just three words
In every way
I love her