Ego
I have this thought every now and again
I feel like I am one of the few
who considers the suffering of all our friends
we are all each other’s friends
we are all made up of the same two strands
why doesn’t the world think like this?
I don’t understand.
Just think of what we could all accomplish if we all lend
to all our friends
our helping hands
and form lifelong bands
that could withstand
time, space, hate, and heat
lifelong bonds that could diminish all the negativity.
I would love if I could see
a world rid of pain, suffering and grief
a world where we could all agree
to put each other ahead of the notion of the me
for the greater good of all humanity.
Imagine if everyone could just let go of their egos
oh the places mankind could go
oh all the beautiful amazing things we could all know
oh all the things our brothers and us could show
oh all the ways we could make our human brains grow!
But like I said
I have this thought every now and again
just a thought I thought and wanted to share with my friends.

Tears

As these tears stream down my face
I am brought back to a different place
a place I wish could be erased
or at least processed enough not to leave a trace
a place where my thoughts race
a place where I can still picture your face
I wanted you to keep up the pace  
I hope in life’s true meanings you now chase
Instead of a high wrapped in pretty lace  
regardless I am rooting for you to win this race
I pray you do not let yourself go to waste
because of you, it is you I no longer taste
and it is you that needs to be replaced
and now I sit here as tears stream down my face

(To:) Johnny
I once knew a boy named Johnny
We were good friends for a short time

He was my cousin’s best friend
Although they didn’t remain that way

Johnny was a gentleman
Whatever I was going through he held my hand

He made me laugh we always had fun
And from him I learned a lot of things

Like all about the softer side of the opposite ***
But he was too much too soon and I couldn’t handle it

So friends we remained for a short time
Until another man caught my eye

Johnny taught me how to kiss for him
In the dark at my aunt’s house no less




That will remain one of my cherished memories
In the dark with you listening to Usher and Alicia Keys sing “My Boo”

You loved me without guilt or shame
But I knew nothing of love then

Now I do, and I know it was you
Who comforted me after my first fight

You warned me then that Chris wasn’t right
How I wish I would’ve listened

But I didn’t
And we went our separate ways

It breaks my heart looking back on it now
What you must have been going through what you must have been feeling

All the ways I must have hurt you
All the while I was too young and naive to see




Then I got the dreaded phone call
With it came an invitation

It had been at least 3 years
Since the last time I saw you alive and well

I couldn’t handle that ugly truth
So once again, I wasn’t there for you

It breaks my heart to say that
Because you were always there for me

I can’t believe no one stopped me
So I could stop you

I can’t believe I couldn’t bring myself to see all the good in you
And then try to make you see it too

It breaks my heart to think about your end
About how lost and lonely you must have been




I should have been there and I wasn’t
I let you down time and time again

And through all that
You still considered me your friend

It is something I will always have to bear
How I let someone go who needed me

So please if you can hear me
I apologize with every single fiber of my being
I apologize
I am so sorry
So so so sorry
For not being there
For not being the person you needed me to be
The same person you always were for me
I know I let you down
I love you
I miss you
And I am so so so sorry
I always see us as those two cats on the fence  

~R.I.H. Johnny~